In The End
Chapter 11: Explanations
"Please just listen to what I have to say Kaiba; it's still your decision to make in the end."
Kaiba wheeled back to the position he had been in before, by the window.
"I will listen but I am not making any promises." He said firmly.
Serenity sighed in relief, she was happy that he was not angry at her. Now that she had the opportunity to finally talk to him about the operation she could not think of how to start or what exactly was the right thing to say. She got up off of the couch and lightly padded over to a random bookcase, studying its contents.
"Kaiba I..."
She cleared her throat; a little scared... the last thing she wanted to do was make him angry. She knew now that she definitely wanted him in her life; she did not want him to be taken away from her.
"Why won't you consider the operation?" She asked finally. She could hear Kaiba sigh.
"I've been through so many operations, every time it has been a failure. Every time I am disappointed, but most of all I have to bear witness to Mokuba's face when I inform him that the operation was unsuccessful. I do not want to do it anymore."
Serenity felt her stomach turn... Kaiba was so protective of Mokuba.
"I'm sure Mokuba understands though and most of all I am sure he does not want you to give up..."
"What is the point?" Kaiba almost shouted.
"The point is that there is always chances in life and you have to take them, otherwise you will always be left wandering what if."
"I'm tired of what ifs."
Serenity pulled up a chair beside him at the window and then sat down.
"How about this..." Serenity searched for his eyes and then held them. "Go get the operation done..." She could see Kaiba was about to protest, but she stopped him by lightly placing her hand on his arm, "and go into it with no expectations and no hope." Serenity continued. "That way you won't be disappointed if it does not turn out the way you want it to." She tightened her grip on his arm a little bit more. "Also, do not tell Mokuba, I know you want the best for him and Kaiba..." She stopped unsure if she should say what she wanted to.
"Yes?" He was holding her gaze steadily; she could not back out now. She cleared her throat lightly, breaking their eye contact by looking down while she talked.
"I will hope for you because I know you are strong."
"Look at me." He whispered. She slowly lifted her gave and he brought his fingertips up to her face, lightly grazing her cheek, cause her to close her eyes.
He pulled away before she could comprehend what had happened.
"I will think about it, I can only promise you that. In return though, I do not want to discuss this again."
"That is fine by me." Serenity smiled warmly, believing what he had said because she knew he meant it.
A little while later, Serenity left feeling content that her relationship with Kaiba had only strengthened. She left him in his study and made her own way out.
Kaiba stared at his phone, before finally picking it up and dialing his doctor's number. It rang twice before it was answered by his secretary.
"Put me through, it's Kaiba here."
"One moment please." Shortly after, he heard his doctor's voice.
"Yes Kaiba, what can I do for you?"
"I want to come in for the operation." He heard his doctor gasp.
"I knew you could do it, I'll prepare for it immediately and you can come in tomorrow."
"Sure thing."
"I'll see you then." The doctor's voice was cheery and Kaiba couldn't help but smirk.
"One more thing though." Kaiba quickly said before the conversation ended.
"Yes?"
"I don't want anyone knowing about this." He could hear the doctor pause.
"I understand." The conversation was then ended.
He not only was going to keep this from Mokuba, but also, from Serenity. He hated showing weakness and he wasn't about to start now. He had already let so much slip, all because of her.