Ok guy I know I haven't updated in a long time so sorry. And sorry that this chapter isn't very good

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Me: I do not own any part of twilight what so ever. It all belongs to Stephenie Meyer

SM: Hell yea

When I walked into the Biology classroom the first thing I noticed was that Bella still wasn't here. Ever since I dumped her she had always been early to all her classes. I felt so guilty, but I knew it was for the better. If Bella knew I was working for a drug dealer she would never forgive me, but I couldn't stand lying to her either…

Where the hell is she? What I James hurt her? What if she thought I had told her something? What if it was all my fault? What if-

I sighed as she came through the classroom door. She looked a little anxious but I couldn't understand why. Had James done something to her?

"Well class as I 'm sure you know, the Biology project is due in two weeks. I suggest that you and your partner should find time to see each other after school. You have a lot of work to do so get started." I had forgotten about the stupid project, although I was ecstatic about being alone with my Bella…

"So are you coming to my house after school?" I didn't look at her. Instead I focused on a lump missing from the side of the desk. I waited eagerly for her reply. She thought for a moment and then answered.

"I guess so." I chanced a glance at her. She looked scared. Was she afraid of me? The rest of class passed by slowly. I couldn't wait for the end of the day. Maybe I could even drive her home- NO I couldn't! I had to pretend to hate her, to protect her.

As soon as class ended Bella leapt up out of her seat and headed to the door. I followed her. As soon as I got into the hallway I stopped and listened.

"Hi" Bella said, sounding a little breathless.

"Hi. So what do you want to do tonight?" I bit back a snarl. She was talking to James!

"Well I actually have to go over to Edward's house…to work on our Biology project…" She sounded regretful, and how could she not? She wanted to be with her boyfriend not her ex-boyfriend. Even if he was a deranged psycho drug dealing murderer.

"Do you have to go?" He was mad and I could tell. He tried to cover it up but it was just the sound he made when someone didn't have the money they promised him. I bit back the urge to run over and scoop up Bella. To protect her from him. But I couldn't or we would both be dead. I had missed part of the conversation. I quickly started paying attention.

"Oh you don't have to do that." That was my Bella. What had James offered to do?

"Yes I do, you're my girlfriend and I love you." I held back another snarl.

"Thanks" They had started rounding the corner when she kissed him and I had to get away. Not only because I would have hell to pay if James caught me listening but because I was just too painful to watch. My sweet innocent Bella with that murderer. I couldn't take it any more. I just wanted to die, but then nobody would be able to protect my Bella. I knew that I could not let anything happen to her. I could never forgive myself if she got hurt. It would be all my fault.

When I got home I waited for Bella. I knew it wouldn't take her too long to get to my house. She knew the way. I was setting up my books when I heard the doorbell ring.

"I got it" Emmett yelled as he ran to get the door.

"Bella?" He sounded shocked. What was wrong with him? "It is you, you look different…" he trailed off. So that was it, he noticed how sad she looked and it was all my fault.

"Can't…breath…Emmett…!" He must be giving her one of his signature Emmett hugs.

"Do you know where he is" I noticed how she didn't say my name and it hurt.

"Ya this way." Emmett knew she was talking about me.

"Bella!" Esme greeted her as soon as she walked into the kitchen. I could see her now but she didn't notice me. She looked awful. Her beautiful features were distorted in pain that she could not hide.

"Bella are you ok?" Esme asked worriedly.

"Yes… I think so…I'm just going to use the bathroom." She ran out of the room. As soon as she was out of earshot Emmett rounded on me.

"This is all your fault."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"You know what I'm talking about."

"I don't" I said stubbornly.

"B-E-L-L-A" Emmett said her named slowly and painfully. He knew that I didn't like talking about her. He knew how much it hurt me.

"What about her?" Finally Emmett lost it.

"You're being stupid." He roared.

"I'm being stupid? Me!" I was being smart! I was doing what was right for Bella. I thought…

"Have you even bothered to look at her face after what you did to her." Yes I had bothered, and it had almost killed me.

"What I did to her! You make it sound like I raped her!" I growled inwardly at the thought of someone doing that to my Bella.

"You might as well have." Did he really think of me like that? He didn't know the whole story. How could I tell him I worked for a drug dealer.

"And what's that supposed to mean!" I shouted, but I knew what he had meant.

"You know exactly what I mean!" My anger died down and I half-whispered:

"She has a boyfriend now Emmett."

"So"

"Well it's not like-" and then I saw her in the doorway. Her eyes were red and puffy and I knew that she had been crying. I just wanted to wrap my arms around her and hold her close to me.

"Bella I-" Emmett started to say to her but then she interrupted, her face set and her eyes as cold as marble.

"Let's just get this over with, do you have your Biology book or did you leave it with Tanya?" She asked deadly sweet. I couldn't believe she thought that of my.

"Yes I have it" I glared at her and saw her wince. I immediately felt guilty but I didn't say anything.

The night ended quickly. No matter how much I wanted to, I couldn't stop her from going back to James tomorrow. As soon as she left the house I ran over to the window to watch her leave, only to see James there holding my Bella. She looked up and I could tell she saw me. James followed her eyes and saw me too. I saw him wink at me then bend down to whisper delicately into Bella's ear.

I walked to my room and slammed the door. I couldn't take it anymore. I just wanted to be free. To not have to worry anymore. I just wanted to not have to think the thoughts that were slowly burning my insides away.

I slowly reached into my desk drawer. I pulled out the zip lock bag. My hand was shaking as I looked at my stash of drugs. I told myself I would never do them again. I would not give James a reason to keep working for him. I needed to at least try to be good enough for Bella, even if I could never have her.

I stared at the bag. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to forget everything, just for tonight.

Does Eddy do the drugs!!!!! You guys tell me : ) Do you like the story? I know this chapter isn't as good as my other ones. I sort of felt weird when I was writing it. I usually feel connected when I write but I didn't this time so sorry it's really bad. PLEASE REVIEW