Bella.

My dreams are growing into
Frustrations when I hear your voice
Feeding me till I'm choking
My ears are ringing louder
Repeating words that bring me down
Ringing, my ears are bleeding

So hold your breath and spare me
The pointless conversation, I'm running out of patience
Don't blame me for trying to reach

"Carlisle", I said quietly ignoring his distraught expression. It made me sick to know i caused pain, the familys pain, Edwards pain. "Will the morphine you've already give her last until morning or will i have to take a dose with me"

"No..I..It won't" he said somberly.

I could see he wasnt going to leave Esme's side not when she was as upset as this. I set Renessmee down, she clutched at my hair scared i was going to leave without her.

"Get you coat, and i'll back in two seconds" i told her

"You promise" she said in a small voice into my neck

"I promise,Emmett. will you help her?" I had no right to ask, but he was the only i know wouldnt try to stop us, Carlisle was in no position to move. Emmett nodded.

As soon as her hands had left my hair, i flew up the stairs to carlisle study. All the medical equipment needed earlier had been tidied up. The morphine was still on the desk in its case. I opened it, there was enough for two shots and two syringes with it. I took them both just in case. I sped down the stairs, Renesmee was being helped into her coat by Emmett.

It was so quiet,apart from Esme's sobs, that it was easy to hear the sound of heavy footfalls moving through the forest. Four huge paws beating the earth untill they stopped in the trees surrounding the house. It was a few seconds before the sound of human feet started approaching the house. Jake had phased.

Edward hissed. Rose's head had came out of her hands, something had lit up her face. It scared me. Everyone else looked apprehensive, worried about what could happen next. Hadnt we been through enough, we didnt need a werewolf in a rage.

I darted over to Renesmee and zipped up her jacket as Jake started up the porch. I pulled her into my sure of Jake's reaction to all this would be, i held her close, careful not to put pressure on her shoulder.

Jake started talking before he'd even opened the door, knowing that we'd hear.

"Not a clue what im going to do about Leah, you wont belive what she pulled today", he opened the door running his hand thorugh his hair and closing the door with the other, he hadnt even looked up, "I swear to god i dont think i can..." he paused taking in the scene. His eyes roamed the room, getting more desperate as they passed everyone untill they finally rested on Renesmee.

"Whats going on?" Jake made to come over to us, i stepped back. Id been here long enough i needed to go. I feared i was going to be over taken with the storm raging inside of me. I felt tired for the first time in months and it was inhumanly possible for me to be so. Jake looked at me with begging eyes.

"Where are you going?" he demanded. He took another step, so did I.

"Whats happend" he was close to shouting now. Renessmee shuttered in my arms. This was too much for her, it wasnt fair.

"We'll be back in the morning." I said devensivly. Moving in the direction to the door that lead out to the garage.

"Tell me Bella!" he was shouting now, "Is she hurt?" he said deperately, his expression changed as he read my face properly, "Are you?"

I felt someting ripple through my body and it the pain nearly killed me, i flinched back.

Jake turned to Edward, he was shaking. Great if he exploded this would be one hell of a night.

"What.." he didnt get to finish Rosalie was on her feet shouting again

"She's taking Nessie away, she mightened come back!!" she screamed at him standing up and stabbing a finger at me. Jake looked as if he'd been slapped. Edward growld and it echoed off the trees outside, the way he looked at Rose, i'd be lying if i said i wasnt scared for her.

"Rosalie you know Bella wont do that" Emmett shouted rushing over to try and comfort her. Jasper looked disgusted, Alice was hidden in his chest, shaking. Esme...i couldnt even explain. I couldnt do this anymore.

I moved to the door. There was a crash and suddenly Rosalie was infront of it crouched, baring her teeth. Half a second and then Edward was infront me before i could respond, snarling at his sister.

"Rosalie, your being unreasonable. They are coming back in the morning" Esme cried. Renesmee began to shake again in my arms. Emmett apeared beside Rose pulling her out of her crouch.

"Rose,please" he whispered strightened up and looked at me, trying to hide what he felt.I held my hand out to him and he took it instantly linking our fingers together. Jacob started coming towards the three of us. I stepped back and my foot hit the small step of the podium that Edwards Piano stood on.

"You wont take her away from me" He bellowed.

"Im not trying to Jake" i screamed, everything i'd felt tonight breaking into my voice. Edward snarled at him,making him stop again. I squeezed Edwards hand,

"I promise" i nodded and i dropped his hand,looking away from the agony in his face as i did so. Everything was taking over me, my emotions were in a blender, being hurled up to the surface in complete dissaray. I wondered if it was stupid to take Renessmee with me tonight but i couldnt leave her here. She'd never forgive for that and i had so much i needed forgiven already. Rosalie was struggling against Emmetts grip

"Jasper please" Carlisle begged.

"No, what if they dont come back.." she cried

"Rose they will, listen to me..."

"But you dont know that, Alice doesnt know that, i cant lose her!!" Rosalie screamed and then she locked eyes with mine. "Dont Bella, please. Please. I was the only one that helped you, Please Bella" she was getting more hysterical, why wouldnt she believe id come back...the same reason she thought you'd bite your daughter a voice at the back of my mind whispered.

"Rosalie Dont!!" Edward suddenly roared at the same time she shouted

" I WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT WANTED TO HELP YOU KEEP HER ALIVE." she screeched and then froze with the rest of us, appalled at what she'd just said. Renesmee striffened in my arms. I had her on the ground infront of me in an instant, an arm around her waist and one hand on her face.

"Its not true Renesmee. Its not." I whispered feircely.

She didnt beleive me. And under my hands i watched my daughters porcelain face break and like a broken doll she fell apart. Shattering what was left of my heart.

Bella

If they hurt you,

They hurt me too,

so we'll rise up,

wont stop,

cuz its all about us.

All about us- Tatu

I held her to me, holding what was left of her together. I looked up at Edward from where i was crouched holding our daughter to me as she cried, so painfully i could almost hear her heart splintering, I looked at him begging him to tell what to do. He looked at me as if he had just witnessed someone he loved die. Three seconds had passed and then there was an uproar.

Rosalie broke out of Emmetts rigid clutch and sprinted to us, Edward knocked her to the floor and she struggled with him.

"I didnt, didnt mean, i didnt.." she shouted hysterically trying to reach Renesmee. Jasper had abandoned Alice on the sofa with Esme, as they both stared in complete horror at all of us, to come and help Edward. Emmett and Carlisle were like statues. Jake was practically vibrating, striding towards us, eyes on Renesmee and then when on me, murderous. He couldnt blame me for this, the whole situation had gotten completely out of hand, to the point it had broken my heart and was breaking my daughters. I wouldnt allow anything else to happen to her, im sure this was Jakes intent to but i was past reasoning. I wouldnt let him take her, for whatever reason. He was near towering over us, a ferousicous growl growing in my throat, when it died away for the second time that night as Renessmee screamed.

"LEAVE ME ALONE, STAY AWAY FROM ME!!" I watched her scream this as if i was outside myself. She looked so destroyed i felt helpless. she didnt even look like herself anymore. Jakes face twisted in pain and Renesmee ran out the back door and the room was frozen again. We watched her run pass the glass window, towards the garage.

Time started again.

Alice stood and ran half way to the window. Rosalie collapsed into Carlisle's arms as he and Emmett moved forward. Jasper looked tortured, he had to feel everybodys pain. I didnt even want to look at Edward. Jake made to run at the backdoor after her, obviously not listening to what Nessie had bawled at him, when i felt it. The complete and utter suffocating fury as the result of my daughters pain. Venom flowed in my mouth, i felt the raw strength of new born body run in my veins, i could even feel my shield coil.

I smashed into jake sending him half way across the room, hearing something crack within his huge body. He crashed into the sofa which collapsed around him. Before anyone else could react to that i was outside running fullout to the garage. I felt the anger leave me as the wind whipped through my long hair but come realing back when i remembered outside wasnt safe anymore.

I heard some cries and hissing from the house but i didnt concentrate on that anymore, there was someone else who needed me more. I ran into the garage and follwed Renesmees wails to the volvo. The door were open naturally, keys in the glove campartment. Nessie was curled up on the passenger seats, her harsh rugged breaths coming less. I pulled her onto my lap and held her against me as i started the car up, her little arms bound round herself trying to stay together. I held her tighter, trying to do it for her as i needed Jake to do for me once upon a time. I floored it speeding around the house and down the huge lawn, i looked up in time to see Edwards figure on the lawn, black against the light of the living room windows, collapse onto his burning man again. There was no one to hold me together.