It supposed to be onepart but I decided to write one more chapter. This one is from Bones POV. And I really don't know if they will be another chapter, I'm still thinking about it.
Please let me know what you think about this one :)
I found you broken on the ground
From your mouth a bitter sound
That became sweeter as I approached
You in your deepest agony
The first time we met I didn't let you come near me. Didn't let you come closer to me. I didn't trust people, especially one too cocky FBI special agent, who you were these days. For me, you seemed to be too confident and stupid. You flirted with every other woman in sight. You used your charm smile on them. You could get whatever you wanted with that smile, you still can. But you used it too much. Then we were arguing a lot about everything. You loved to tease me to point that I became annoyed and irritated with you. You knew how to piss me off. But you absolutely had no idea how much your words were hurting me. I never show that, the life taught me how to hide my emotions. Only at night, when no one could see me, lonely tear were falling down my face.
I put you up and raised you well
And more than stories ever tell
I fell in love with you those days
And hoped that you would too
And very often I didn't understand what you were talking about. The pop culture was a stranger to me. I used to tell you "I don't know what that means". And you used to explain this all to me. But I remember once you said, we're like Scully and Mulder. I didn't know what that mean so I googled it. And I liked what that was, but I didn't tell you this. I didn't believe in it. I never had a friend like that and I didn't believe that I ever would have. I couldn't joke, no one laughed at my jokes. So the bones was the only thing, which I perfectly understand. It's only needed facts. And people could never understand what I was telling to them. They didn't understand scientific language. But you were were slowly explaining this all to me. You watched films with me, corrected me when I was wrong. You encouraged me when I did right. You taught me how I should be talking with people, how I could make them understand me. I was like a child who is learning the life. I was learning slowly and still I am learning. But you were patient, you still are. Slowly, you were helping me with everything I didn't understand. I stopped to see you as a stupid alpha male. You became something more. Then you became my partner and my friend. I stopped telling you "Don't call me Bones." I used to. I realized that it is only our. Personally, I was trying to stop being only doctor Brennan. I was learning everything, I was trying to start a new life, life as Bones.
When you weren't around I missed you. I missed your smiles, your jokes, your hand on the small of my back... I never believed in love, but that changed then. I fell in love with you. But you drew the line, line we weren't supposed to cross. Without a words I agreed with you. I was afraid, afraid of our friendship, of everything which we built. But mostly, I was afraid that you weren't feeling the same way, afraid of reject. Afraid that I would be alone once again. So I could only dream.
The more you've learned and grown
The less you cared for me
But I was too blinded by my feelings
To see the dawning agony
As soon as you could fly again
Into the open sky
You left me without any reason
Back on this world to die
The time passed by and I started to go out more with Angela. Sometimes with you too. Only few months ago, the men flirted with me and after 5 minutes they run away. Unless, they were so horny that they didn't notice my words. But they aren't bored anymore. You taught me that. You showed me how I should talk with them and I was doing what you told me to. And then he appeared - Mark. I started to spend less time with you, more with him. Truth to be told, he wasn't You. But he was someone with I could have sex. But I am still believing that you are the only man who can show me what 'making love' means.
Then one day you knocked at my door. And my heart fell on the floor. I was naked so Mark opened the door. I grabbed the first thing I found and wore it. I didn't even notice that was his shirt. I walked out from my bedroom and saw the look on your face. It was full of sadness, grief and jealousy. I could noticed that, but only on your face. I perfectly know your facial expressions. You told me we had a case and we're supposed to met at your car in 5 minutes.
But I am afraid of coming down. I - Temprance Brennan, who never showed any emotions - officially state that I am affraid of coming down and stay face to face with you.
I am afraid of what can You say, afraid of what I can say. But the most I am afraid that you will do nothing. That you will start to pretend that nothing had happened and nothing will change. That you will pretend that everything is OK. But we both know it isn't and can never be.