Chapter 2
(Bella's point of view)
I shifted uneasy on the couch, thinking about how much I missed Alice. Even though it happened two years ago, it felt like it happened two days ago. When you have forever to live, the years go by quickly and seem more like days. I can safely say everyone felt the same. Ever since Alive left, everything was different. It felt like everyone was very careful to not mention her name, especially around Esme or Jasper. I hated how no one wanted to talk about it, pretending like they didn't see the giant elephant standing in the room when it was clearly there. "You alright love?" Edward asked, appearing out of no where. "Yeah, for the most part I suppose." I looked over to the left to see Esme sitting in the kitchen with a blank stare on her face. Everyday around 5:30pm she gets like this, that's the exact time Alice left us two years back. I sighed and looked at Edward. "I know." He said as if he really could read my mind. "I'm going to go for a walk. It's too beautiful outside to be in doors." I said standing up and straightening my light blue shirt. "Would you like me to accompany you?" I didn't know the answer to that. I felt like I wanted to be alone for some reason. "Mind if I go alone? Stay here and watch Renesme. I just need to think for a bit." Edwards eyebrows furrowed as he looked at my confused. "Think about what?" "Just everything that has happened in the past year or two. It's hard not having Alice here." Edward's face went from confused to soothing as he put his hand on my cheek. "Don't be too long." I smiled and agreed.
I still couldn't believe how nice it was out today, it's rare that Forks ever gets weather like today. I looked down at my sparkling skin that looked like diamonds and had instant flash backs of when Edward had first shown me his perfect, marble, glittering body in the sun light. I was beautiful like him now. And it still shocks me everyday. I walked a lot further into the forest then I had planned on walking, when I came to a whole bunch of cliffs. I stood there for a while letting the breeze blow lightly across my face, and hair. The breeze didn't smell completely like forest though, there was a very faint hint to something else, someone else in it and for a reason unknown I couldn't pin point it as soon as I smelt it. Then It got stronger and I knew instantly who it was. I froze for a minute trying to hear, to see where his noise and smell was coming from. I looked carefully over the side of one of the cliffs to see the same sparkling boy as earlier this morning, Jasper. I was certain he knew I was watching him, but then again he always seemed to be in another world since Alice left, another world universes away. I couldn't stand to see him like this, after all he was family. I wanted to talk to him even if he didn't want to talk. Without a second thought I jumped off the cliff I was standing on and leaped to Jaspers direction. I landed perfectly on two feet at the same time and stared face to face with the beautiful, tall creature standing in front of me. Jasper automatically jumped backwards a few feet and bared his perfectly white teeth at me. I was shocked by his sudden reaction. "Jasper, stop…" I said in a small voice. He slowly straightened out of his defensive stance and stared me right in the eye. "What do you want Bella?" He asked in a monotone voice. "For you to find some common ground and start being Jasper again." There was a long pause. "Be Jasper again? How can I be myself again when half of myself is missing?" He looked as If he was about to break down and cry until he couldn't possibly cry any longer. "I'm not asking you to not be upset, we all are, I'm asking you to try and be yourself again. For your family. We miss you as much as we miss Alice. I'm sorry for bringing it up but, we already lost one Cullen, we don't want to loose another." Another long pause, and Jasper fell to his knees, shattering the ground underneath him as me crammed his hands into his face. If Vampires could cry, then this must be what it looked like. I ran over to him and pulled him into a hug. "Get away!" He snapped loudly, but since I was still stronger then he was I didn't let him go until he stopped resisting. "No. You need some sort of contact with someone. Stop being so isolated." After about five minutes or so, I felt him loosen up into a lifeless almost feeling, and he laid in my arms for a good fifteen minutes.
"I'm sorry." He said in his old, calm Jasper voice. This made me smile. "You have nothing to be sorry for." He looked up at me, his eyes glassy and gold looking. "Lets go back to the house, were going to work on you getting better, starting tomorrow. For now you need to rest for a little bit." We stood up and starting walking away from the cliffs we had been at. "Better would be nice, thank you." I grabbed his arm and we started walking home.