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Disclaimer: I am not the great and amazing and awesome and you get the point Stephenie Meyer *bow down to her*

I had been lying on my bed for two days. Not eating, not sleeping, I was just trying not to think. I had tried to think about Edwa- him but I just couldn't. Whenever I thought his name a searing pain shot through my heart as though someone was brutally jabbing it with a burning hot poker. I found it easier to just float around in my head and used the pain as an incentive not to think about him. Although I need not realize at the time, I had started building up a wall in my head. Sealing up every last memory of him that I had. When I had completed this grueling mental task I was finally able to sleep.

The next morning I woke with a start. My head was still a little fuzzy from adjusting to the light-headed feeling I always got when I had forgotten something. I dismissed this fact and locked it behind my wall. I had not done any homework all weekend and it was not Sunday. I grimaced, thinking of how much work I had to do but then stopped in my tracks as I pulled out my beet-up green history binder.

FLASHBACK

"Come on Bella hurry up! We don't have all day. Don't you want to go to the party with me?"

"Of coarse I do but you've seen my History binder. It died, Edward!" I laughed with him.

"O.K. fine you win just hurry though, this is our first party together as a couple." He sneaked his hand around my waist.

I grabbed the first binder I could find and started toward the checkout counter.

"Bella?" Edward stifled a laugh.

"What! You wanted me to hurry!" He just kept looking at the hot pink binder in my hand. Wait HOT PINK??? I blushed.

"I'm glad you caught me" I said reaching for a emerald green binder. "See this one is like you're eyes, except much less beauti-" I stopped mid sentence as Edward swept me off my week and kissed me hard on the lips. I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Um excuse me miss?" I let go of Edward to see an awkward looking employee with an elderly lady fanning herself vigorously behind him. We were both cracking up as I paid for the binder and got in Edwards black Volvo. We were still laughing when we got to the party a few minutes later.

END OF FLASHBACK

No! Why was my perfect wall not protecting me. I concentrated on shoving the memory across the barrio of my mind until it finally succumbed and I though about it no more. This was just a regular old binder. Nothing special about it. In fact a salesman recommended it to me. I sighed and started on my homework.

When I was done with all my work at last, I thought back to how many things reminded me of him. I had to stop every minute or so to block a thought. I knew deep down that I could never forget what really happened those times when I slipped and had a flashback, but pretending was nice. It was like floating above the pain, I knew it would hurt when I landed but that didn't stop me from enjoying the bliss of ignorance.

Mom and dad had checked on me a few times. They were shocked and scared when I came into the house. My tears red and puffy and my clothes soaked. I knew they were concerned about me but in my state of utter nothingness I couldn't bring myself to say anything to them. I knew they knew what had happened however. I overheard a phone call between my father and the principle while the two of them were still scrambling around, trying to figure out what had happened to me.

FLASHBACK

"Hello? Yes Mr. Harison I wanted to speak with you. (talking on the other line)Bella has been acting strange. (talking on the other line)Yes, ever since she got home. Do you know what happened? (talking on the other line) Oh I see…(talking on the other line) Thank you Mr. Harison(talking on the other line) Ok good bye."

"What happened? Did he say?" My mom was worriedly standing next to my dad.

"He said that a few teachers saw Edward" I flinched at his name "breaking up with Bella on Friday after school." My father's voice grew angry as he neared the end of his sentence.

"Oh my" my mother sounded like she didn't know what to say. My mother's voice always betrayed her emotions. Unfortunately I inherited that annoying ability. My teachers always knew when I did not know the answer to questions.

"I'm going up to talk to her. Then I'm going straight over to Cullen's house with a baseball bat and a-" my father still sounded angry.

"Darling, give her some time. She just needs some time to get over him."

"Fine."

"Where are you going?" I heard Charlie walking towards the door.

"To Cullen's house" he grumbled.

"No honey. You're the Chief of Police for goodness sakes."

END OF FLASHBACK

The next day I woke up blissfully unaware. Then it crashed down on me. I was going to school. Edward was at school. We have all but one of our classes together. We were partners in Biology. I was going to die.

I started up my Toyota and it stuttered violently. "Damn it" I growled viciously. Wait if I can't go to school I can't see Edward. But it's either that or wallow in self misery all day. As I drove to school I worked on building up my wall to block the blow that was surly going to shatter it as soon as I saw his face.

I pulled up to the senior parking lot. I was careful to stay far away from the black Volvo and the place where it happened on frid- "NO!" I dug my fingernails into my leg as I though about that scene. I would not think about it. I would not think about him. I figured that if I associated thoughts of him with pain, they would go away. That was how Emos did it…" (A/N nothing against Emos..)

"Bella!" I looked up to see Alice, my best friend standing next to my car. I realized that she was Edward's friend as well. Could I be near her without crying?

"Sorry Alice I'm coming." As we walked to class Alice filled me in.

"So after Friday" I flinched and blocked the memory from passing into my brain (A/N I'm just going to call it f&b flinch and block from now on) "you o.k."

"What?" I was very far from O.K."

"I was telling you that all of our friends have chosen sides" I groaned I knew this was coming.

"Who's on whose side?"

"That's what I was telling you. Well Lauren, Tanya, and Jessica chose Edward." Of coarse the school sluts would choose Edward. "And Mike stuck with you" oh great now he would try to hit on me all the time, and I didn't have anyone to stop him… "Rosalie chose Edward." That one hurt. I thought Rosalie and I were close. "Um.. who else? Oh, Taylor Eric and Seth are for Edward and Jacob and Jasper, I didn't make him he chose you himself, chose you of coarse." Well that was good I guess. Alice's boyfriend chose me.

By this time we has made it to my first class. I gulped. Alice wasn't in this class.

"Good luck" she patted my back as she headed down the hall towards a very happy Jasper who was waiting for her with open arms.

"Thanks" I whispered as I shook off the thought that I would never have open arms waiting for me again.

I slowly opened the door and gasped.

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