Chapter 9

Fixing the Broken Pieces Of My Ripped In Half Heart Back Together

As Ian and I tried walking down the stairs, the aches and pains of my bones started to loosen up with every step I took. As we got down there, I noticed that the family was there crying in their vampire form.

"Mom, dad, what's wrong?" Ian said in a concerned voice.

"He's gone, Ian. We can't find him anywhere. We all looked around, and none of us has even found a trace of where he could be," James said in a pained voice.

God this is all of my fault! I kept thinking in my head.

After a while of thinking that, Ian eventually caught on. He turned to face me looking confused, "How is this any of your fault, Kristie?"

I laughed for a minute, "Your relationship with Trevor, my relationship with him is going downhill by the second, and he finally ran away. Don't you think that I had something to do with this? Ever since you went to Florida, things have just been getting worse. You seriously haven't thought about this?"

Ian looked like he was in shock, "No. I've never actually thought about it at all. Kristie, Trevor didn't run away because of you. I think he just left because things were starting to get to him badly."

James was the next to talk, "Ian. I actually think she's right. I mean, I'm not taking sides on this, but these arguments between you three defiantly have something to do with all of this. And Jonathan coming back isn't helping either."

Ian laughed, "Are you serious, James? You really think that he ran away because of Kristie? What he has seen before hasn't shaken him up one bit, and now all of a sudden Kristie is the reason? Not likely, dad. I really hate to break it to you, but Kristie has done nothing. What she has done in the past in done. We can't take it back. Now this wall all of Trevor's own fault. There is nothing any of us could do."

"Son, Trevor isn't doing good. No offense, Kristie, but ever since you and Kristie decided to get married, Trevor just hasn't been himself. He feels like he's being left out of everything, and I know he blames you, and that isn't right, but I think you're going to need to spend more time with him," James said directly to Ian.

Ian laughed, "Why should I? What has he ever done for me?"

I was the next to talk, "Be the better person, Ian."

James looked back at Ian, "She's right you know."

Ian sighed, "I know she is, but I just can't think of it that way, you know?"

I started to laugh, "And yea. I'm the dumb one. Let's see…I wasn't in school for two months, and still managed to get straight A's. And I also got full ride scholarships to some of the best schools in the country. Yea. I'm not smart," I said with a laugh

The family laughed, "Where did you get accepted?" Ian said with a surprised look on his face.

I smiled, "You know. The usual. Yale, Princeton, Harvard, and Berklee," I said looking down to the floor.

"Berklee?" Simone asked surprised.

I blushed, but Ian beat me to the explanation, "Yea, mom. You never knew that Kristie played the piano?" he asked while she shook her head. Ian laughed, "Yea, that would be Kristie. But she got a full ride during junior year."

James and Simone looked stunned, "Wow, Kristie. You would think that since we are you 'parents' that we would know this stuff. I'm sorry, Kristie," Simone said.

I laughed, "Don't worry. I really don't like talking about my musical career anyways. It's just music is my own form of expressing myself, and when I let it out, it could give off the wrong vibe. Like, if it's loud, that could mean I'm angry, or I'm thinking about something, and don't want to be disturbed, but if I play it soft and quiet, that could mean I'm sad, or I'm happy. I really don't like people making the wrong assumptions."

Simone smiled, "I know exactly what you mean."

Ian and the rest of the family had a confused expression. All I got out of any of them was a smile, "Huh?'

Simone and I laughed, "It's a girl thing."

After we said that, they all "Ahh-ed."

After I told Simone about my music, I had a realization of where Trevor might be. "I know where Trevor is!" I said with excitement in my voice.

As soon as I said that, all seven heads turned to look at me. "Where?" most of them asked.

I smiled, "I'm sorry, but I need to go alone on this one."

Ian instantly froze up, "No you are not, Kristie. What happens if he hurts you? What am I-"

I cut him off, "You can read my mind, remember? Now, if you want your brother back, I would suggest you let me go."

As I started to walk towards the door, Ian immediately blocked my way. "No you are no, Kristie. I don't want you getting hurt. And also, I don't know what kind of a mood Trevor is in, and if he hurts you and knocks you unconscious, then I wouldn't be able to know."

I laughed, "Now, if I was gone for an extensive period of time I would start to worry, but a few hours, I mean c'mon. Cut me a break, I'm almost eighteen, and I have been doing better than any of you have thought. Now, I think I can handle one little trip in the same state."

Ian thought about that for a minute, "You're going to have to call me if anything happens, okay? When you're coming home, please just let me know that you're okay, please?"

I laughed, "Fine. If it humors you, I'll do it."

He kissed my forehead, "Just be careful, alright?"

I laughed, "I usually am. It just doesn't end well."

Ian laughed, "Go then."

As I ran, I knew he would be able to tell that I was coming in a matter of minutes, but I didn't care. This is the way that I thought about all of this; Trevor would be where it comforts him the most, and what comforts him the most is Alexa. And this one time, I remember Trevor telling me what commentary she was in, and I know that is where he would be.

As I came closer to the commentary, I could hear broken sobs. Why, Alexa, why? Why in earth would you do something so stupid. Why would you take your life away from me? Why, why, why?

I slowly came up to where he was, and knelt down besides him. He didn't flinch when I put my arms around his shoulders. Actually, he just scooted closer and put his head on my shoulders.

He kept broken sobbing for a few more hours, and then he decided to talk.

"Why are you here, Kristie? Isn't Ian having a fit right about now?" he said in a soft, but harsh tone.

I laughed, "Well, he did have a fit, but I talked him out of it. I knew where you were, and I thought you could use a pick-me-up. I think we really need to talk, Trevor."

He sighed, "Yea. I know. So what's up, Kristie?"

I laughed, "Just about everything. I thought we were finally starting to become friends though. I know I screwed up, but that is no reason to hate your brother and me. You know that people make mistakes, and sometimes, we can't come back from them."

"I know. I was just really mad, Kristie. Ian went down to visit Josh, and I thought we were finally starting to spend time together and become better friends, but it all got washed away. I think of you as a sister, and I'm really happy for you and Ian. I just wanted some time with you before everything you do is with Ian," he said with a sad expression.

I laughed, "Ian is way to overprotective, Trevor. I'm lucky if he lets me cross the street by myself. You know, Ian is the 'youngest' out of your family, and he feels like he should watch out because of everything that your family did for him. And you know, Trevor, Ian is just a little bit jealous of you."

Trevor laughed, "Yea. Jealous of me. Good one, Kristie."

I smiled, "I mean it. You're the oldest, you're the smartest, and Ian looks up to you…literally," I said while he laughed. "Trevor, Ian loves you, and when both of you start with the temper, it usually winds up badly. I do apologize for taking him away from you, but people move on, Trevor. And Ian and I will probably still be living near you, or even better, in the same house. We're not splitting up any time soon, Trevor."

He smiled, "I know, Kristie. Sometimes I just wish things we the same as before. It was even easier before Ian joined our family, but we love him, and he did make a pretty good addition."

I smiled, "And what does Ian do? He loves all of you guys, and he would do anything for any of you. Trevor, even though both of you have temper problems, you both are pretty amazing. You are the best big brother anyone could ask for, and Ian is going to make a really great husband. There are things that I love in each of you, and nothing can change it that easy," I said with a laugh.

He laughed, "I guess you're right, Kristie. You know, sometimes I'm jealous of you two. I know what it feels like to be in love, and I just miss it. I miss having that someone fill the broken pieces in my heart, you know?"

I smiled, "In ways I know, Trevor. There are times when I actually want Ian to go away. I want him to balance his family out, and I know that since I came here, it's been pretty hard. I actually feel bad for him," I said with a laugh, "He has one fiancée, two amazing parents, and five of the most amazing brothers and sisters anyone could ever ask for. Trevor, he looks up to you in more then one sense. You are his elder, and he looks at you for protection and advice."

Trevor laughed, "And I usually wind up giving him the wrong piece of advice. It's not like I don't love him or anything, it's just that sometimes it gets confusing."

I laughed, "Sorry to break it to you, Trevor, but that's just life. We can't really help what happens, and we have to deal with it as it comes."

He sighed, "If only this world wasn't so cruel. I mean, I don't like living this life. I don't like living forever, and having to deal with all the struggles along the way. Now you're going to know, but I wasn't born a human, I was actually born a vampire, and I was never leading a normal life."

I sighed and put my arm back around his shoulders, "Well, I can't say that I've been through that, but I know it must be rough."

He laughed, "You have no idea of what you're in for, Kristie. These immortal years are going to be hell for you. But I do got to admit, for you just recently being changed, you took it pretty well. You should have seen Ian when he first started," he said while he paused to laugh.

"You see, Ian had these mood swings, and we know that he couldn't help it, but sometimes it was actually really funny. He would knock over furniture, he would run away, and sometimes he wouldn't let anyone within a fifty feet radius. The reason of why he is so overprotective, is that he doesn't want you to wind up like him," he said with a sigh.

I tilted my head to the side, "But it looks like he's doing pretty good right now."

He laughed, "He tried to be that way for you. If you're not around him, he'll start spazing out, or just going back to the temper problems. We all know that he can't help it, but I do feel sorry for him."

I sighed, "Ian is just…Ian. We can't help who he is, but I really do love him, Trevor. Just remember, we're not going anywhere that soon."

He sighed, "I know. I just wish sometimes, you know. Lets get you back before Ian throws another fit," he said with a smile.

I smiled back, "That wouldn't be good if he did," I said while we started to get up.

"Oh and, Kristie?" Trevor asked.

I turned around to look at him, "Yea?"

He smiled, "I love you."

I smiled back, "I love you too, Trevor."