Chapter 8

Bella's point of view.

"I'm going to go hunt with Emmett." Edward said slowly lifting himself off of our hotel bed.

"You went before we left though? Isn't that why we all did that extra hunting?" I asked looking at him a little confused.

"Yes, but this night has put so much stress on us it would be nice to let off some steam by hunting some large, fast, animals."

He smiled a bright smile and kissed my lips softly, and then with a bit more force.

"I love you." I said pulling him back for another kiss.

"I love you too darling."

I watched as he quickly and gracefully stepped out of our hotel room and listened to his lightening quick footsteps meet up with Emmett's until I was positive I couldn't hear them anymore and new that they were out of the hotel.

I needed to talk to Jasper, to ask him some questions. I felt bad for betraying Edwards wishes, but maybe we could some how do something to help Jasper feel better. Plus I was really curious about this Tayler story. If that really was her, I wanted to figure out why she was in Forks. And especially since Alice was no longer in the picture?

Ever since I fell into this story book type of world I've learned that nothing is a coincidence. Everything happens for a reason. If this Tayler was just showing up now, it had to be because she some how new Alice wasn't in forks.

Perfect… I thought to myself coming up with a plan.

There was no way I could just let Jasper sit around in his room all night, alone the way he was. If I was him being alone would be the last thing I wanted at a time like this.

I quietly slid off the bed and walked to the door to leave to go see Jasper and make sure he was at least okay.

As I got to the door of his hotel room I lifted my hand and knocked on the big green door with bright gold numbers written on the top of it. I don't know why I knocked on it, he obviously could hear me walking to the door, and smell my scent. I guess some of the things human's do on a regular basis were starting to come natural as a reminder to act more like a human.

There was no answer at the door so I opened it and slid in, closing the door behind me.

"Jasper?" I asked in a small voice.

He didn't answer me even though I was standing right there.

It looked as though he had pulled the bed closer to window. He sat motionless on the bed with his knee's tucked into his chest, his arms wrapped around his legs. He looked like a statue, the light from the moon reflected off of his skin, making it look like he was sitting under a whole bunch of florescent lights. It was such a beautiful sight.

I shook my head slightly, and walked over to the bed and sat down at the end corner of it.

"Jasper, are you alright?" What a stupid question.

He didn't answer for a long moment, but then slowly turned his head towards me to look at me face to face.

I felt a jolt of pain serge through my body as I my eyes set on his own.

They didn't look bright, metallic honey anymore. They looked now filled with pain, a very dull almost brassy color.

"No, I'm not." He said in monotone voice.

"I'm confused. I can't handle everything that has happened in the past while. I just don't understand what I did wrong."

I couldn't believe what was coming out of his mouth.

"You didn't do anything wrong…" I couldn't think of anything to say to him. I felt so bad for him. I could feel his pain and depression radiating off of his body. Someone human could even feel what he was feeling it was so obvious.

Jasper shook his head in frustration a small bit and rested his head back onto his knees again. It was so weird seeing a vampire in this state. But he was missing Alice, and that was completely understandable.

"Then why am I alone Bella? Why is Alice no longer with me?"

I had to stop for a short moment to think of something to say.

"Her leaving, was nothing you did. That was 100 percent Alice's decision. And you did nothing to impact her choice on wanting to leave."

There was another pause.

"I know how you feel Jasper."

He lifted his head again a small bit to look at me, I could tell he was remembering when Edward had left me a few years back.

"But you got him back. When Alice first left, I still had hope she would come back. For months I had this hope. For those first few months I could still sense her emotions, I could still feel her. Like she was still some how a part of me. That's gone now, it's like she never existed except for in photographs, old letters, or clothing she left behind. I can't feel her at all anymore."

"Jasper I-" He cut me off.

"And I'm going to already assume that Edward told you?"

"Told me what?" I tried to act dumb, but the nervous emotion I was giving off couldn't fool him.

I looked away at the ground for a moment before I could look at him again.

When I looked up he was looking directly at me.

"Yeah, he told me what you were thinking about when…before you blacked out."

Jasper sign heavily and buried his head into his arms that were still wrapped around himself. Almost like he was trying to hold himself together from falling apart.

"I'm so much more confused then I was even just a few days ago." He whispered softy.

I scooted in closer on the bed and touched his hand forcing him to look up at me.

"Was that her? Was that Tayler?" I asked him.

The way Jasper looked at me then, it looked as almost he had a tiny, just barely there glimpse of hope in his eyes. But it faded as fast as it came.

"Her scent…it was like centuries ago. I'd always remember that sort of scent. But, this time it was sweeter."

"So it was her then?"

"It's a possibility, she smelt like her, but I can't say that with 100 percent confidence…"

The look on his face went glum once again.

"Do you ever miss her?" I felt like I needed to know.

"Miss Tayler?" He asked looking surprised.

I nodded.

"I hadn't thought about her almost for as long as I had been with Alice. I always thought she had left me because she was too much of a coward to confront me about falling out of love with me. I hated her. But there were a few times where yes, I did miss her. But I just always assumed that after a certain year mark, it wouldn't matter anymore because she would have died of old age anyways. The way all most humans do. But after tonight, I can't help but to think that maybe, by some weird coincidence that was her…as a vampire."

I couldn't handle seeing Jasper like this anymore, it was driving me to feel the same dead feeling as he did.

"Jasper, do you want to go track Tayler? I can guarantee she hasn't gone far."

Jasper's eyes widened for a split second, a small, yet still pained smile grew to his lips.

"No, don't worry about it Bella. It most likely wasn't her anyways. It would have been too much of a coincidence. And even if for some out of the blue chance it was her, I'd have nothing to say, I'd freeze."

I got up and kissed the top of Jasper's head.

"You're my brother Jasper, we're family. And I want you too be happy. Haven't you noticed that in Forks, nothing is a coincidence?"

I started for the door, reached for the door knob and opened it.

"Tomorrow will be a better day, goodnight." I said smiling before stepping out into the hallway.