AN: Thank you so much for that review Lilacbird. I loved it.

To clear things up, Usagi is kind of like me. She can be unpredictable. She tries to suppress her emotions but she loses control and they come out in fits of rage and anger (seems like Mello) or depression. But, truthfully, she is a very sweet, loving, and caring person. She just does not like showing it from past events. You will find out more as it progresses.

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During my unconsciousness I dreamt.
I was in a room with Nate and a few other people I had never met. Some people were falling over and grabbing at their chest. One man pulled out a gun and slowly pointed it to his head. He pulled the trigger.
Blood splattered everywhere but... I was the only one to have brain, skull, and blood splatter on them.

My eyes widened. The pieces of skull where jagged and the brain and blood were warm. I started to convulse.
I was having a panic attack. A woman with blonde hair started helping me. She ran over and layed my head in her lap.
My attack stopped a few minutes after that.

"Near, I am worried about Usagi. This has obviously traumatized her. She needs help."
"Yes, I know, Halle." Near replied.
"She needs to go change out of these clothes." Halle stated. She lifted me up and carried me out of the room.

"Come on, Usagi." She comforted.
I was sittingon a bed and was currently wrapped in a towel. I was shivering.
I obviously had just come out of the shower.
I was still breathing heavily.

"You need to put some new clothes on. Here." Halle handed a bundle of clothes to me.
I graciously took them and quickly headed for the bathroom. There, I locked the door. I dressed quickly and unlocked the door.
Halle led me back to the room we had left.

Nate was sitting at a small desk in the middle of the room. A single photograph was in his hand.
I was a picture of Mello.

I woke up.
A cold sweet was covering my whole body.
I felt a confinement on my body. I opened my eyes and saw that I had bandages wrapped around my torso.
My left arm was in a cast and my left ankle had its own cast.
I let out a deep sigh.

"You are very different."
I jumped at the sudden noise. "Who is that?"
"Watari. I have never seen someone encourage Mello to attack them."
"YOU!! Why didn't you stop him?!?" I yelled.
"You encouraged Mello to hit you. Besides, Mello is not one to hit and forget. He will most likely come here sooner or later and apologize. It's not in his nature to hurt anyone. He just has his moments of rage." Watari explained.
I was silent. 'Stupid logic.' I cursed inwardly. "Fine. You win. ...I am sorry for my actions."

Wow. This all felt very stupid. My only surviving parent dies and I instantly decide to go to the orphanage of my dreams. Lame.
Doesn't depression come after a death of a family member? I mean, even if we weren't that close.
I found out a few days later that is exactly what happens.

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I was currently in my new room. I was wrapped in a blanket. My mothers funeral had been earlier that morning. Watari had brought me.
I found out that depression can hit anyone in her way. No matter how tough or unemotional or careless. But, I still felt a little remorse.
My mothers life numbers and name and disappeared. Her body glowed red in my eyes. As did everything else. Her coffin, the flowers, her dress. Everything was red.
The color of love. But.... also the color of death.

I talked to her. I told her how sorry I was for leaving and not even trying to stop her death. I apologized for the fight between Mihael, who I found out was named Mello. I apologized for the others who's death might have been avoided if I had tried.

"Mom, ...I am sorry. I am sorry for your death. You did not deserve this. Really you didn't. ...I am sorry for the fight with Mello. I know you know you raised me better then that. I shouldn't have acted on emotion. It was truly wrong. I guess it was because I was nervous of leaving home but... I knew the police would try to give me to one of my relatives if I had not run away from them. This way I know I will be close to home." I stopped because my throat was tight and sore.
Watari led me away.

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The day dragged on and I stayed in my room. "Stupid depression." I sighed.
After the incident with Mello I had found myself apologizing and being apologized to.
My torso was still bandaged and I was sore all over my body.

With my first two weeks of living at Wammys, I had met to boys. BB and L.
I remembered Watari talking about BB and curiosity got the best of me.

I met BB in a hallway. He was hunched over and eatingstrawberry jam from the jar. I got curious and asked him why he was doing that. But, all he said was, "I don't see your name." I instantly remembered Watari telling me about someone else with these cursed eyes. "Y-You have the eyes?" I stuttered. He nodded. His aurorawas very frightening. I gulped. "C-Can you see mine?" I asked, hoping to get an answer. "No." My eyes widened.

"Wh-What?" 'Why? I can see his!' I gulped. "Beyond, I can see yours. Your lifespan is long. ...But...Why can't you see mine? I can see yours perfectly!" I started breathing heavily. Just then, another boy walked up. His name read L Lawliet. "L." I said after I calmed. "Hm? Oh, you must be Usagi. Watari told me about you and your eyes. B, could you leave? I would like to talk to Usa-Chan, alone." B sulked away.

"Usagi, Watari told me about your eyes. He said you can see like BB. Do you know how or even why?" L inquired.
I shook my head. "All I know is that I have been like this for as long as I can remember. I came here because I thought since this place is full of geniuses I would be able to get some answers of my own."

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AN: Yeah, this story sucks. Big time. I have major Writers Block and I just don't have the 'spark' to keep on writing this.

If you really want to get reading and find out what happens to Usagi please review. I could use the happiness they give you right now.