A/N: Sorry, I haven't been updating anything lately. This is a longer chapter to make up for it.

To my cool, fantastic, mind-blowing reviewers:

To Alphoscapsy-cola: It's supposed to be unclear. But I think the mystery will be unraveled next chapter. Thanks for reviewing!

To Don't know Don't care 38: Well, actually, the Tugger/Misto thing is kind of unknown to most Jellicles, but the majority are against homosexuals...sorry, just clarifying. Thanks for reviewing!

Note: Based on Loves Me Not and All About Us. Both belong to tATu.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams. - Dr. Suess.

The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it. - W. M. Lewis

From previous chapter:

"Jem", Victoria whispered in a hoarse tone as the rain thumped down upon both of them.

"I still love you."

"...", was all Jemima could say. She watched Victoria with a surprised and sorrowful look as the white queen watched her hopefully. The red, black and white calico cocked her head and asked, "What?"

Victoria noticed that the water dripping down Jemima's face had been tears all along, mixed with the rain. Victoria inhaled sharply and whispered, "I still love you, Jem."

"We were warned", Jemima lamely started trying to get her best friend (and maybe something more) to understand what she was getting at. The white queen stood absolutely still wondering if this was Jemima's way of saying, "No."

"This isn't allowed", she tried again but realized how it sounded and tried again, "I mean...what will happen?"

"What will happen if what?" Victoria asked confused by the mixed answer she was getting. Jemima inhaled deeply and exhaled quickly, "If we start our...love...again..."

She faltered and words failed her. Finally, Victoria had been able to keep her emotions inside and her face was a mask of indifference. Narrowing her eyes, Victoria used to be able to read Jemima like a book and now it wasn't any different. Jemima definitely still felt something but was reluctant because she cared about what other people thought.

"You do love me. Do you really care about what other people think that much?" Victoria asked coldly. The calico was shocked and recoiled slightly before whispering, "We can't."

That was enough of an answer for Victoria who turned away casually and turned around to leave. She left Jemima, sobbing weakly, behind and smiled slowly. Jemima hadn't contradicted her when she claimed that Jemima still loved her.

The Jellicle who waited outside Jemima's den every night could hear her muffled sobs from the inside. Obviously not wanting to be disturbed, Demeter had left her sister to weep. Ever since she was little, Jemima was prone to having breakdowns every so often. When a breakdown occurred, there was nothing to do but wait awhile. The Jellicle blinked carefully before stalking away.

Jemima couldn't believe what had happened in that single day. Victoria did still love her and now she knew that they both shared feelings. So why had she pushed her best friend away like that? It had hurt her so much, but Victoria had carefully masked any emotion and left.

Flashback:

"I still love you, Jem."

End.

And earlier in the day Tumblebrutus had surprisingly confessed his feelings for her.

Flashback:

"Um...I asked you to the Mating Dance because I really do care about you", Tumble stuttered slowly sounding a bit like Jemima. She nodded and said, "Are you trying to say you like me?"

"Yes", Tumblebrutus sighed, so relived that he didn't have to say anything more. Then he continued, "I was wondering, since next Ball or so you're becoming a queen, whether you would consider becoming mates with me."

"Um...I don't know", she confessed honestly. Tumble was a great tom and she would be lucky to have him. But Victoria was still on her mind at that time.

End.

So confused and not knowing what to do in her current condition, Jemima got up reluctantly and left for her other best friend, the moon. Tumble had a notoriously low attention span and would probably be bored of her after a few weeks, and she certainly didn't want that. Victoria had acted so cold and she doubted whether the white queen was actually still in love.

Reaching the top of the T.S.E. 1 trunk, the calico looked at the moon as she had done during the Jellicle Ball and sang out all her emotions. If she didn't sing it, she would've burst.

He loves me, He loves me not

Did Tumble really care?

She loves me, She loves me not

Did Victoria actually love her?

He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me...

Jemima's head twirled as she continued.

I started blurring the lines
Because I didn't care
I started crossing the line
Cause you were never there

Not even noticing, Jemima had gone on to previous events that had led up to the very day.

No where to turn,
No one to help,
It's almost like I don't even know myself

Every word she sang was from her heart and the words flowed freely from her mouth.

Now I have to choose
I don't know what to do
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, she loves me

Jemima looked down sadly and whispered, "She loves me."

"Hectic times, eh?" Tugger sat in the middle of the Junkyard. The two of them were alone in the night and she was suddenly afraid. Jemima murmured, "I guess."

"I know what you're going through", the Maine Coon attempted to start a heart to heart conversation. Jemima turned away shyly and said, "Do you?"

"I went through the same thing", Tugger said firmly and Jemima looked at him in disbelief. She whispered, "What do you mean?"

"Misto and I are...together", he said and suddenly chuckled. He shook his head once and said, "Even after being together I don't know what to call it."

"Oh", Jemima wasn't sure of what to say. Tugger continued, "I had to pick between him and Bomba. It hurt me so much to do that to Bomba, but I knew deep down that I could never love her as much as I love Misto."

The two sat in silence staring each other down before Jemima said, "So?"

"I got through it." Tugger tried to make his point clearer and mentally crossed out therapist on his list of future careers. The calico averted her eyes toward her paws and said, "What does this have to do with me?"

For a moment, Tugger was absolutely flabbergasted. Jemima was doing something so close to lying. His face fell and he thought, What's changed you?

Then the Maine Coon knew what was happening and turned to leave. Before disappearing he said loudly, "If you know what's good for you, you'll choose Tumblebrutus."

The calico gasped, surprised by how quickly he changed his tune and how he knew it was Tumble that she had been singing about.

Tugger closed his eyes knowing that the calico would be through a world of pain soon.

Jemima narrowed her eyes and scoffed lightly. She turned and ran towards Jelly's den at full speed.

Victoria lay down idly listening to her brother lecture her about staying out too late. Suddenly a Jellilce burst into the den and skidded to a halt. It was Jemima. The white queen cocked an eyebrow wondering why Jemima was in her den.

"Vicky, we've got to talk", Jemima said in a hurry.

"Be right back", Victoria told her brother and attempted to leave with the calico but Misto held her back for a second. She turned, momentarily surprised by the action. Then she saw her brother's eyes were dark and determined when he whispered stiffly, "You're making a mistake."

"No, I'm not", she insisted and left the den. Misto eyes darkened further and he turned to see Jenny standing near the back of the den. Jenny said, "Where did Victoria go?"

Her eyes were daring him to lie to her.

Jemima pulled Victoria after her to a more secluded place in the Junkyard. There she pulled Victoria tightly into a hug and said, "I do love you, Victoria."

"I don't want to be seperated from you, ever again", Jemima began to cry weakly. Victoria hugged her back and whispered, "It's okay."

Then Victoria kissed her gently on the top of her head and said, "I won't let anyone take you from me."

Misto licked his lips nervously and answered, "You heard everything, so why ask me?"

"I want you to tell me", Jenny answered simply and returned to her sewing.

"Victoria went out with a friend", Misto replied truthfully. Jenny busied herself and mockingly asked, "With who?"

"Jemima", Misto answered through gritted teeth. Then Jenny looked and said, "Okay, that's all I wanted to know."

Misto was amazed. He had almost been certain that the moment he said Jemima's name, Jenny would tell Old Deuteronomy about him and Tugger.

Jemima snuggled closer to Victoria and whispered, "How big is the sky?"

"It's bigger than the whole world", Victoria answered drowsily.

A few weeks passed before anything interesting happened. Admetus scratched his head thoughtfully and said to Tumble, "Did you notice that Jem and the white queen are never around?"

"Yeah", Tumble answered feeling dejected because Jemima had told him no.

"Where are they?" Plato asked and realized that he hadn't really paid much attention to Victoria after the Ball had ended. Cassandra sauntered up and whispered, "Probably having their own fun."

"What do you mean?" Electra asked as she and Etcetera walked in to talk. Etcetera's eyes gleamed knowing that there was probably gossip to be heard. Cassandra knew she shouldn't do it but she had to do it. She bent her head conspiratorially and began to spill.

When Jemima returned home, Demeter closed her eyes and readied herself to say the condemning words. Demeter blurted, "Jemima, we're both in slight danger. This means that we are both restricted from leaving our den without Munkustrap or Alonzo with us."

"What? Why?" Jemima cried. Demeter hugged her tightly and whispered, "Macavity."

"Alright then", Jemima answered knowing that it wasn't the truth.

Jemima managed to get away in the middle of the night and found Victoria waiting for her in the alleys. The white queen looked at her and asked, "Where have you been?"

"They won't let us see each other", Jemima started to cry again. Victoria patted her and said teasingly, "You cry too much."

"How can you joke around at a time like this?" Jemima asked.

"We knew that this was going to happen", Victoria answered, "Did they tell you that we couldn't see each other?"

"They said that I can't leave my den without Alonzo or Munkustrap with me", Jemima whispered. Victoria smiled and whispered, "That doesn't mean I can't visit you."

"I suppose", Jemima sniffed. Victoria patted her and started to sing.

They say, they don't trust.
You, Me, We, Us.

Jemima turned to Victoria slightly surprised. The white queen was known for her dancing skills, but her voice wasn't too bad.

So, we'll fall if we must.
Cause it's You, Me and it's all about
It's all about...

Victoria's words failed and she whispered, "I made that up."

Surprisingly, Jemima continued with her own lyrics.

It's all about us.
All about us.
It's all about
All about us.
All about us.

There's a theme that they can't touch.
Cause you know oh oh...

It's all about us.
All about us.

We'll run away if we must
Cause you know oh oh...

It's all about us.

Victoria smiled and sang.

If they hurt you, they hurt me too.
So we'll rise up wont stop
And it's all about
It's all about...

It's all about us.

The two of them sat there grinning like idiots until a voice from the nearby rooftops called down to them.

"Nice song, but two pretty queens shouldn't be in the dark alleys all alone."

A/N: Review please! Sorry this took so long. I hope that you are still reading. Not much to say.