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How are you guys I havn't posted anything new in a while. I knew it was a good idea to change the characters to characters from twilight it is really annoying to read stories that at least don't even have the characters.

Stephenie Meyer owns everything and everyone :( sigh although Jake is a real person and i am crushing on him lol ;) seriously he is not jacob black- im team edward sooo boo jake.

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CHAPTER 5

Jake is just a friend, right yeah he's just a friend. What's up with Edward? I realize that it's all just love and he really cares about me but why will I get hurt? I'll only love him and only him. I couldn't imagine anyone else.

So what Edward basically declared his love for me. No pressure haha. My heart hurts to not see him like I've stated before. I miss his kisses and I wish he would of continued what we were doing in the meadow.

I decided to go on a walk in the woods to take my mine off of things. I put on a pair of my favorite comfy jeans on and my favorite blue long sleeve. I put some converse on and let my brunette hair just fall back not even caring what it looked like. No one was home to I didn't bother to leave a note, I wouldn't be that long right? I took my cell phone just in case.

I left my house letting the warm fall air blow through my hair. I walked towards the woods full of beautiful changing leaves. The animals, although hidden, were extremely quiet. My legs were sort of getting tired and I was really far away from my house so I decided to sit down on a fallen tree.

I sat in silence. I few minutes went by when I heard a crack of a breaking twig. It made me jump it was probably just a squirrel. Then I heard it again, I stood up.

"Hello?" I asked. I heard nothing.

"Bella?" A male voice called out.

"Yes?" I asked confused. Jake walked out from behind me.

"Jake?" I asked turning around.

"Yeah it's me." he said.

"What are you doing out here?"

"I came out here to think, I do that a lot."

"Oh."

"What did you come out here for?"

"To think." I laughed

"It's beautiful isn't it?"

"W-what?" Jake was making me nervous, I came out here to think and get my mind off of him and who shows up? He does.

"The leaves, the color it's beautiful."

"Y-yes it is."

"Can I ask you something?" he asked moving closer to me.

"What?"

"Why Edward? Why do you like him so much?"

"I don't think that's your business." I whispered as he moved closer again.

"I just want to know."

"Uh well when I'm around him I feel good and my heart stops hurting, and when we kiss my stomach flips."

"Why him?"

"He understands me."

"I understand you." he whispered.

"Jake." I sighed.

"Sorry."

"Jake?" I asked taking his hand. He sat down. On the log pulling me down next to him. He brushed his thumb across the back of my hand just like how Edward did in the meadow. My heart skipped a beat. His hand was soooo warm it flooded my body with warmth.

It's all my fault I lead him on, if I just left him alone, he wouldn't like me right now.

"Jake please, don't do this."

"I can't help myself Bella, when I'm around you everything changes."

"Ja-" he cut me off kissing me with so much passion I tried to push away I tried to stop him. But it wouldn't work he was to strong. He clasped his arms around me and held me closer. I gave in, the only way he would stop is if I just let him get what he wanted. I kissed him back.

Lust came over me, I had no idea what I was doing. I moved closer to him wrapping my hands in his long hair. He pulled away and then kissed me two more times. I put my hand over my lips wide eyed. I slapped him across the face. This hurt me more than it probably hurt him. A whimper fell off my tongue. I moved away from him and faced the other direction. Embarrassment flooding my body.

"I'm sorry." he said putting his hand on my shoulder.

"Why can't you just except that I like Edward?"

"Because he's not good for you!"

"Why not?"

"You don't know everything about him."

"What are you talking about?"

"I can't tell you he has to tell you himself."

"Huh?"

"Bye."

He kissed me one more time and then ran away.

Great now my walk that was suppose to help me think just made me more confused. What did Jake mean about Edward not being what I thought he is. I'm so confused! Why me? I ran all the way back home. Half way home I took out my cell phone and dialed his number.

"Edward?" I whispered into the phone tears filling my eyes with hatred and guilt.

"What's wrong?"

"I need to talk to you."

"Why are you okay?"

"Sort of I can't tell you right now can you please just come to my house or something?"

"Well I have good news for you!!"

"What?"

"I got my license so I can drive to you when ever I want!"

"Oh my gosh no way!!!!!! Come to me I have to talk to you."

"Alright I'll be over in a second."

I was home at the end of the phone call and he was there in the drive way, he has his own car now too.

I continued running as he got out of the car and I ran into his arms. It was weird the sudden excitement that over came me when I saw him. He held me close to me, no one spoke.

"Why did you want to talk to me so much?"

"I- I have to ask you something."

"What anything."

"Well don't get mad at me." he had a weird look on his face, a mixture of worry and confusion.

"Okay?"

"I was talking to Jake and he said something…"

"What what did he say?"

"He said that I didn't know…. Everything about you, that I thought I did."

"Oh." he said his eyes widening then looking away from me.

"What what is it you can tell me anything." I said looking at him as he swallowed deeply.

"I know I can trust you." he said still not looking at me.

"What, what is it?"

He waited a few minutes thinking about if he wanted to tell me and what he wanted to tell me. My patience was running low but the only way he would tell me is if I was patient.

"You are holding me together, without you I don't think I could survive." my eyes widened as he started to tell me.

"Edward please tell me what's wrong."

"My dad, he has cancer… and he's not going to make it." he said bursting into tears, the only weird thing was that he wasn't actually crying, he was sobbing but there was no tears. I held him closer as tears started to spill out of my own lids. My family has been close to their family forever, and his dad is like my second dad. Loosing him, hurts it really hurts.

"I knew I shouldn't of told you." he sniffed in my hair, "It would just make you cry."

He rubbed my back as I started to sob into his shoulder.

"No, no I'm fine." I said wiping my eyes and pulling back.

I put my hands on his shoulder and looked right into his eyes and asked him, "Are you okay though?"

"He's still alive, I'm just going to pretend he has nothing wrong with him until, it happens."

"How long? How long have you known?"

"It's been months, and he's just getting worse." he whispered.

"It's okay you'll be okay. I love you."

"I love you too."

We held each other in our arms for a few minutes.

"I'm sorry I have to go, I love you."

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