Ch.13
Just Tell Me
We walked to some were privet so we could talk, I was so afraid of what might happen? I was afraid Noah would be so angry at me and that he would never want to see me again?
We found a near by park and no one was there so no one would look at us if we were to yell. We sat on an old swing set and just sat there a few minutes in silence, not say anything until Noah finally spoke up.
Noah: So…tell me…
Bella: I'm afraid too…
Noah: I promise I won't get mad…just tell what's going on and what's with the cuts on your wrists!
Bella: ok…you know the new guy Kyle in school?
Noah: yeah?
Bella: well…Kyle is an old friend of mine from back at the orphanage and I haven't seen him…until he moved here and the other day in class he gave me a note saying he wanted to meet me by the bleachers so we could talk…that was the day I told you I had to go make-up something for gym…
I looked over at Noah and saw this worried look on his face and then I started to become more worried as I kept on talking.
Bella: when I got there…he was there and I asked him a bunch of questions on why he never wrote back or ever called me and he wasn't able too…I just kept yelling at him and he was smiling at me and I didn't know why? And I asked him and he said he loved me…then he kissed me…and for some reason I kissed him back…
Noah's eyes widen and just stared at me…
Bella: and for the cuts on my wrists well…I couldn't help myself…I was punishing myself for what I did… and I'm a real idiot for doing this to myself!
I just started bursting out crying and I wanted to stop but I couldn't I was afraid he was angry at me, I was afraid he would leave me… I started rubbing my eyes when I heard him get up from the swing…
Bella: Noah…I'm…sorry…please…please…forgive…me…
I heard him started walking so I was guessing he was really angry…but then I looked up saw that he was right in front of me? He had a cold wet cloth and started dabbing under my eyes.
Noah: quit rubbing your eyes, your going to make them red and sore if u keep rubbing them…
All that time he was wiping away my tears I was wondering why he was so calm and not angry or upset?
Bella: Umm…I'm going to walk home…ok?
Noah: I'll walk you home!
Bella: No…that's alright…I'll be fine…
As I walked off I wanted to kiss him, I wanted to look back at him but I was afraid to do it…I was so pathetic.
Hey! sorry I haven't updated in awhile, I've been busy and I haven't been in the mood to write the next chapter to this story but I am now so look forward to them!