Bella

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not 'there'
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?

Stop and stare- One republic

The russet wolf came bounding forwards over the mossy undergrowth, pausing a few feet away. Being cautious, his huge dark eyes seemed to brim over with some emotion he wanted to express but then he turned to look at the house which was barely viewable.

"Im sorry, Jake"

The mass of fur let out huge breath and bobbed his head. I watched him turn and gallop out of sight and heard him stop 20 ft away behind me. I realised what he was doing and looked away quickly giving him privacy.

One pair of feet padded up behind me and the heat reached me before he did, it was uncomfortable but durable as i was used to it. What i wasnt used to was two, huge hot arm wrapping around me swiftly and pulling me against a burning slab, I hissed at the same time he released me. My naturally insticts sent me volting 2ft away and slipping into a crouch.

"Damn your freezing.", Jakes complained rubbing his chest,"Smells not much better" he added shivering.

Watching Jake shiver and mutter away to him self helped me beat down the naturally desire to srike. The foul smell of wet dog filled my head and I enahled quickly trying to clear it away. I collected myself and strightened up, all of this took about 2 seconds. I was used to being around Jake, to smelling Jake, but for him to grab me so unexpected blocked out every connection of me and my best friend. It was just Me and a werewolf, me and an enemy.

"Why the hell did you do that", i hissed, "I was so close to attacking you"

"It was supposed to be a nice gesture, A hug does get that message across." He mocked and then his face softened under my glare, " I forget sometimes, I get so used to being around you all. Not going to make that mistake again" He said the last sentence with a shake of his head.

"Next time give some warning, okay?" I said smiling dispite of myself

"Does this mean im forgiven then?" Jake asked. He would looked amused if his eyes didnt have the same emotion building,

"Forgiven?" I ventured,confused, "You only attempted to hug me."

"For last night" he said quietly, the amusement slipping off his face replaced by pain, "for scaring you both"

In that moment, seeing jakes face crumple in pain i wanted to be able to wrap my arms around his waist. To give him that reassurence and wasnt there somebody who wasnt blaming themselves for last night?!

"Jake dont be ridiculous, it was my fault. I should of known you'd react like that. I would've. I mean you walk in on couple of vampires having a disagreement with someone you care about smack bang in the middle. I should of explained to you." I said in a rush, just wanting to see him smile again.

"I care about you too Bella, even if you do send me flying when i havn't got a license", he smiled weakly and hurried on when i opened my mouth to apologise again," But i didnt know what to think. I walked into the room and everyone looked like someone had died, then i started panicing because i couldnt find her. Then i seen her, in your arms and she looked so scared and you were backed away from the rest of them. I thought they were going to harm her in some way, I know its idiotic so dont look at me like that, and then i noticed the way you looked. Bella it was like...a ghost of the look you used to have when he left you," I shuttered as the memory of the hole singed, Jake carried on," I asked what was going on and no one would answer me, you just kept saying you'd be coming back. All i could think about was it an excuse for you and Edward to dissapear and take her away from me and then the Barbie said what i was afraid of. Then the psycho was hissing and breaking things and in the position to attack you and all I could see was Nessie and the pull she has on me screaming for me to protect her." He fell silent and a tear slid down his face and melted into the falling rain that had gotten heavier as he had been speaking. When spoke again his voice was so faint it was nearly inaudible

"Then she said it, she screamed that none of us wanted her alive.", Jakes face crumpled even further. I wanted to say something but I didnt trust myself to speak, scared i'd wail instead.," And she just...fell apart and I knew I had to get her out of there. Had to do something even if it meant hurting you or going through Edward. I just needed to help her, it was if i could feel her pain Bella, feel it breaking me too. Then she screamed at me, said she wanted me to stay away and then she ran away and i knew what she'd said but i couldnt help it, the agony she felt was connected to me and I need to cut away, needed to rip it away from her. Needed to kill it. But then you knocked me clear and i just couldnt move. I could hear her crying and the weight of it kept me where i was, ringing in my ears, untill the mood messer calmed every thing down. All i could feel was emptyness, so hollow i coudnt make out where i was, couldnt feel my it all rushed back to me so i followed you and ran around the house, just trying be as close as i could even though she told me to stay away." Jakes huge shoulders were shaking and I forgot about the differences, forgot about why i couldnt in the first place and i crossed the small space swiftly and locked my arms around Jakes waist briefly, His huge arms crushed me to his chest before both of us pulled back.

"Im so sorry Jacob" I choked

"Bella what happened? Why would Rosalie tell her that?" He asked sounding strangeld. I took a deep breath and collected myself.

"Dont intterupt" i ordered," And try not explode, this is going to make you angry."