So sorry I was at field hockey camp this week and I was so tired when I got back but it's over now so here is your story

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BPOV

It was all dark and fuzzy. All I could see was darkness, but I could hear the beeping of hospital machines. I had been in hospitals enough to know what they sounded like. I took a deep painful breath of air. Yes this was defiantly a hospital. It smelled sickly sterile. As if air fresheners and immaculately clean bed sheets could disguise the smell of death that lingered on every surface of the room.

Then in a wave of emotions everything came back to me. Edward's house, James, the pain, Edward's eyes, darkness. Just as all the memories came rushing back into my head I heard two familiar voices.

"What if I'm not good enough for her?" I knew that voice but I hated hearing it in such pain. But why would it's owner be here?

"It seems like you are at a crossroads. You can try to make things right with Bella and hopefully it will all end up all right although there are no guaranties. Or you can lave this hospital tonight and never come back and never see her again, hoping that this is what is best for Bella and for you." I knew this voice as well. It was Emmett. I struggled over what he said. My drug filled brain couldn't handle so much information at one time but I think I got the point of it. He was saying Edward had two choices, he could stay with me, or he could leave. I wanted to scream at Edward not to leave me but then it struck me, why would Edward want to stay with me? He hated me!

Edward and Emmett continued to talk but I wasn't listening anymore. I was still thinking over what Emmett had said. If Edward was asking if he should stay with me then didn't that mean he still cared about me? No! I thought fiercely to myself. I couldn't let myself think he still wanted me. I couldn't let myself hope just to be disappointed later. I heard the door shut and I struggled to open my eyes.

"Edward?" I said seeing him sitting right next to me. He looked startled as his bright green eyes met my own brown ones. He looked at the door and then at me and then back to the door. I held my breath praying that he would turn back to me. I couldn't deal with him leaving me so soon. I wouldn't survive him going again.

"Edward?" I said again. And slowly, ever so slowly he turned back to me, his eyes filled with tears of guilt and sorrow, as he looked me in the eye once again.

"Bella." He said my name slowly, like it was delicate and needed to be spoken with great care.

"Edward don't leave me." I whispered.

"Bella I need to talk to you." I could live with that. It meant he would be with me longer. He made me feel better. When he was with me I couldn't feel all the pain that James left me with. James! Where was he? What had happened after I blanked out.

"Yes you can talk to me." I said as Edward was stating to get nervous by my silence.

"Ok." He sighed. "I need to tell you the truth. The whole truth." I nodded and he seemed to be mentally preparing himself for something.

"I knew James from before." I started to say something but he cut me off.

"Don't say anything, just let me finish. James was my drug dealer. Tanya introduced me to him and I've been working for him ever since. I broke up with you to try and protect you. I've seen him kill people Bella! I didn't want you to be one of them."

Tears were pouring down my face now. Cascading down my cheeks and onto the thin white hospital blanket.

"Bella, please forgive me. I didn't know he was coming to our school. I'm so sorry Bella!" I tried to talk but no words came out. He was sitting there waiting, like a dog about to be kicked, and I didn't want to be the one that had to kick him.

"Edward." I managed to get out. His eyes with filled to the brim with tears as he looked up at me. "I know you thought you were doing the right thing by breaking up with me, but you still hurt me and I wish you had told me what was going on."

"I know I wish I had too Bella."

"I know you are sorry but how can I trust you anymore? How will I know you will never leave me?"

"I won't Bella. I will never leave you."

"You said that last time." I glared at him and he looked taken aback.

"I saved you from James." He whispered.

"Yes you did and I will forever be grateful that you did, but that doesn't mean you are instantly forgiven. What did you think was going to happen? I would immediately jump onto your lap and we would run off together into the sunset."

"Bells-" he started but I cut him off.

"Don't you Bells me! I've never been like other girls! I loved you for you and not your body. I loved the way you would look at me like I was the only girl in the world. But when you dumped me I lost everything. I missed having someone care about me. I felt like I was all alone. It felt like you had taken part of my soul with me when you left. James made me feel whole again. He made me feel special again. But then he hit me and he was just like you. Taking my heart and breaking it."

'I would never hit you Bella" he said softly.

"How am I supposed to trust anyone anymore when everyone I've ever loved has ended up hurting me?"

"Please Bella, give me one more chance!"

I looked into his deep green eyes and I wanted so badly to say yes to him. I had what I wanted, the reason he left, but it had come to late. When you love someone you let them into your heart. You open up all of your walls to them until they know everything about you. But when he left me in the pouring rain that day, something broke inside me. What are you supposed to do when everything you've been hiding inside you is taken from you? What are you supposed to do when you have nothing left to give? And what are you supposed to do when everything is taken away again? How can you ever forgive?

I looked over at him and wished that I could say something else, anything else, because I still cared about him and couldn't stand him being hurt. Because no matter what he had taken from me, he had also given a little in return.

"I'm sorry Edward, it's too late."

Wow I'm depressed now, I think I'll have some pizza, that makes people happy : ) Anyhoo I hope you like the story and PLEASE REVIEW OR NO MORE CHAPTERS FOR YOU!