Just before I continue wanted to say thank you to everone who review, or put me on their alerts. I really appreciate it :) Also, wanted to add, this story (at least for now) will be about Finn. So no ships will really be involved except for the slightest and subtlest mention. Im trying to have it kinda follow what would actually happen in the first few days after Sectionals when the buzz wears off.
Anyway, hope you like this chapter as much as the last one :) sorry its so short :/ i think the third one will be longer though
Their first actual Glee practice is a couple of days after Sectionals, Mr Shue is eager to get started on new material straight away. He's early, which never happens, but it's not like he has much to distract him now.
He sits himself down on the step on a low practice stage and does nothing. He's been like this since then, kinda lost in time. But his mom says he's surviving and that's the important part.
He looks up when he hears footsteps, all too familiar footsteps. They could only belong to one person, so when he finds her standing in front of him, looking down on him for once, he's not surprised. Hesistant, but not surprised.
He's kind of been avoiding her. He's kind of been avoiding everyone.
"Hi." She says finally, her eyes soft.
He shrugs in reply. He likes her, he's fascinated by her. But right now he can't think about anything but Puck and Quinn and that little girl that will never be his. The little girl he's been giving names to for the last couple of months.
Rachel's nice, she's friendly. She's obviously worried about him. But right now he'd rather she went away and left him alone. He'd like everyone to leave him alone. He doesn't want to be in the spotlight, he doesn't want a lead. He wants to sit in his room with the lights off.
She sits down next to him, and he's bigger than her again. He's the giant and for once, he hates it.
"Did I do the right thing, telling you?" she asks finally, kind of breathlessly. It obvious the thought's been running around her mind for days.
He has no idea. Would it all have worked out if she hadn't told him? Did he want to know, or would he rather he never knew? Would it have even mattered when she was born and he held her in his arms?
In the end, he shrugs again, "I don't know."
She accepts this without argument, and it's obvious that there is nothing more to say. So they stay on the step, waiting for the others to arrive and rehearsal to begin.
Soon enough, everyone is there. They take care to acknowledge him, but not actually say anything and he likes it this way. Puck and Quinn walk in separately but neither of them look at him.
Mr Shue walks in last, he looks tired and worn, but ultimately happy and he wonders when his life started working out again. And he wonders when his will.
They get the new song and it's a sad one, he's heard his mom listening to it on one of her love song CD's. It's pretty old, he thinks. He's not sure if it's what he wants to be singing, but he'll try it on for size.
Mr Shue announces that Kurt will be doing the lead, with Rachel and when he looks over the pages he sees he has no solos. Not one. Looking up, he catches Mr Shue's eye and he nods, subtly but pointedly. He wonders how he knew that background was exactly what he needed right now. Anonymity and low hums and chorus'.
Rachel gets up to stand closer to Kurt and he sits alone for the rest of the song. Great metaphor for his life, he decides and sings the chorus a little louder than before.