Preface

He was talking. Talking about leaving. He was leaving, and never coming back. Ever. What? How could he do this to me? She argued with him. He just cannot do this, not to me. Why would he do this? She tried to argue with him, make him see that he had to stay. But she couldn't speak; the words refused to come out of her mouth. She blinked--then he was gone.

She tried to run after him, but her legs wouldn't move! Why wouldn't they move? She reached out for him. Come back, she thought. Please don't leave me.

Her silent pleas went unheard.

Chapter One

Wedding

She awoke with a gasp. Then she flung herself out of bed and into the bathroom. Bella held her weight with her hands flat on the counter as she gazed at her reflection. She didn't recognize the girl in the mirror. She had brown hair, brown eyes, her face, but she wasn't Bella.

I guess I haven't really been myself since he left me, she mused silently.

She meant, the biggest change was that she was a mother after he left her. Yes, three days before he left, we made love. Who knew that he could impregnate her?

Another one of her issues was that Jacob could imprint at any second -leaving her all alone. But he has been a werewolf since he was sixteen-he's eighteen now- and he hasn't imprinted- Yet. She gulped. Yet.

"What is it, Bells?" her love asked. He was sitting up, reading the newspaper. He's turned into such an old man.

"I had that dream again, Jake. Do you know how much I hate that leech?" she had taken to using the werewolf slang for the vampires… mainly the Cullens. It's easier that way. Easier to pretend that I hate them than to deal with the pain. Jacob laughed. "Hey, if you hang around werewolves…" she giggled.

Then he leaned over and kissed her. It had been gentle, but she felt the heat and passion radiate from Jacob. He put his hand on the small of her back to pull her closer.

"Jake…" she mumbled onto his lips.

He pulled back and grinned the grin she called her grin. Jacob has three grins. There is the one he had when he was completely human; full of humor and love is in his eyes- and this grin is mine. The second one was Sam's grin; bitter and no humor at all. She doesn't like that grin. Then, there was the mixed one, bitter but cute, all the same. This grin she absolutely detested.

"Hey, I'm still a kid," he said.

"You're eighteen and you're engaged! You can't act like a kid for much longer!" she retorted. Truth being, he was a very good father to her kids. Hell, they were our kids, not just mine.

She hopped in the shower, and having nothing better to think about, her mind wandered to Jake's proposal.

We were down in La Push, riding our motorcycles, covered in mud. We went to Billy's for a supper of spaghetti. She sat down and Jacob brought her plate out. We had just sat down when she took a bite, and bit down on something hard.

She pulled out the object and almost fainted.

"Bells, stand up." she stood up dumbly. Her heart was racing in what seemed like her stomach. "Now, turn around." she turned around, and gasped. Jake was on one knee, and his head came to her chest. Stupid werewolves with their being so tall. He took the ring from her hand, and held it up. "Bella Swan, will you marry me?"

She nearly fainted when he asked that, but her response had been, "Do you have to ask?" He wiped the sauce off the ring and slipped it on her finger. It was bigger than her hand.

"It was my mother's," Jake explained. "I'll get it fitted. But until then…" He pulled out a silver chain; put the ring on the chain, the put the "necklace" on her.

"It's beautiful, Jake. I love it. Just like I love you." Jake and she never "dated" per se, but everyone knew that we were inseparable. When she said that I loved him his eyes shined, and everyone drew a collective gasp. That was the first time she had said that.

"I love you, too, Bells," he whispered in her ear when he wrapped her in his arms. She was still in hidden in his arms- the boy was tree times her size- when he whispered, "So, baby, when to I get to change your name?"

"Do you, Bella Swan, take Jacob Black, to be your lawfully wedded husband?"

"I do," I promised. Jake loved me. He was all mine.

"I do," He promised. Had she missed his vows? The whole world went black.

She was sitting in the Cullen's living room. Alice, Edward, and Esme were in front of her.

"Bella, love, please wake up." Edward called. Hmm, usually when she have dreams, his voice doesn't sound this…realistic. A searing pain rippled through her chest. She wanted to reassure Edward, tell him she was Okay. I love you, she would say. But her mouth wouldn't move.

"Bella!" Alice's mouth moved, but Jacob's voice came out. Her eyes fluttered open. "Thank goodness."

"Bella, do you take Jacob Black to be your lawfully wedded husband?" The preacher continued, after everyone was assured that she wasn't going to black out again.

We left La Push around mid night, and headed to this town called McPherson, Kansas. Then we headed to this town called Arlington, which was smaller than Forks. Hmm. After that, we went to Kansas City.

Three weeks later, we were fully moved into a three-story house in La Push. "We need a stupid map to get around, Jake." she complained.

"Well," Jake replied when she had complained about the size, "you can never have too much space." Yikes. Did he want thirty kids? Dang, we had six bedrooms and bathrooms, and a kitchen meant for a restaurant.

Two months later, she woke to an empty bed. She was dazed and confused. Oh, that's right. I'm married to Jake. She had that dream again. She has been for a few weeks now. A pain ripped through her stomach, and she ran to the bathroom nearest to our room and threw up.

She groaned. Ugh. Where was Jake? Oh, yeah. Stupid vampires were coming here. He was out with his pack. He accepted his title as "Alpha" and was in charge. She was looking through the medicine cabinet for Pepto, but found tampons. "Uh-oh." she did the math again. She missed her period by four weeks.

She walked outside. "Jake! Come back home!" she heard his howl and knew he was coming home.

"What is it Bells?" He ran up to her, and saw her expression, He became concerned.

"I'm pregnant."

He smiled. "That's wonderful, Bells!" He picked her up and twirled her.

"Not the smartest idea, Jake," said Bella, her face tingeing green.

Jake set her down. "Right."

Bella smiled a small smile. "I love you, Jacob Black."

"I love you, too, Bella Black."

Today was Jake's and Bella's nine month, four week anniversary. Otherwise known as their daughter's birthday. Seven pounds, six ounces, and 20 inches long. Jake loved his baby girl. She fit perfectly in his arms. She had her mother's eyes and his nose, and, thank goodness, Jake's color.

Bella was resting peacefully after 13 hours of labor. They finally gave her a stupid C-section. Poor Bella. The baby's name was Alice Mary Esme. Bella wouldn't have it any other way. I thought she hated them? She is sooooo complicated, and very stubborn. Jake sighed. Why do I love her so much? He thought to himself. Bella stirred. "Hand me…Alice," she whispered. Jake gave Alice to Bella. She sighed and tucked Alice into her arms and fell asleep. Jake chuckled.

Bella didn't look like she was getting up any time soon, so he went for a walk in the halls of the hospital. He was walking because there was no way he was going to be able to rest. Jake was the pack leader now. Sam was hurt in a battle and he gave in to his true self. He was supposed to be the leader, but had denied the truth as long as possible, but he couldn't avoid the fact the pack needed a leader. Me. He sighed, this time, in defeat. The pack just had another wolf join. Leah, Sam's ex. He looked up and saw the most beautiful women in the world. This… it's Leah. Oh. My. God. He have seen Leah so many times, but now he has seen her. "Leah?"

It had been two years, ten months, and two weeks since he left my reason of being back in Forks, Washington. For the longest time, he was empty, and for a long time he actually believed himself to be soulless. He was distracted for long periods of time. He hasn't hunted since the day he left Bella. His eyes are pitch black, no trace of humor left. H hasn't laughed, smiled, or loved since that day. Carlisle guards his thoughts. Esme suffers with him. Emmet and Jasper stopped talking to him. Rosalie used to tease him, then Emmett left Rosalie thinking he was dead, so now she is the only one that knows how I feel. Alice still sees little bits and pieces of Bella, but she never tells me.

Today would have been the anniversary if Bella and he were dating. Three years, he sighed.

He gently stroked the keys of the piano that he had been sitting at for the past month, not moving, not breathing. He had started playing the nameless song dedicated to the love between Carlisle and Esme. He knew the song well enough, he didn't have to pay attention. Pretty soon, he felt a presence besides him. He looked over. Bella. He took a sharp breath in. big mistake. The hole in my chest ripped wide open. He smelled her scent. His throat burned. He was playing her song. If his heart had been beating, it would have been hammering in his chest. "Bella, love? What are you doing here?"

"You..don't…want..me?" she asked. Suddenly they were in the woods, by Charlie's. He watched himself leaving her, over and over….again and again….his heart in her hands…forever. He sobbed tearlessly, silently, on the inside. Bella was next to him again suddenly. We were on the piano bench. "Where you are is best for me," she replied. Then she was gone. Now I have to follow her. I'm going to follow my heart.

Alice came flying to the piano. "You're going to see Bella? Oh, please, can I come? Please, Edward?"

"Well, of course," Then he added softly, "She might not kill you."

After ten minutes, the pair were on the road, going to Edward's angel. Alice was bouncing in her seat. "Relax, Alice," he said.

"I'm not the only one excited to see Bella, Edward. Personally, I think this trip is two years, nine months, and three weeks over due," She stated.

"Of course," I sighed.

She was then quiet.

I love her too, She thought.

Edward just stared out the window.

It had been two weeks since Bella moved out of Jacob's house, and back to Charlie's. Well, her place now. He was promoted, and moved to L.A. Bell was left with the house. She was still in my room, not having the heart to move into Charlie's old room. She was rocking Alice in her room. Finally. She was sleeping now. Bella put Alice in her bassinet. Then she heard someone knock at the door. Alice Fussed, Bella picked her up and cooed to her, then walked downstairs. She walked to the door and looked through the peephole. When she saw who it was I she almost fainted.

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