Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans.

It had been a few weeks since I was called to Tamaran to help with this cruel war. Less people were dying and the battles were moving towards the blockade. I knew that once the battle was in the atmosphere, there would be a mass number of deaths again. I cried every night because of the poor people dying to protect the planet and I had been under a lot of stress. Is this what Robin felt like? I hoped not. My friends had been contacting me every week. They sent videos to me with the use of my old laptop. I would watch them, but I never had time to reply. I also did not want them to see me under this stress. I was becoming almost a new person. I did not cry when I saw dead bodies falling from the sky anymore. This was a daily event now. However, at night, I was like myself again.

"Starfire, I have some horrible news." Blackfire stated. I did not want any bad news at the moment; however, I had to know what was going on.

"Yes, Blackfire?" I asked.

"Tamaran is losing again. Some of the battles are not in the sky anymore. They're descending." No. This could not be correct! We had been making a slow progress and now it was quickly making a downfall. I knew there would be angry people. It was my entire fault that this was happening. I needed comfort. I needed someone to tell me it was okay and take this burden off of my shoulders. I wanted to go back home and see my friends and not worry about this ordeal. "The General wants to talk to you."

"Tell him I am taking a break." I said.

"Starfire, you can't just take a break! He needs to talk to you now." Blackfire said. Now? Why was everything now? I needed a five minute break at the most. But of course, I always do the right thing.

"Bring him in." I sighed. The General and I talked for a bit about how many people were going down. He proposed a plan to get the battle to the atmosphere first. He suggested using the most deadly weapons. I knew that these weapons would also wipe out the people using them, so there was no gain. I told him to split the army. I told him one should gain the upper hand and the other half should be defending the planet. He told me that this would be a horrible idea because the Psions are too powerful. I told him to do what he thought what was best. After all, my ideas were not very good.

After six months of being under so much stress, I decided to finally take that break. No one was supportive of this though. I had to take this break for a day. I really needed one so badly. Some nights, I got little to no sleep. I had to take a break. I just had to. I left Blackfire in charge for a day. She did not particularly agree to it, but who was to defy the Empress? Not even the princess did. I ran to my bedroom. I could not fly because I never felt joy anymore. I was beginning to lose hope as I saw three bodies falling from the sky in the distance from my window. I quickly shut the curtains. I could not stand this war at all. It was really getting to me. I needed my friends. I missed them so much. Tears fell from my eyes as I looked at the picture in the locket that I wore around my neck every day. I almost opened Raven's letter, but I decided one day I would need it even more than today. I put it back in my drawer. I decided to use the computer to contact my friends. I saw that they were actually online! I guessed my luck was finally returning! I started a video chat with my friends. I just had to wait for…there it was! Someone clicked the accept button!

"Starfire!" It was Raven! I burst into tears when I saw her. I saw the look of hope on her face. I did not want to sadden her, but I could not tell any lies if she asked me any questions.

"How are you?" She asked. I was horrible. I was scared and I was stressed. I felt as if I was alone.

"Wonderful! Everything is fine." I lied. I knew Raven could see right through me. Her smile turned into a frown.

"Tell me what's going on." I told her everything, from the moment I was in charge to my mental breakdown.

"I do not think I can do this anymore."

"Yes you can, Star. But let's not talk about this."

"Agreed. How have you been?"

"I have been well. Beast Boy grew three inches in the past six months! I think he has a chance of being taller than some girls." I laughed at that. Beast Boy has always been quite small for his age.

"I miss you so much!" I said.

"I miss you too, Starfire. Honestly, I didn't think you had that much effect on everyone. We all kind of…changed." I gasped! Raven did not seem any different, nor was she?

"You do not seem different." I examined.

"I try to stay the same. But there's no one here to talk to, you know, that's a girl."

"I did not know you liked our late night talks." I said.

"I do. I didn't realize how much I did until now. Sorry I wasn't a better friend." Raven looked down.

"Raven, you are not a horrible friend. You are a great friend, and never think that you are not again. I have too much to worry about right now." I said. I thought it sounded rude, but Raven did not think so.

"Have you opened the letter yet?" She asked.

"No I have not." I told her. She nodded.

"Just remember, whenever you need a confidence booster or if you think everything is against you or something, you read it then." I nodded to show her that I understood what she had said. Raven then changed the subject and began to tell me that she tried dating a boy named Kevin, but it did not work out. I felt bad for her because every time she sees someone, it does not work out for her.

"Where are the others?" I asked. I was eager to see Beast Boy, Cyborg, and Robin. Robin. The love I had for him was so strong and pure. I had never loved anyone as much as I love him. I wonder if he was waiting for me to get back. Or did he move on? Part of me wanted him to move on just in case something happens or I never return. However, another part of me wanted him to be waiting for me even if it took years. But I knew that would be unfair to Robin. He deserves to have a life even if it is not with me.

"I don't know how to tell you this Star, but Cyborg…he left a month ago. We…we don't know where he is." Raven broke the news to me slowly.

"Please tell me Robin and Beast Boy are still there." I cried.

"They are. But you may not like what you see when you talk to Robin." Raven warned. She went to get Beast Boy. What was wrong with Robin? Why did Raven say this to me? I pondered this until I saw Beast Boy come into view. He had a big smile on his face. I could tell he has not smiled in a while.

"Star! How are you? You coming home soon? Did you win?" He threw the questions at me without taking a breath. I decided to answer.

"I am okay, but I am stressed. No, I do not think so and not yet." I said with my head down.

"Oh. Well, you're gonna win you know why?"

"Why?" I asked.

"Because you're Starfire and you're a Titan and Titans always win; even if they are billions of miles apart." He said. I laughed as he stood up on the chair. He then got down and started to talk seriously. "Things are pretty bad, huh?" I was surprised at his seriousness. This was not like him at all.

"Yes they are. I am truly trying my hardest, but it does not seem like it is enough." I ran my hand through my hair.

"You'll get through this. When you get back, things will go back to normal." I hoped he was right. I could not stand being so far away from my home. It hurt me to know that I was most likely the reason why Cyborg left and everyone was different.

"I know I will." I lied. I knew that one day, I would be needed to go fight in battle and be in charge of a whole army while in battle. This thought scared me. "Why did Cyborg leave?" I asked, dreading the answer.

"Things change." He stated simply. What changed? What kind of things? He began to speak again. "Cyborg felt that the Titans would split up. He didn't want to be the last one remaining." I knew that if I did not leave, he would still be there and I would still be there. It would be back to normal, but it never will be. Not ever again.

"I am sorry I caused this." I said. I could not bear this situation. I want to go back! "How have you been?" I asked after an uncomfortable silence.

"Not too good. I'm bored all the time."

"Why is that?"

"Cyborg's not there to hang out with, Robin ignores everyone, and Raven never really did anything with me anyway." He shrugged. I wanted to cry. I wanted everything to be back to normal. I have been mentioning that quite a bit.

"I am sorry."

"No, it's not your fault. You'll come home soon. I know you will."

"Maybe you are correct." I knew that he was not. At the rate this war was going, I probably would never return to Earth. We talked for a bit, and the Beast Boy went to get Robin. I could not wait to see him! I sat there for about five minutes. I heard yelling from the other room. I heard Raven and Beast Boy telling Robin to come talk to me.

"No!" I heard him yell. This brought tears to my eyes. Why wouldn't he want to see me? My question was about to be answered. "Why Raven? Why? You wanna know why? It's because it's too painful! If I look at her now, even talk to her, it'll be even more painful when we hear the news that she's dead, that's why!" I was not going to die! Maybe I was? Who knew? I just wanted to talk to Robin. That is all I wanted.

"Robin!" I yelled into the computer. He stepped into the room and saw my face on the screen. I saw his painful expression as he saw me. "Please, just…please talk to me." I begged as a tear rolled down my cheek. "I will come back someday."

"I'm not so sure about that." He began to break down right in front of me. I had never seen him truly cry like this. I cried along with him. I reached out to the computer, hoping to feel his soft, warm skin on his face. I only felt a cold computer screen. "Look at this. Look at what this has done to me."

"You were not nearly this upset when I left." It was true. He was stronger than I was. Was he really though? After this, I had begun to question if he was emotionally strong as he was physically.

"I was. I just didn't show it."

"I love you." I said. I was expecting a reply. There was none. The screen went blank. He was no longer there. The one person who I needed to be strong was not there for me. I clutched my chest. I could feel my heart breaking in two. It was slowly ripping apart. I clung to my pillow and cried into it. I heard my door open. I knew it was Blackfire by the comforting hand on my back. It reminded me of my mother's touch. I remember when I was a mere child, I would cry every time she had to leave with my father. I would cry into my pillow and she would come in the room and slowly rub my back until I calmed myself down. This is what Blackfire was doing to me.

"I heard." She whispered. I sat up and cried even more. I did not know that not hearing the simple four word response would be so heartbreaking.

"I just want to go home. But I know I cannot." I said.

"I know you do. Come on. Let's go back. You have work to do." Blackfire said. I stood up and followed her out of my bedroom. I had to stop thinking about my friends. They were affecting my performance for my job. I knew it was a horrible thought as I ran back to my room and tucked the locket away in my drawer.

Here's chapter 2! I know it's really short. Sorry about that XD