Spoiler: Spoilers for chapitre 119 and up.
What went wrong
Please hold me because I'm cold. Please wipe away my tears because I'm sad. Please hold my hand because I'm lonely. Would you please be here with me because I want you to be?
Kurogane watched the other man sleep; his breath slow and rhythmic. Sometimes his hands would clenched the bed sheets, sometimes his breath faster than usual. The ninja had come to peace with the fact that he knew the mage's sleeping habits, the way he slept with his face down towards the pillow. He had come to peace with himself and the fact that the person he watched sleeping every day meant something special to him.
Please be with me when all lights fade. Please be with me when that day comes. The day my fears become alive and the light of hope blow out leaving me in eternal darkness.
The fact that the man he loved the most wasn't talking to him the most painful thing of all.