Harry Potter/Kaede (Lucy)

Disclaimer: Neither of the stories belongs to me.

Warning: Contain violence, language, and lot of death (possible implied/realistic sex scenes in the future)

What if Harry Potter learned to control magic before he was trained to be submissive? "Abandoned" by Vernon Dursley in Kamakura at the age of six, Harry is not worried at all. He can protect himself. The young girl with pink hair and horns doesn't seems to be able to though. Hmmm…Seeing that she isn't part of the human that he hated wholeheartedly, he would tolerate and protect her…for the time being.

Kaede always knew she was different, unique. Now if she can only just prove that to the new boy at the orphanage…

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Chapter 5

For the first time in her so very short life, Lucy has a home to call her own. She is not sure how exactly Harry did it but soon after he 'clean up the mess' as he calls it, all the neighbors and people are all suddenly extremely familiar with the two of them. They settled in like they have been there all along. Last time from not long ago, the old lady that live next door has even pulled her aside and gave her some money because she quotes, 'I can't stand watch two poor orphan dears like you two to live on your own at an age so young! It's a shame that your kind-hearted mother has died so young…'

As she finish recalling the astonishing incident, she can't help burst into laughter. The look on her face! It was ridiculous. Lucy caught her breath after a while of nerve-racking laughter and shift the loaded grocery bag in her arms so she can see the darkening sky, her lips seem to curl up out of their own record to form a peaceful, gentle smile. Apparently Harry does thought of everything. She never thought that she can be so happy and at peace with herself after the myriad of mindless slaughters. The days after their reencounter were the worse. The smile on her face slowly faded as she remember the days, eyes staring mindlessly into space as the dying sun cover the reachable sky with a warm orange color.

It was like she was back into that despair time of darkness.

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Soon after Harry showing her his 'skills', Lucy's condition worsened. For some strange reasons, she soon began to doubt and blame herself with a passion while the other side of her has an urge to kill every two-legged things she sees. Excluding Harry. Every time she sees him, it is like her humanity and conscious would always snap back into focus, reminding her of all the good side of humanity and why she shouldn't kill people, and then, she would suffer in agony as her mind accuses her of all the wrong-doings she has committed.

It was becoming a quick routine.

The worst part is- she know it is right.

She would curl up in a corner and hide from Harry. In that period of time, she avoids him like a plague. Every time she sees his face, self-doubt, disgust and self-hatred would well up in her. She don't want to think, not about what she has done. But Harry robs her of that choice. Just a glimpse of his face, the sound of his voice, the warmth of his body break down every barrier she manage to put up and make her want to cry.

But no matter where she hides, Harry would always finds her. He knows her like the back of his hand. Still, Lucy tries to keep away from him as much as possible.

Lucy is scared of herself, of what she now know she can be. And in turn, became scared of contact with Harry, who know exactly what she can become. She was scared of his acceptance, rejection; but over all, her own existence.

There are voices in her head.

Voices that often speaks of death and destructions, that feed her lies and are so very seducing.

Whispers constantly overwhelm her delicate mind, bring her headaches that accompany her throughout the day. Repeating over and over again. Am I an evil person? 'Only way to survive is through killing' Killing is wrong! Why can't I stop myself? 'You are doing the right thing.' Why do I want to kill people so bad? ' You ought to rid the earth of this filths' I don't want to do this anymore…'You don't have a choice, precious.'

Harry, being the sharp friend that he is, eventually knew there was something wrong.

He confronted her.

"You got to talk to me, Lucy! Stop closing yourself to the world! So you killed a few people! So what!? You are not the only one! Who cares about the human who died? Is this about me now!? If you can't stand how I was doing things. Then tell me!! I would change whatever you don't like. You know I would! Is it because you don't like me killing people? If you don't want me to, I won't do it ever again. What do you want from me? Are you scared of me now? I'll back off if you want me to. Is it because you don't like the neighborhood? We can move right now…Talk to me, Lucy! I am worried about you!"

Before her silence, he screamed and yelled at her in rage for hours before spent. He even begged on his knees before her shocked eyes. The proud Harry Potter that she know. He was broken, and laid his heart and soul completely bare in front of her. She had no idea her avoidance of him was hurting him so bad. For the first time in weeks, her mind was empty, with nothing but the hurt broken boy laying in front of her. How did she hurt him so bad without noticing a thing? Nothing ever bothered her more as his tears did. Harry never cries. But he did, for her.

She took the fragile boy into her embrace and rest his head into her own petite shoulder. Lucy felt his white hot tears trailing down her skin, it was as if she was literally burned. "…I am worried about you, Lucy. You are all that I have. I can't lose you. I don't know what can I do without you, so please…" It was his last words that moved her and she broke down. Right then and there.

With a voice choke by tears, she told him everything. Of her invisible hands, of her strange bloodlust, of the voices in her head, with the fear and disgust she had for herself.

And he listened. Seriously with no trace of mockery.

He didn't say anything at the end of her confession and both of the children lay there as the silence stretched on.

She couldn't stop her mind from wandering and began to doubt herself once more. After a long while of silence, she finally broke it, "Harry?"

Harry look over to her lazily, "Hmm?"

Lucy crawled over to his side, wondering with a heavy heart whether she should continue talking. She decided that she should do it. A tiny ray of hope blossomed within her, maybe…he would be different…he is, after all, not human…, " Will you do me a favor? If I keep killing people... If I can't find some way to stop myself from doing it?"

Harry sit up, a solemn look now on his face, attention dedicated entirely on her, "Yeah?" Lucy lick her lips nervously before continuing, "Harry? I want you to kill me."

She was thrown across the room in a flash.

Lucy looked up with an astonished look. The heavy pressure around him nearly solidified and shifted into an aura that is audible even to her eyes. The mist nearly cover the entire house. Was that…his power?

Harry scrambled to his feet and took a few deep breathes to calm himself. This kind of out-of-control power surges have never happened before as long as he can remember under his will. He eyes hardened. Down. He commanded. The magic around him immediately calmed and bent back under his will. He close his eyes and took a second to sort out the reined-in magic. Lucy watched in silence, not daring to bother him further in a situation like this.

After took a brief check over himself, Harry stormed over to her, " Lucy, are you hurt?" Lucy timidly shake her head, completely intimidated by his dark look. Harry took a deep breath before taking a hold of her chin, forcing her to look him in the eye, "Lucy, I want you to listen to me clearly, right now, so I can clear all doubts, alright? No matter how many people you kill, you are still my Lucy. I don't care how many people you'd want to kill, Lucy is mine and therefore, not allow to die without my permission. Understood?" Lucy nodded with teary eyes and his eyes softened, "I am not going to let you die alone, so before you die, you better think clearly." She smiled.

Harry pulled away and smirked, "And anyways, although we don't have the same powers, it does share the same concept. I went through the same thing before, you know. If you allow it to continue, it is only going to worsen. They are going to start to argue louder and louder, more and more. There is only one main point. All you have to keep in mind is: Mind Over Matter. "

From that day on, he trained her from personal experience. She learned a lot from him after he lectures after lectures. It turns out that he really is a strict teacher.

"You have to remember that they are both a part of you. Don't fear it! Embrace it, accept it, then learn to control and manipulate it! It is what and who you are. If even you fear and are disgust with yourself, how can you ask another to accept and love you?"

"NO! Not like THAT! It IS you! Sense that power and bring it to the surface. Rein it IN!"

"CONTROL YOURSELF! Don't listen to her! Make her listen to you! It is only a matter of will. One will eventually bents. She is under your control. As long as you are willing to accept that and don't shield yourself from the negative emotion you placed on her, you are IN CONTROL! She only have the power because you GAVE her that power."

"SO WHAT if you secretly think human is inferior and that they all deserve to die? It doesn't matter!? It is still you! The sooner you accept who you are, the quicker you will gain full control of your body. Acknowledge how you feel but do not be affected by it, moron."

"Yes, like that, but control it further, more delicately. It is your power, know it inside out from now on. You should be able to do everything you think of with your power alone. All it takes is a mind that has a will strong enough to manipulate forces outside of you. Same concept, really. Now another-"

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"Hmm?" Lucy's mind snapped back to present as she heard the noisy chattering of a young girl about her age behind her. She seems to be asking around for whereabouts of an address or something…Lucy shakes her head a little, a smile descend upon her lips once again, ahh~well, it has nothing to do with me, Harry must be frustrated from the time I make him waited…Time to go home!

She walked away without sparing a glance to the girl waiting behind her.

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"Hey! Hey!" Kanae yell after the pink-hair girl that left her standing in the middle of an empty street, "I don't believe this! She just left me standing here without saying a word! I'd bet she live around here for sure. Wait until I find Harry-sama! I'm so going to teach her a lesson for messing with me." Kanae stomp her feet a few times and left to find another pointer. Harry…just where the hell are you?

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Author Comment: Just in case some forgot who is Kanae, she is Kouta's sister. The one killed by Lucy in anime? Yeah well, she is going to repeat her destiny.