Title: Too Affectionate

Rating: K+ (The word "hell" is mentioned but that's it)

Pairing: Hisagi Shuuhei x Kira Izuru

Preview: He was always the affectionate kind of person but he was afraid he'd chase him off if he ever did anything

Warnings/Personal Thoughts: No warnings really, except beware the FLUFF… although it's probably not really that fluffy anyways…

Prompt: 035. Hold My Hand

It was so difficult to not reach over and just grab his hand.

Although they had been dating for a while now, Shuuhei was unsure if physical contact was something that Izuru would accept or want for that matter. It took a lot of will power to not be too affectionate with him, even though he wanted to smother him with kisses right now. The way the blonde's hand swung slightly and how it was loosely there felt like Izuru was just begging for Shuuhei to hold it. Hell, maybe later he could try but not in broad day light because that would make Izuru too uncomfortable. Actually he couldn't do it later either, all they've ever done was feather light kisses. How could he even think of taking it farther then that?

He couldn't help the fact he was an affectionate boyfriend, he knew that to care for someone you didn't have to be like that but… he just liked to. Maybe he just liked the feel of someone close, maybe a trait that hadn't disappeared since his days of snuggling close to kids in Rukongai for warmth. It was hard to survive and he had to stick close to other kids or he'd be left behind and he'd freeze to death. Well, it's different now but a part of him wanted to show affection, wanted to do more then light kisses. Wanted to hug and cradle him, wanted Izuru to do the same to him.

Maybe it was supposed to remain a dream for he loved Izuru more then he craved those touches, that warmth. It was worth it, he told himself, to wait… or to go without it if he had to. He had to admit, he didn't want to tell Izuru for the fact that Izuru may not like those relationships, even if he had ended up with a girl. What if Izuru decided that affection was something he hated and left him so that Shuuhei could be with someone who could offer him that. It was that thought that made Shuuhei hide his thoughts and restrain himself each time they were close or they kissed.

He waited, he was extremely patient anyways. Not to mention Izuru had to be one of the best things he has ever waited for. The times he got him to smile made his heart flutter, made him feel unreal. It tingled everything in his body and he reveled in it, although he got a similar feel by just being around him. However when ever Izuru seemed pleased with his actions or lack of actions he got a jolt of pleasure from it. It was just simply amazing to be with him. It made him feel whole, a feeling he knew he couldn't receive from anyone else. Izuru was his world.

"Shuuhei-kun?" Izuru's shy voice came out, puzzled.

"Uh… gomen na Izuru got caught up in my own thoughts again."

He gave him a smile and Izuru shyly smiled back, Izuru's eyes shifted down a fraction before continuing his walk down the street. That was when Shuuhei looked down and noticed that he had subconsciously entangled his fingers with Izuru's. Shuuhei, before he could think, pulled his hand away in surprise. The sudden jolt away had Izuru's head whirl to face him and he stoped walking. Shuuhei didn't know what to do, when did he-? What was he supposed to do now?

"Go-gomen na Izuru, I-I don't know what came over me."

Izuru tilted his head to his side, almost revealing his left eye before straightened again and speaking "What do you mean?"

"I… well… our hands."

Izuru seemed to think for a moment and Shuuhei had wondered if he just said something wrong. Should he have not pointed that out? What if Izuru hadn't realized until he had opened his big mouth and pointed it out? What was Izuru going to think now? What was he supposed to do now? Although with all his raging questions, that seemed to lead in a circle through his head, his body language reminded calm on the outside. Shuuhei wanted to groan when he saw the realization in Izuru's eyes as he realized what Shuuhei was freaking out over. Izuru opened his mouth to speak.

"It's fine you know."

Izuru slid his fingers back within Shuuhei's.

"I was wondering why you didn't make the move when we first got together."

"…Nani?"

Shuuhei stared confused as he got one of Izuru's rare chuckles. "I always saw it in your eyes Shuuhei-kun. I just thought that you weren't ready to open up to me that quickly."

Izuru's eyes had widen slightly in his surprise when Shuuhei had just kissed him in public. Full mouth to mouth, even tugging Izuru's chin closer to try and make it deeper, Shuuhei didn't even know he could get that aggressive. He had waited so long to passionately kiss him and Izuru knew! He wasn't frightened of it, he just didn't want to make the first move. It felt so nice to have a deep kiss, especially since Izuru had responded instantly, despite his surprise, and he didn't seem that embarrassed that it was in the public either. Shuuhei pulled away, rather reluctantly mind you, and just couldn't stop the grin from spreading across his face at the smile Izuru had.

"I have no reason not to open up to you, I love you."

A/N: I don't know, I thought it was cute and fluffy. I can really see Shuuhei being a very affectionate boyfriend, despite how he looks XD

Translations:

Rukongai = The place in Soul Society located on the outer edge of Seireitei, the 80 districts located north, east, south, west.
Gomen na = I'm sorry (male speaking)
Nani = What