That night was rough. It hurt me to see her that way.
It made me realize that love cuts us deeply and leaves scars.
I decide that my plans for Batman are useless. I think just severing the ties is good enough. There is too much pain in the world. I need to fill it now with joy if I can.
I miss him. I love him but I know I can survive without him. Harley has shown me that. It will be a long road but I will get there.
Eventually,perhaps I will not be able to recall his face. I only have one picture of us together and do not dare pull it out. Time makes us forget. Or at least I hoped it would. I was not his wife. I was barely even his girlfriend. He can do as he pleases now and I can do my own thing. I plan on being a mom. It gives me a new outlook on life.
I can be a better mother to this child than what I had. I can stick around and nurture . It is time to give up my petty wants for real issues. I will have a family. Instead of one mom and dad it will have one mom and two aunts. This kid will be smothered with attention.
I think of Bruce and how I thought we were soul-mates. I thought he was a gift from heaven and perhaps in a way he still is. We created life together. He gave me my child. I never thought of ever being a mom and now I cannot wait.
I hope the baby takes after him in some ways. Yes. It is hard to think of the good sides of people after a break up. I miss his humor. I miss his brains. The best conversations in my life are now gone. I felt such a connection. I felt so myself. It had felt so real. It was wonderful for a moment in time.
Perhaps one day he will miss me enough. Perhaps one day he will decide I was the one. Perhaps.
I snap out of my day dream to two faces smiling at me waving there hands."Whoo-hoo" and "heeeelo?" "You okay?"
"Couldn't be better!" I say and run into their open arms and hold them tightly.
Love has many forms I realize holding them in my arms. You don't have to be in a romantic relationship to feel it, to give it, to receive it. Love is endless, love is pure and to me love feels so very warm. I no longer feel empty and lost. I feel for once the love of family. It is a deep and powerful feeling that I have never known until now. I am lucky to have such wonderful friends . Most never realize what they have. I don't plan on taking this for granted.
My life has now gone full circle. Love lost, love gained. Wisdom in place of regret.
Time is too short for regrets.
I now look back and think I wouldn't change a thing.
The End By Heaven O. Waits
Continuation story coming soon.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Our hug ends abruptly to the sound of he door buzzer ringing below. I run inside the elevator and slamming the metal accordion door fish-eye peep hole made out a black jacket.
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