I dont own. And this is a really sad chapter. Of course, if you're in love with Remus, it is even worse than sad. :)

All of the parties for the graduation season had come to a close, and summer was nearing a close. Fall was merely a few days away. I was entering my 2nd trimester. Considering the fact I was now living with Jamie, I had acquired a liking to his company, all day and night. He had spent a lot of time with the guys. Mostly on the one night of the month that was always eerie to me.

I had always wondered what was so special about that one night. Jamie had taken off work at the Order; You-Know-Who was on the move. The craze had started our 6th year but, it never grew into a great fear. Now, the Order of the Phoenix was inducting members left and right; needing as many witches and wizards on deck as possible.

I sat, by the window, watching the crescent moon. Two days until the Full Moon would appear, the night James would leave me and return in the wee hours of the morning. James came up to me and placed his hands over my growing tummy.

"How is my mummy and baby this evening?" he asked, sweetly. He was talking into my ear and sending chills all over my body.

"Baby and I are fine. How's daddy doing?"

"Getting ready for the Full Moon. I'll be-" he began.

I cut him off, "out with the guys, go figure."

"Love, what ever is the matter?"

"I just hate those nights, the nights you spend with Sirius and Remus. I miss you terribly and it's rather bloody creepy staying here all alone at night."

"It's just another thing we've done since we were in our 4th year. It's a tradition." he said proudly.

"Well, I bloody hate it."

He kissed my temple. "I'm sorry." he stopped to think a moment. "Maybe Tonks could come keep you company on those nights. I mean, she has to stay home alone too."

I had forgotten that Tonks had moved into Remus' flat a few weeks after I had moved in with Jamie. I hadn't been around her in the past few months, our schedules hadn't been running in sync lately.

"That's a pleasant idea. I would enjoy having a girl night. I assume you already called her to make the plans, love?"

He swooped down and kissed my lips quickly. "Oh, I knew it would make you be in happy spirits again."

"Thank you, ever so much. I love you." I said, smiling the biggest grin I hadn't smiled in a long time.

"I love you, too. And I will make a promise with you that you'll be around Tonks more often, if I have my upper hand in the matter."

"Oh, High and Mighty James. That is perfectly fine with me." I laughed. He joined in with me.

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The night of the full moon had come quickly, I had sat near the window waiting for Tonks to arrive. Jamie knew I was excited. I couldn't help it. It was a while since I got to be around a girl. All the testosterone wasn't great to be around when you're also pissy from the pregnancy.

The door bell rang. I half ran to the door to answer it. I opened it and there stood Tonks. She hugged me. "Lily!!!"

I smiled, "Tonks!!"

I pulled her inside and shut the door. James was just getting dressed. He was wearing what he always wore on this night. A plain t-shirt, jeans and sneakers. It was a very laid back outfit.

He saw Tonks walk into the kitchen, "Oi, Nymph." he said, grinning. He was the only one allowed to call her that, and even when she said she didn't mind, you could tell she hated it.

"Oi, Jamie. Nice outfit."

"Thank you." he walked over to me. "I will see you later in the morning, love." he leaned in a kissed me. "I love you."

"I love you, too." And he walked out the door.

Tonks turned to me. "You two are so bloody adorable."

"Well, you and Remus are pretty adorable yourselves." I said. Tonks sighed. "What ever is the matter, darling?"

She shook her head. "Just a bit worried."

I looked at her quizzically. "What do you mean?" I walked out of the kitchen, into the salon. I sat on the sofa.

"Jamie has never told you why he's always with Remus and Sirius on the night of the Full Moon?" I shook my head. "Oh."

"Why? What does the full moon have to do with anything?" I was beyond confused.

"Well, you remember in Defense Against the Dark Arts when Professor Goldblume taught the difference between a werewolf and an animagus?"

"Well, yes. An animagus elects to be a werewolf but, an actual werewolf has no choice. What does this have to do with the guys?" I was still barking confused.

"Remus, well, he's a…werewolf." she said, hesitantly.

"Remus… is a werewolf?" I was in awe.

She nodded. "There's a long complicated story behind how it happened, and I'll have him be the one to tell you. But, that's why Sirius, Jamie and Remus always leave for a few hours on a full moon." she sighed. "It's nice to know he's in good hands. I mean Remus you know."

I nodded. "Wow. I wouldn't have guessed. But, I always wondered why Remus always looked rather rugged after the full moon. And I had a feeling it wasn't from liquor either."

"It's hard on Remus when he has to modify his whole life around this terrible state. He feels bad for taking Jamie away from you, considering he'll be a daddy."

I gave Tonks a hard look. "Jamie's safe, right?"

"Oh yes. No worries. He and Sirius are only there to help patch up Remus if he gets hurt."

I let out the breath I had been holding. I was relieved.

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The night drew on, our girl talk ensued and we ate peanut butter sandwiches. It was a craving of mine, all the time. And Tonks enjoyed them too.

I couldn't stop reveling in the revelation about Remus. I was merely fascinated. I felt a bit terrible, I didn't want him to be a lab rat to me. He was after all one of James' best mates.

When Jamie arrived home, he brought Remus with him. He looked awful as Jamie laid him on the now empty couch. I ran to the kitchen sink and grabbed a washcloth, running it under the faucet.

I rushed back to the salon. "Here" I said, giving the cloth to Tonks. She was awfully strong. I wouldn't be able to sit, firm and content while my beloved was writhing in pain.

Once Tonks had cleaned most of Remus' open wounds, she looked at me. I sat, teary eyed. I was such a baby sometimes. She looked at Jamie and said, "Jamie, let's go talk in the kitchen. Let Lily help."

He obliged and they left the room. I walked over from where I was standing, and sat next to Remus. I had another wash cloth with me, to once again clean his wounds. He looked at me intently. "Lily." his voice was soft but rough.

I looked to him.

"Did Dora tell you?" I nodded. "Well, I'm rather happy you didn't go running towards the hills when she told you."

"Why would I do that?"

"Everyone does when they find out. It's common nature to run from the fool."

"Remus, you're not a fool, don't ever think such cruel things."

"Well, I have to think of everything. Considering what I am…" he stopped. "Did she tell you about how I became this vile, repulsive creature?"

I shook my head. "She just told me that it happened a long time ago. But, she wanted to keep the details short. She wanted you to tell me yourself."

He nodded. "Always the thinker." he sighed. "I was a mere boy of 8. I hadn't known much then, only that I was going to be attending Hogwarts when I turned 11. I was quite excited. My father was quite a man. He was always speaking his mind to protect himself and his family. One night, after a brutal fight against" he shuttered "Fenrir Greyback, Father had come home, cursing. I was supposed to be in bed but, I was curious. I crept out to see what the fuss was about. I saw Father, he was telling Mum. I stood in the shadows listening. Apparently, there had been talk about Greyback. He was a cruel, horrid man. I was quite repulsed by the end of his story."

He paused to catch his breath. "The next afternoon, I was playing in the backyard when I saw this wicked man. He had hair all over his body, he looked like a devil. He walked up to me and without speaking a word, he grabbed me. He had licked his lips and was mid bite when my father came running out of the back door. Greyback had told my father that I would be like him now. And before I knew it, he was gone."

I sat next to Remus, tears falling down my cheeks. "He just bit you then left?"

Remus nodded. "My father hated that man for what he did to me. But, he blamed himself until his death a few year after."

"You poor man. How awful. Do you take a potion to help with your 'other' side?"

"I take a Wolfsbane potion. It helps with the dementia that comes along with the transformation."

"So, even though you take the potion, you still turn into a werewolf during a full moon?" He nodded.

"You've heard the nicknames that us mates have, right?" I nodded. "Well, mines Moony because of my 'other self'."

I knew he had just mentioned the last part to see me smile. I did smile. It wasn't hard to frown when a man of greatness, a man who had seen the dullest of days, was trying to help me see the way he was. And to crack a joke to lighten the mood.

Tonks came in the doorway, "Is everything okay?"

I nodded. "It's better than ever." I wiped away me residing tears.

Jamie followed Tonks. He stood next to her. I got up off the sofa and Tonks filled my spot. I walked into Jamie's arms. He kissed the top of my head. He knew everything, and now so did I.

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