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When Derek woke up the next morning the opposite side of the bed was well and truly empty and scarily cold. He shot up, found Penelope's pyjamas on the floor, he looked at his watch it wasn't even 8 in the morning, he got up and dressed and searched the hotel room but found him to be the only one in there. He began to panic before his phone began to ring out.

'Morgan?' He said without even looking at the caller ID.

'Derek, its Jimmy... can you get down to the police station?'

'Why? What is it?'

'It's Penelope.'

'What about her?' He asked impatiently.

'She's here, she told the tech to leave and go back with their team.'

'She did what!' Derek said his voice playing on anger and worry. 'I'll be right there.' He put the phone down and called Hotch. 'Pen's at work.'

'She's what?'

'Exactly, she turned the tech away.'

'Okay Derek, I just need to put my shoes on and then we heading out.'

'I'm going to tell my mom and I'll be down.' Derek said and finished putting his shoes on before grabbing the things he needed most. He told his mo, who in turn ended up in Derek and Penelope's room waiting to hear what the hell had got into Penelope's head. The drive to the police department was not far so there was no real room for deliberation and though. When Rossi halted one of the SUV's Derek ran out. He heard yelling immediately and everyone looked in relief.

'Penny, come on get back to the hotel.'

'No!' Penelope said harshly as she snapped back and stood her ground.

'Penny this isn't going to do any good.'

'I don't care.'

'Why are you being so careless?' Jimmy quietened with worry.

'Because it beats lying around feeling so empty, I might as well busy myself and forget about me.'

'What about Derek?' Silence followed. 'How do you think this is affecting him?' Again silence. 'Have you even thought about him?' The next thing everyone knew Penelope was out of the room, she halted when she saw Derek and then rushed away. Derek looked at Jimmy before following her to the bathroom. He saw one of the doors closed and went for it, he just slid down the panel to its left and put his hand under the door.

'Pen... come out.' She remained silent. 'Or let me in.' Nothing came from Penelope still. 'Please.' He said with the same desperate voice he had used at the hospital. 'Fine you listen to me.' He started when no response was gained. 'I promised we would beat this, we, Pen, not you or me but we, us two together... you've just got to let me in.' That gained a response as painful sobs echoed from the basins and tiling in the room, Derek felt a release as he listened but felt his heart break, he then felt the door open and Penelope stood above him but before he could respond he watched as she slid down the now open door right next to him, tears rolling down her cheeks. 'Baby girl...' He started again, the tears building in his eyes and throat.

'I'm so sorry.'

'For what?'

'I was pregnant... but I lost it, maybe if...maybe if I wasn't like me I would still be pregnant.'

'Pen, this isn't your fault, I've already told you that. This was unavoidable.'

'But in turn, I can't get pregnant, you want kids so much and so does your mom but I'm broken.' She said and began to sob; Derek moved in and wrapped his arms around her.

'You aren't broken and you can have kids... it's just going to be difficult but not impossible.' He rocked her as the break finally happened and Penelope finally cried her heart out in his arms. They didn't speak for a while, just cried with the comfort of one another. 'We can get over this.' Derek said as he pushed a kiss onto her head.

'I'm sorry... I didn't think about you.'

Derek started to cry a bit more at that point. 'Pen, I knew you were hurting and I was praying for the day you would break and let me in.'

'I didn't mean to shut you out.'

'I know you didn't but look you've let me in now.'

'I don't want to feel like this anymore.'

'You won't...'

'I don' want to be in so much pain.'

'It will get better baby girl... it will.' He soothed her even more. 'I don't know when, but it will and we'll get through this together.' She nodded and cried even more, Derek hugged her, happy for the break. 'Come on let's get you back.' He stood up and helped her stand noticing her wincing as she straightened up. 'I think it's time you had a couple of pills and a sleep.' He looked at her. 'You've tired yourself out.' She nodded and he lead her out, their eyes still both red, Penelope were still crying as everyone looked at them, only know the 4 brothers were there and so were Lance and Owen.

'Don't you have jobs?' Penelope said and smiled slightly, the biggest weight of the world off her shoulders at last.

'We all took a couple of days leave.'

'What I want to know is what the hell you thought you were doing coming here!'

'We've been through this... she's going back to rest now.' Derek said pulling her close to him and kissing her head, it was then everyone noticed the tear tracks on both the pair's faces, they looked at Derek and his face told them everything they needed to be told, Penelope had finally broken.

'Where is she?' A new voice broke in, a voice that 8 of the people recognised immediately. All of a sudden Lara broke through the group and stared in utter disgust. 'Penelope... I told you were in a corrupted marriage.'

'Excuse me?' Penelope said angrily. 'I thought I told you that I can live without you.'

'Penelope... you're mother had high hopes for you... ones that didn't include you marrying a black man and now losing the baby, shows the corruption.'

'My 'husband' isn't the corrupt one here, you are.' Penelope said before looking up apologetically. 'Can we go?'

'Sure thing sweetness.'

'Penelope Garcia!'

'Morgan.' Joel corrected. 'Her name is Penelope Morgan.'

'No!' Lara batted away angrily not believing her niece would turn her back on her like that.

'Our mom wasn't the racist... you were.'

'Well she married that Spanish thug.'

Penelope sighed and turned around. 'Well he might have been but we had the best upbringing we could have, at least they accepted what our life brought, unlike you who shunned us the first moment you didn't like something.'

'Come on kiddo... let's get you out of here, you don't need this.'

'I'm going.' Penelope said taking Derek's hand and walking out, but as the sun hit her, the new reign of tears came.

'Hey baby come here.' Derek said pulling her close to him again. 'It's all okay.... come on baby girl.' He rocked her slightly as everyone came out and heard her sob. 'P, I think we need to get you back.' She nodded. 'Look at me.' She looked up and he wiped her eyes. 'Thank you for breaking.' He said and she cried a bit more. 'It's all going to get better now.'