It had been a few days since Sasuke kissed Gaara. No. .Gaara kissed Sasuke. It was all so confusing for him. He couldn't think straight! He should be working on his Geometry work but every letter on the page seemed to spell Sasuke. Gaara sighed, dying to get out of this school. Life had been pretty normal so far, a normal routine. He'd come home, Kakashi and Itachi would be going at it, Sasuke constantly masturbating in the shower, Gaara always resisting Sasuke a little longer. . .making him want more and more from Gaara, making him plead to kiss him. Gaara was enjoying the teasing he was giving Sasuke. Yet. . . hating it for not being able to kiss him and letting Sasuke hold Gaara in his strong arms. But he still wasn't ready a relationship romantically yet. He needed to get adjusted with this huge change. Being gay, getting kicked out by his only sister, moving in with a guy he had just met. Life was different.

"Class dismissed!" The teacher called loudly.

Gaara was pulled from his thoughts as the bell rang.

"Finally!" Gaara leapt from his seat and ran down the stairs to the back of the school, waiting for Sasuke. He ran a hand through his red hair, still waiting for Sasuke to come and take them home. Listening for the door to open he looked to it and saw a black haired kid with black circular eyes walk towards him. It wasn't Sasuke. The boy stepped a bit closer and was about an inch away from Gaara. Gaara kept backing up until he slammed into the brick wall of the school. The boy smiled at Gaara and winked lightly. Gaara's hands twitched as the boy pinned him to the wall and moved his face closer. Gaara shut his eyes and whimpered, the boy was trying to kiss him. He opened his eyes and saw Sasuke run toward them, pushing the boy away from Gaara.

"Back off Lee!"

"Why? I did nothing. . . "

"Can't you see that you are scaring Gaara?"

"Who says?

"Gaara?"

Sasuke looked to Gaara and quickly Gaara pushed himself off the wall and went behind Sasuke, nodding. He didn't like people hitting on him, especially girls. He had to give a pretty good excuse to a girl at this school why he didn't want to go with her. He told her his mom didn't allow him to date. Gaara couldn't tell them he was gay. It was the reason he moved in the first place. People ridiculing him, people treating him like shit being mean. But here. . . here he had friends. Or so he assumed. Sasuke was kind to him, he treated Gaara like he was special. Like he actually meant something to Sasuke. Maybe he was wrong, he didn't have time to think about that because he was once again pulled from his thoughts by Sasuke who was trying to talk to him.

"GAARA?!"

"Hm?"

"Is-is something wrong?"

Sasuke looked at Gaara, his face had the same look as usual: expressionless.

"No. No-nothing,"

Sasuke nodded and grabbed Gaara's hand, still expressionless.

"I know you aren't ready Gaara. But. . .can I at least hold your hand till we get home?"

Gaara thought about it for a second then smiled lightly, entwining his fingers with Sasuke's.

"Yeah,"

A huge grin spread across Sasuke's face as he squeezed Gaara's hand lightly. He walked them home, holding onto Gaara's hand with a burning fire inside him, knowing he couldn't keep his hands to himself for another week. As soon as they entered the house they heard some strange noises like usual.

"Uh! Uhhh!! KAKASHI!"

"Errhh!! Uh. . UHHH!"

"Uh. Uh uh!! Ka-kashi,"

Gaara shifted where he was standing, letting Sasuke's hand go as he stood there. Sasuke pushed Gaara into his room and shit the door, muffling the moans and groans coming from Itachi and Kakashi. Gaara sat on the bed and pulled out his Biology book, opening it and reading the pages required. He was about to turn the page when he felt something warm on his neck. Thinking it was Sasuke's mouth, Gaara turned to face him and noticed it was Sasuke's finger on his neck. Letting out a small breath he smiled. He noticed how Sasuke's deep blue eyes stared longingly at Gaara. Gaara bit his lower lip and looked to the door, locked. He couldn't. It could lead to things, thing Gaara didn't want to happen.

"Gaara. . . "

His eyes moved to back to Sasuke's face and he blinked slowly.

"Yes?"

"Can I-"

Gaara interrupted him quickly.

"Yes,"

Sasuke grinned and leaned forward, pressing his lips lightly against Gaara's. Sasuke's arms moved around his hips and pulled Gaara to him, his tongue slipping in, teasing Gaara's tongue sweetly. Gaara tested of berries and cream, a sweet, longing taste, like a drug. He needed Gaara. . . badly. Gaara eyes shut and he moaned slightly as Sasuke started teasing him. Gaara moved his tongue slowly into Sasuke's mouth. i This. . .actually feels. . . good. . . /i Gaara pulled from Sasuke, his breath heavy and his heart racing.

"Sas-Sasuke,"

Sasuke took in a breath and moved his fingers around Gaara's waist and hips, moving softly, his right hand sliding up the front of Gaara's shirt, caressing his well toned sides and body, kissing his neck, sucking on it and pulling away, leaving a mark. Sasuke kissed him again and moved his tongue around teasingly, hoping to make Gaara want him even more. Now that he had the red head, he'd never let him go. Never! Sasuke kissed with more force this time, biting on Gaara's lower lip. Gaara's eyes were wide now. He had Sasuke touching him. . . and being forceful. Gaara moaned lightly as Sasuke caressed him then whimpered as Sasuke bit down on his lip harder. Gaara felt Sasuke's free hand slip down his pants and his eyes widened moving away, pulling from Sasuke's grasp.

"Sasuke. . . please. I'm not ready for that,"

With a small nod he stood up and looked to Gaara. For some reason, Gaara felt as if he had done something wrong to irritate Sasuke.

"Take your shower, we have school tomorrow,"

Gaara nodded and stood up, walking into the bathroom and stripping. He looked at his face in the mirror, he had a pink hickey on his neck a bite mark on his lip. . . blood. Gaara gasped touching the blood and looking at it on his finger. He didn't want to do it. . he didn't want to betray Sasuke. . .but he had to. The temptation. Gaara ran to his pants and pulled out his razor and looked at his wrist and sighed. He was going to hurt Sasuke. That's what he'd do. If Gaara cut himself, he'd be hurting the man who cared for him the most. He sighed and pressed the blade against his scarred skin and pulled it swiftly across, cutting deep and watching the blood flow from his wounds. Gaara let out yelp of pain as he braced himself against the sink. Pain surged through Gaara's body as the blood continued to flow. Before he knew it, he had cut himself four more times. It was like a drug, he i had /i to do it. The temptation of the pain. Gaara looked to the ground and noticed he was standing in a small pool of blood, the blood dripping slowly to the white tile.

"No. . ."

His face had the look of shock upon it. Sasuke would see, and get mad. Gaara looked at his wrist, which was still bleeding profusely. Wanting to stop, Gaara pressed it one last time against his skin and pressed down hard, and pulled it across. The pain was so high that he screamed, dropping to the ground and the razor falling from his hands.

"Sas-uke,"

Gaara fell over and lay in a pool of his own blood, the pain surging, pulsing through his body. Sasuke heard Gaara scream and he pulled open the door and his eyes widened as he saw Gaara. On the ground, in blood and a razor next to him.

"Gaara!!"

Sasuke screamed falling to the ground and pulling him into his lap, running fingers through his red hair.

"ITACHI! KAKASHI!!"

Screaming again, he waited for Itachi and Kakashi to run into the room, gasping as they saw Gaara's body covered in blood.

"Sasuke. . . what happened?"

Itachi asked slowly stepping toward them.

"I-"

"Yes?"

"He cut himself,"

"Oh,"

Gaara's eyes popped open and he looked up to see Sasuke's face. Sasuke looked at Gaara, a tinge of disappointment in his cold raven eyes.

"Gaara, how could you?"

Sasuke jumped up and left the bathroom, a trail of blood following him. Gaara's face sank as he watched Sasuke leave. He winced in pain again, Itachi was wrapping his wrist with white bandages.

"Gaara. Please stop the pain, and start the healing,"

Itachi whispered to him, helping him up and clearing up the blood on the floor and on Gaara. Itachi led Gaara to the bed and smiled down at him.

"Go to bed. I'll talk to Sasuke,"

Gaara nodded getting into the bed, tears trickling down his pale cheeks as Itachi left Gaara alone. He rolled over to face away from the door, hearing Sasuke yelling and someone crying. Who? Gaara shut his eyes as someone walked into the room. It was Sasuke.

i Sasuke. . ."

"What do you want?"

"You must understand. . ."

"Understand what!?"

"Why Gaara hurts himself so!"

"I KNOW WHY! (sob)"

"No. You don't!! You think you!"

". . . "

"He has been through so much Sasuke. . ."

"I guess. . ."

"Now. Go in there and. . . hug him, tell him how you feel!" /i

Gaara felt a hand run down his shoulder and to his hip. The person pulled Gaara to them, the hand trickling down Gaara's chest, hugging him close and licking his ear.

"I'm sorry Gaara. Speak to me. Please,"

A whimper escaped Gaara's mouth as Sasuke pulled Gaara to his body. The look in Sasuke's eyes when Gaara opened his eyes had stayed implanted in his mind. The look of betrayal and the look of pain as he saw Gaara on the ground. Sasuke's heart throbbed as Gaara whimpered. He needed Gaara's innocence. He NEEDED him. The way he was so. . . fragile. It was a major turn on. His whimper was so sweet. Sasuke was broken from his thoughts as he heard Gaara let out a sob, his shaky breath coming out as Sasuke breathed slowly on Gaara's neck. Gaara shuddered in his arms, still not facing him. He was afraid this wasn't real. Sasuke's warm breath against his cold skin, his body pressed firmly against Gaara's back, and his hands running down and across his body.

"Gaara. . ."

Sasuke found his voice again as he pressed his lips against Gaara's neck, running his tongue down Gaara's neck and to his shoulder where he bit down hard, blood trickling down Gaara's back. Gaara let out a gasp of pain and pleasure.

"Sasuke!"

He felt Sasuke's tongue lick the blood off him and Gaara moaned, squirming within Sasuke's hold. He was quickly turned to face Sasuke who was grinning at him.

"Gaara. . ,are you a virgin?"

Gaara's eyes widened and he looked at Sasuke's chest, sweat was already trickling down it.

"Yes, I am,"

"Good,"

Sasuke kissed Gaara firmly, moving his lips to Gaara's neck and sucking on it, leaving a pink mark there. He moved and pushed Gaara flat against the bed, pushing himself up against Gaara's shoulders, hovering over him. Gaara's eyes were wide as the Raven haired boy hovered over him.

"Gaara,"

He stayed silent for awhile, looking up at Sasuke, his body shuddering as he felt something hard against his inner thigh.

"Y-yes Sasuke?"

"Do you want this?"

"What?"

"I'll stop if you want. . . "

Gaara was about to protest against stopping, but he nodded.

"I'm not ready. . . for sex,"

Sasuke nodded and felt himself fall next to Gaara's body. Gaara smiled as Sasuke kissed his neck lightly and soon fell asleep to Sasuke's steady breathing.