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Chapter 6

JPOV

I wanted to help her but I couldn't – she told me not to. I also believe that she needs to get everything out. The pain was hurting her more and more. I had to leave I couldn't watch her like that, I couldn't listen to her words, I couldn't look into her eyes and see the fear, and I couldn't stand the pain she was sending out.

She hated me but it never hurt me when someone hated me.

She shouldn't be going through this. I wonder why she was content and then suddenly more pained, fearful, and deceitful. Edward left her; does being close to me feel like its cheating to her? Nothing is happening between us. One second she trusts me and feels content and then she fears me.

Maybe she doesn't fear me but more she fears the thought of something…or someone's accusations…

No, that makes no sense.

BPOV

I had to stop spending time with Jasper. I am slowly trusting him but whenever I get too close I feel like I'm hurting Edward. Maybe he'll come back…

"Can I talk to Bella, alone?" Alice asked everyone. I nodded to tell them it's okay. They all shuffled out and Alice closed the door behind them.

"Bella, why do you hate Jasper? Why do you fear him? We can see it in your eyes."

"I don't hate him and I'm not afraid of Jasper but I'm more afraid to get close to him. He…" I looked up at Alice and she understood whom it meant. "broke me, he hurt me so bad I can't stand any more pain. What if you guys have to leave and I stay behind. I leaned on you, Jasper, Esme, Carlisle, and everyone else but I'm just a human. One day you can pick everything up and just leave without a second glance and that would tear me apart. I can't stand it.

"I'm also afraid to trust again. It would lead to even more pain."

Alice thought about what I said for a moment.

"Bella, don't worry about anything. Get through this pain first and we will never leave you. We love you. You are like a sister to us, and a child to Carlisle and Esme. You are part of this family no matter what. I understand you are afraid to lean on Jasper because you were never close to him but just know that he can help you.

"Bella, don't try to keep the pain bottled in. It hurts you more and it effects Jasper too. He can't stand to look at you when you're falling apart. It scares him and Emmett. Emmett is scared to touch you because you look so fragile when you fall apart. He feels like he might break you. Also, when you break down we feel the pain; we feel like empaths and Jasper has is multiple times worse.

"So please do us a favor, express your feelings. Don't worry about us. Let it all out. It will help you. It might never stop hurting but it will decrease over time." Alice finished her speech.

Time.

"Alice, it hurts all the time. I try to – try to- block it out and put it away but that makes it hurt worse. I don't want to be a burden on you, any of you. And –"I sobbed while talking but then I finally broke down. Alice held me. It didn't feel right. That made me cry even more.

When my crying quieted down, Alice continued talking.

"Bella, Rosalie feels bad too. She hates Edward for what he did. She can't stand to see you this fragile and hurt. Emmett wants to help too but he doesn't know how to. Everyone wants to help. So, whenever you need comforting, go to the person you feel the most comfortable with."

"Thanks Alice but don't you have a party to go back down to?"

"Yeah, I do." Alice didn't look too happy. "By the way, you look gorgeous. When the family saw you they stopped dead In their tracks." She winked. I blushed.

Alice got up and went downstairs. I laid down in the center of her bed and curled into a fetal position in the attire I was wearing.

I cried myself to sleep.

JPOV

I noticed everyone was at the party but Bella. I ran up to mine and Alice's bedroom window, I scaled up the house and saw Bella sleeping on our bed in fetal position. She was facing towards the window and I could see her tear stained cheeks.

She felt content – for now.

I decided to sit on the leather couch near the window. I felt waves of gratitude and worry coming from Alice.

How could Edward do this? I can't stop asking myself that. It was wrong; it was my fault. If I had enough self control back then: he would have been here, she would have been happy, and everything would have been normal. Nevertheless, that's not what happened. Too many "what ifs".

I was just daydreaming and musing when a severe change of emotions reached me.

Bella.

I looked over and she was crying again. I could feel her rejection, despair, desperation, fear, and then her shock.

"How could you? How?! Come back!" She yelled, crying harder. I felt more pain. It won't even leave her alone when she sleeps.

I walked over and touched her. She shot up in anticipation. When she realized it was I, she was disappointed and heartbroken. She thought it was Edward and it hurt me.

She started to cry harder.

"Bella, please. Tell me, what is wrong…" I pleaded. She looked up at me through tear-filled eyes.

"Jasper…I am scared."

"Why are you scared?" I asked. She looked at me again and there was so much pain in her eyes, it was worse than what she was feeling.

"I don't know. I'm just so sick of this! I want to be back to normal but I can't be. He hurt me and I don't think I'll ever be able to be the same." She confessed and that seemed to ease her a bit. "I'm sorry."

"What are you sorry for? Stop apologizing."

"I'm telling you my problems and you could probably care less. Go to the party. Have fun."

Was Bella losing her mind?

"Bella, you can always come to me – anyone in this family – and we will do the best we can to help you. It is no trouble at all. You are family, remember."

"Thanks." She smiled a small smile.

"By the way, you look stunning. I think you look better than Rosalie, don't tell her that though." Bella's grin became wider at my comment.

The door slammed open and Rosalie stood there. Not looking too happy.

"Jasper, thanks." Rose said sarcastically.

"No problem." She glared. "Why are you mad at me? It's not like Emmett said it…"

"I hope he didn't…Bella you do look great." Rose's glare softened.

"Thanks." Bella mumbled.

Rosalie left and Bella's emotions turned curious.

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