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They all looked in the room, no one wanting to go in, that was Derek's place for now. They put their things down and all stood by the window looking, they watched Penelope sleep, both hands on her stomach, her complexion still paled, they took into account all the wires and equipment. It had to get better, they still had Penelope and that was all that mattered to them.

Jimmy and the 4 brother's Garcia watched as the woman in the bed looked so fragile and tender, it was like staring at her when she was 16 and waking up from the stabbing. Lance and Owen held hands and felt saddened by the news, they had always grown up talking of their families and Penelope was steps closer to it but had it was now snatched away from her.

The team watched helplessly as memories of Battle played out, although this was naturally occurring it still had Penelope at her weakest. They all soon claimed their seats; Derek went back into the room and reclaimed his wife's hand, his comfort at that moment.

After too long in silence Andy leant forward. 'So what's this about a battle and a bomb clad ambulance.'

'And a Kevin Lynch?' Added Joel and everyone leant in to learn more.

The team exchanged looks before deciding that Emily was right to use the examples now they needed to be shared. 'Erm... not long ago, Penelope was well... shot by someone called Battle.'

'Shot!!' The brothers gasped Jimmy, Lance, Owen and Kat sat gobsmacked at hearing that revelation. 'How bad was she?'

'He shot her in the chest, it ricocheted into her abdomen, we seriously thought we had lost her.' Rossi finished. 'That seemed to finalise things for Morgan but nothing seemed to come from it entirely, he took her home, stayed with her, helped her, changed her bandages but she then met Kevin Lynch, geek personified, he was into the same things as Penelope, was like her.'

'Except he screamed geek... he was too quiet and withdrawn for Penelope, she's the one that walks in with a smile, laughs, jokes, banters with Derek but he was just the opposite.'

'Things seemed good between the two of them but then we had a terrorist case in New York that meant Penelope had to come with us.'

'We read about that.' Owen said proudly.

The team smiled. 'Erm, I got caught up in a bombing incident, and that night the ambulance that we used to take an agent to the hospital was found to have explosives, Derek has the training for bombs but even he couldn't do anything so he got in and with the help of Penelope got the ambulance out of the way of anything and anyone... the pair saved lots of people that day.' Everyone nodded at Hotch. 'Except Penelope was still on the line when the explosion went off and she thought Derek was dead, things were stressful between them after that and soon she quit it with Lynch and me and Dave then found out that they were planning to get married under our noses because of frat rules at work.'

Everyone remained silenced by the events that had occurred until Hotch's phone began to sound out of his pocket. 'Hotchner?' He paused. 'Fran, I'll come down and meet you.' He listened intently. 'She's okay but maybe it might be better if Derek spoke to you.' They watched him closely. 'Okay, I'll be right down.' He put the phone and dismissed himself; Rossi stood and went to the open doorway.

'Derek... your moms downstairs.'

'Thanks.' He said and he's attention shot to Penelope as she breathed in, the pair watched her open her eyes, take in the room and close her eyes again. 'Pen... look at me.' She shook her head hesitantly. 'Come on baby girl.' He looked at Rossi who stepped in the room and closed the blinds and then pulled the door to. 'Pen... please?'

'I'm sorry.' She said to him, completely emotionless.

'Sorry... baby this isn't your fault.'

'I was pregnant and lost it... what type of woman am I?'

Derek stood up and sat on the bed. 'This is not your fault... this was uncontrollable and we can try again.' She nodded and looked at him. 'I would rather have you right now baby girl, have my wife well and with me.'

'But we spoke so much about children and your mom...'

'Will understand... I think everyone would rather have you better than gradually getting worse.' He watched her breathe in and push on her side. 'You in pain?'

'A little.'

'Want me get someone for it?'

'Might be wise... when can I leave?' She asked hoping it would be soon.

'I know you hate hospitals P but the doctor told me 2-3 days.' She nodded and closed her eyes again. 'I'll be right back princess... I love you.'

'I love you too.' She whispered back to him a little detached. Derek left the room and rushed past and got a nurse, he then went back in and resurfaced as the nurse opened the blinds again.

'Everything okay?' He nodded. 'Sure?' He shook his head and Fran approached him, it was then he broke. 'Derek go and talk to your mom and sister.' Hotch urged and Fran, Desiree and Derek left the small area, everyone had been waiting for the break in him and his mom had just induced it.

'Honey, she's okay.'

'I know... have they told you anything?'

'No, they felt it was better to be told by you.' Fran and Desiree sat either side of him. 'Come on then talk Derek.'

'She was pregnant.' Was all he said and the flood gates. 'She had an ectopic pregnancy.'

'I thought she had an appendicitis?'

'She did, the pregnancy started it... she's blaming herself, like it's her fault this happened.'

'Tomorrow Derek will be a different day, she'll see things differently.'

'She's feeling like a failure.'

'Derek, the one thing a woman wants in life is to give their husband children and right now that seems like it is impossible, that she's tried and now she's probably not feeling all that great, tired, in pain and more likely than not feeling like she isn't worthy, she's going to feel empty for a bit but you just have to be ready and keep her aware that there are other times and that you aren't going to run and make her feel broken.'

'She isn't going to lose me, however much she pushes and shoves.'

'That's my son.' Fran and Desiree hugged Derek and felt him cry a bit more, he had come so close to losing everything that it was all seeping out in doses. 'Let's get you back...'

'Yeah you need to be introduced to Pen's brothers.' He stood and Des took his hand in a reassuring squeeze like he had done for her so many times in the past.

'It's my turn to return the favour.'

'Thanks squirt.' He said and hugged her as they walked into the waiting room, he felt Desiree cling on a bit longer. 'Everything okay?' She nodded. 'Des...'

'I worry.'

'I know you do and Pen would love you for it.' He said and smiled at her. 'But this is Pen.' She nodded and they walked the few more steps in to where everyone had been watching them. They all took seats, Derek spent most of the time in the room with Penelope and they all understood, so they took turns to go get food, drink, fresh air and clean clothes. The day slugged on slowly and mostly the men paced and watched through the window until they saw Derek fall asleep. They all had the option to go home but all stuck around apart from Kat, which everyone understood. Soon they all fell asleep against one another until the new daylight streamed though any gaps it found in windows.