A/N: okay, so admittedly this was meant to be a one-shot, but after I read it back I thought about what Oliver would have been thinking, so here it is, enjoy x

Low Fidelity

I can't be her friend.

'Wish I could hold you up in my arms,

Keep you safe and sound from any harm,'

Not now, not after what she told me.

'I can't seem to function from this far away,'

Especially not when I'm dating her best friend.

'And every little moment looks so dull without your colour in my day,'

And I care a lot about my girlfriend. I might even go as far as to say that I love her, it just feels like it isn't enough sometimes.

'This is where I start to miss you more than I can bear,'

It was horrible, the one thing I'd have given anything to hear her say just a month ago twisting painfully in my gut.

'I hate this distance in between us; I don't think it's fair,'

Because I would have given anything. I was that completely, hopelessly in love with her.

'All my time's spent wondering how to stay true to you,'

And it took me four long years, but I honestly thought I was starting to get over her.

'But you're not here and now I fear,

I'll never get back to you,'

I grew up I guess; I dated other girls, she just never liked them.

'Would have carried you to anywhere you pleased,

Even if my limbs were broken and my body was diseased,'

Which in hindsight may have been a sign that she was jealous, but no-one else seemed to think that, why should I?

'I can't seem to operate from this far away,'

But now? Now I'm noticing. Those blue eyes, the ones that seem to haunt not just my dreams, but my every waking moment, are always sad, always cheerless.

'And there's a million little voices telling me I should have stayed,'

They used to sparkle like diamonds in a heatwave, now I'm lucky if I actually get to see an emotion in them.

'This is where I start to miss you more than I can bear,'

Telling her I didn't feel the same way she did was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Of course I feel the same way, I've always loved her.

'I hate this distance in between us; I don't think it's fair,'

The worst thing is that I know it was the right thing to do, but I can't accept it. I can't accept that she'll never be mine; I'll never be able to hold her the way I want to, I'll never be able to run my fingers through those gorgeous locks of hair, never be able to kiss those exquisite lips.

'All my time's spent wondering how to stay true to you,'

No, the girl of my dreams is forever out of my reach, and it feels like my heart has broken into a million tiny pieces, each more jagged than the last.

'But you're not here and now I fear,

I'll never get back to you,'

Just looking at her hurts, and even talking to her is too hard. At least when I thought these feelings were one-sided I could talk like we just friends. Best friends in fact.

'My blood aches from trying to make you appear,

Oh it's such an awful sight to just see me in the mirror,'

But I could never hurt Lilly. We've been friends for far too long for me to even consider it, never mind that fact that their friendship would be gone forever.

'This is where I start to miss you more than I can bear,'

I don't know how I'd cope with the guilt, let alone the resentment from both of my 'best girl buds'.

'I hate this distance in between us; I don't think it's fair,'

And for that reason, I'll never tell her how I feel; I love her far too much to have her hate me a couple of years down the line.

'All my time's spent wondering, why I stay true to you,'

But I will always be hers.

'Cause you're not here and now it's clear,

I'll never go back to you,'

Even if she can never know it.