Authors Note: Okay, so after this chapter I am going to skip ahead a few days. Not too far, but far enough to get the story moving a bit. Hope you don't mind. Oh and please review and tell me how I am doing. I don't want to write something if I am doing really bad at it and no one tell me. Ha ha.
Disclaimer: Me + Twilight = A lawsuit.
The movie was over and we are now playing truths. Esme wouldn't let anyone play truth or dare, apparently some incident the last time Emmett played. I smiled, imagining what could have happened.
It was my turn. "So, Edward, how do you like Forks so far?" I asked, truly curious about his opinion.
He cringed while the rest of the table laughed. "Have you ever heard of Lauren? Or Jessica? Oh, and Tanya." He practically spat her name. I smirked a bit. They are part of the reason I have no friends. They have a way of making it so no one will like you.
Not that I minded, it made my life easier...Well as easy as it can be. "Yes, I have heard of them. Why, don't you just love them?" I asked, trying to contain my laugh. Of course they would be all over him, has he not looked at himself in a mirror?
"Oh yeah. They're a joy." I noted the sarcasm covering his voice. Emmett started laughing, again.
"What, Eddie, you didn't like the glances, or the gestures, oh and lets not forget the time that Tanya came up to you and said-" he was cut off by Edward getting up from the table, fuming.
"Don't you dare repeat it, Emmy. And don't call me that." he said as he walked out of the room. Everyone laughed again, finding it funny. Feeling a little bad for him, I decided to find him. I finally was able to walk, again. I guess I just had to find my equilibrium.
I got up and started out of the kitchen. "He is probably in his room, Bella." Alice called out after me. I nodded my head and smiled. I was glad I wouldn't have to look all through out the house. Going up two flights of stairs was going to be enough.
I walked down the hall, his room was right next to mine. It is part of why I loved it so much, I had a window and it had the best view anyone would ever see.
I knocked lightly on his door. "Edward?" I asked quietly, not wanting to upset him anymore. I heard a shuffling and then the door was open with an angry Edward.
"I don't want to- Bella?" He asked with a look of horror crossing his face as he looked at me. I guess I didn't do as good a job as I thought I did at hiding my fear of him at that moment. He looked at me, looking like he didn't believe I was here, before clearing his throat and saying, "Do you want to come in?" stepping aside for me.
I nodded my head and walked in, trying to hide my blush. I've never been in any other room but my own since being here. I looked around and was shocked. There was so much music in here. Music is my own escape, the only thing that blocked out everything when my mom and Phil fought, after my punishments with Charlie. They made me forget about everything.
There were also books, tons of them. It was amazing, to say the least. I walked up to the bookshelf and looked through them, and then did the same with the Cd's. I couldn't seem to find out how they were ordered, it was an odd pattern. "Edward, how did you order these books and Cd's?" I looked over at him after he didn't answer for a few seconds.
He was looking at me. I looked at him and blushed. How could I not notice someone like him staring at me? I smiled and walked over to him, trying to get his attention. I waved my hand in front of his face and that seemed to break him out of his trance. He grabbed my hand and held it, smiling. "I ordered the Cd's by earliest music to most recent, same with the books." he finally said.
"Oh. Cool. I didn't think someone would be so into music that they would actually be able to do that." I looked over at the Cd's again and walked over to the ones closest to the CD player, bringing Edward with me, since he didn't drop my hand yet. I was almost afraid to touch his CD player, a Denon DN D9000, according to the label on it. I looked at the Cd's and didn't recognize any of them from any compositions I have listened to.
"Who did these, Edward? I have never heard of them." I looked back at him and realized he was blushing. I looked around the room once more and noticed that there was a guitar in the corner. I looked back at the CDs, But there are piano pieces here, too.. I looked back at him, confused.
"Those are mine. I play both the piano and the guitar. Although, I am more serious with the piano, than with the guitar. I more just mess around with the guitar every once in a while." He said, running his hand through his hair, looking sheepish.
"Well, could we listen to your compositions?" I asked him, hopeful. He sighed and smiled at me, looking more relaxed but slightly nervous.
"Of course, Bella." He picked up a CD with both piano and guitar compositions and put it in the CD player. I went over to the bed and sat down, him coming with me. The first notes I heard out of the CD player was like listening to a person playing it live.
First you heard a guitar come in, soft, but strong, building up the melody. Then you heard the piano come it, mezzo forte, slightly loud, but not loud enough to overpower the guitar as it builds it up to the bridge. You can feel the emotion swirling around you, it is almost enough to cry, imagining what Edward was thinking and feeling while he composed this. Both the guitar and the piano are now strong and powerful, at the crescendo of the song, so strong it makes you want to be with him as he plays it. It gets more powerful with each chord, the strength of each note carrying through until the next one slices through it with its own story.
Finally the song starts so slow down, get softer and softer, until it is only a whisper and a memory and it ends on one final note, ringing through out the room. I opened my eyes, realizing I was crying and looked up at Edward, smiling. He looked down at me and wiped my tears away, smiling gently back at me.
"Did you like it, Bella?" He asked softly. I nodded, afraid to break the peaceful atmosphere. He hugged me and I felt, once again, all of the emotion he was feeling at that one moment. Relief, excitement, happiness, and one more feeling I couldn't quite place. We stayed there like that for a while until I remembered why I came up here in the first place.
I slowly let go on my personal angel and lowered myself to the bed so my legs were hanging off of the edge but my body was still on the mattress. He lowered himself down to the bed, next to me, holding onto my hand and rubbing circles on my skin, effectively relaxing me.
"Edward, are you okay?" I asked softly, looking over at him. He looked back at me, confused for a few moments before relization crossed his face.
"I am fine now, Bella. I was just a little mad. They know I have no interest in those girls and yet they still pick on me about things I can't change. I only have feelings for one person, and she doesn't even know. Even if she did, she probably doesn't like me back." He looked at me with such intensity I had to close my eyes and collect myself before I answered. It didn't stop my heart from dropping, though.
Of course he likes someone else. No one would like normal Bella. If he wanted us to be just friends, that would be fine. I am not sure I would be able to handle a boyfriend right now, anyway. "How do you know that she doesn't like you?" I asked, curious as to how anyone would not like someone as godly and beautiful as this man laying next to me.
"She is just a friend, and she has made it clear." He smiled at me sadly and then turned away when his phone rang. He looked over at the stand and then back to me before sighing and going to pick up the phone.
"Yes...Okay...Yes, she is up here...Okay. I will tell her...Yeah, we will be right down...Love you, too. Bye." he hung up the phone and then laid back down next to me, sighing again he said "That was mom, she said that dinner is done and we should get down there." He looked at me, apologetic. I smiled back, dinner is better than listening about a girl that isn't you.
"Okay, shall we go, then?" I said, getting up. I stood up and got a head rush, almost falling down, again, if it weren't for Edward catching me.
"Are you okay to walk downstairs?" he asked me, worried. I smiled slightly and waited for the world to stop spinning before answering him.
"Yes, I can. I just had a dizzy spell for a moment." He looked at me disbelievingly but let go of me, never the less and, instead, wrapped his arm around my waist, helping me downstairs. We got downstairs and started eating. It was lasagna and I was actually happy because it was my favorite dinner.
We started eating and after having to reassure Esme that the dinner was amazing, we started conversation in between bites of food. "So, Bella." Emmett started. "Are you ready to go back to school?" He asked, curious. I nodded and looked at Carslile, silently asking when I was able to go back.
He looked at me and chuckled before saying, "Your recovery seems to be going as well as possible, given the conditions, so I think we should just wait until next week before we allow you to go back to school." I smiled and started planning how I was going to catch up with work.
I was about to go to bed for the night. I was really tired after dinner, dragging myself up the stairs. Now that I was in bed, however, I couldn't seem to get to sleep. I kept seeing things outside in the trees surrounding the house.
I tried to shake it off as just a feeling but I would see the shadow move a few moments after I saw it and I would have to start reassuring myself all over, again. Maybe I would be able to go to Alice's room and talk with her about it? I thought, trying to think of a way to occupy myself. "Where is Alice's room?" I thought aloud. Well, Alice is out of the question, but I don't want to be alone. Not tonight, not yet.
I thought for a few more moments, looking out the window, until I saw someone coming out into the back yard. He looked familiar and I was scared. He can't be here, can he? It seemed like he was coming right for my window. I can't stay here. I can't stay here. I kept chanting into my head.
I quickly jumped out of my bed and out my door. As soon as I stepped out of my room I ran into Edward. I covered my mouth, stopping myself from screaming as he held onto me. "Bella! What's wrong?!" He asked, worry evident in his voice. I clung onto him like he was my life source and he gently picked me up and carried me into his room.
I was too scared to care that he was doing something that I could very well do on my own. I cried into his shirt for a few minutes before realizing where I am and what I was doing fully. "Edward! I am so sorry, I probably just ruined your shirt." I said, wiping my tears and looking at him.
"It's okay, Bella. What's wrong?" He asked hugging me to him and rubbing my back, trying to calm me down. I then remembered why I started crying in the first place and looked out the window. There was no one there. Only shadows again.
"I t-thought I saw s-someone." I said, my voice muffled from his shirt. He stopped rubbing my back and pulled me away from him enough so he could see me. I looked at him, begging him to believe me with my eyes.
"Where did you see them?" he asked, anger evident in his voice. I put my head on his shoulder, feeling tired now.
"In the back yard. At first they were shadows but then I saw someone coming towards me." I didn't mention who I thought it was, thinking there was no way that he would be able to find me. Edward picked up my hand and kissed it before holding it.
"Well, he is gone now. Will you be okay?" He asked me, still worried. I nodded slowly, trying to convince myself as much as him. He slowly got up and picked me up again, sensing I was still too shaken up to be able to walk on my own.
We were back in my room again and he set me down on my bed. "Come and get me if you think that you see anyone, anyone, again. Okay?" I nodded to him, exhaustion settling in around me. He started to walk away and I started panicking, I don't want him to leave. What if he comes back while I am sleeping or something? I thought frantically.
"Edward?" I asked, trying to make him turn around before it was too late, yet still embarrassed by my next request I was going to make. He turned around.
"Yes, Bella?" He asked coming back to my bed, again. I bit my lip and looked at him, trying to decide if I should ask him or not. My fear, being stronger than my common sense, won.
"Would you stay here?" I asked, quietly, trying to convey what I was feeling. His face softened and he nodded his head.
"Anything for you, Bella." He said quietly. I scooted over to make room for him and he laid down next to me, over the covers. I looked at him strangely for a moment before saying, "Why are you laying over the covers?"
He looked at me surprised for a moment before saying, "I don't know." I held up the covers for him to climb under. Gosh, he would have frozen! I thought in my head when he laid down next to me, keeping space between us.
I took his hand, needing some contact to calm me down and sighed, letting my exhaustion take over. "Good night, Edward." I slurred.
"Good night, my beautiful Bella." I heard before I fell into a dreamless sleep.