Bella.

All that im living for

All that im dying for

all i cant ignore, alone night

all that im wanted for

all i want and more, lock the last open door

my ghosts are gaining on me

I believe the dreams are secred,

take my darkest fears and play them like a lullaby

like a reason why.

I ran my fingers over renesmees hair as she slept. The venom hadnt spread far so i hadnt sucked out as much blood as Carlisle would be fine she just needed to rest and that we'd have to clean the wound every so often to stop infections.I thought i was going to collapse with relief when he told me,he must of thought so to because he put his arm around could of been so much worse, i could of been mourning. The thought made me wince. We made her drink 4 cups of packeted blood we have kept for emergencys just to be sure and Carlisle gave her a shot of morphine to ease the pain and we set her on the sofa with a duvet. I didnt feel comfortable leaving her in a bedroom .Carlisle agreed with me. The attack had put all my senses on the edge, not to mention when i thought about it, it made me tremble with fury. Emmett had returned to the house half an hour after we did.

"He's dead." he confirmed as me and Carlisle rushed to meet him half way across the room. He looked over at Renesmee and his face relaxed.

"He's...?" Carlisle groaned. A tiny bit of me started celebrating and i felt a grin spread to my face, Emmett returned it. Then i felt disgusted with mysel, Emmett could of been killed. We could of lost two family memebers today. Emmett read my facial shift.

"Its alright Bella. Im fine. You worry to much"

"Worry to much?" i choked out

"What happend Emmett" Carlisle sighed

"Wasnt very experienced. I chased him west, he was fast, but i caught him when he was doubling back to go east. I would bet he had a car waiting. I through a tree into his path to make his life a tad difficult and then i lunged at him" he finished smugly.

"Emmett. We needed to know why he did what he did."

I growled at the thought of 'him' coming back near this house. Emmett shared his agreement with by nodding.

"I did try that. Got him in a head lock and asked him the whole usual questions you would a potential killer" Emmett said exasperated. A whine slid out my throat, i looked at Renessmee.

"Sorry Bella, i didnt mean it to sound..like that. Anyway, he wouldnt tell me anything just kept 'trying' to kill me and...im sorry Carlisle i lost my temper." He looked at the ground ashamed. Carlisle put a hand on his shoulder.

"Im just thankful it wasnt i regret a loss of life"

"Same" i murmured still watching Renesmee, "except that last bit." Emmett chuckeld

"Well Esme would go billistic if she came back and i was dead."

Carlisle's lip twitched

We all drifted over to the sofa, i sat on the floor by Nessies head. Em and Carlisle sat on the other sofa and carlisle quickly explained what happened with us. I listened to everything else, the wind passing through the leaves, the gentle gush of the river water, Renesmees slow even breaths and her steady heart beat. It was the only thing that kept me calm. I needed Edward. I felt lost without him depiste the other twos company,i know theyd do all they could to protect us(as i them) but i needed Edward here. I needed to see the promise in his eyes and the feirceness in his voice when he told me he'd keep us safe.

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"Im so very proud of you Bella." Carlisle said after a while. I smiled weakly at him and turned back to Nessie.

"I was afraid If you hadnt of been there....it could have been so much worse. I was afriad i wouldnt stop."

"But you did. More quickly than Edward did and its amazing in itself your only a little more than a year old." I turned back to him and smiled

Emmetts mouth had been hanging open as Carlisle explained how id sucked the venom out and stopped when i was told. He let out a low whistle.

"Well done Bella. Your outshining golden boy." he said awestruck

"I dont think i could ever do that" i murmured and turned back to Renessmee

She still looked paler than usual but a tint of rose had appeared on her cheeks. I rang Edward when i was sure i had a grip of myself, i would need to be calm to explain the situation to him, only to hear the phones muffled ringing from the garage. It wasnt like him to leave his phone at home. Emmett explained about the phone bet and looked like he regretted making it in the first place, he quickly went into theories with Carlisle for the attack before i could comment. Rose would go billistic enough for the two of us im sure. A couple of hours and he'll be home. I slipped off into a daydream watching my Daughter and thinking of Edward untill i heard the sound of faint running footsteps. The three of us stood at the same time.