Avoiding the unavoidable

The first words out of my mouth were "I'm sorry".

"Sorry…. for….what??" he tried to say between winces.

I couldn't help it I had to leave I couldn't watch him suffer.

I drifted out of the room away from his confusion and hurt voice " wait……don't go"

I was pathetic but at lest I knew he was still alive and by tomorrow afternoon he would be up and walking around. I'd have to avoid him he probably wouldn't come looking for me, why would he want to see me??

He'll realize to quickly that I'm no angel, I'm a monster…

The next day was so nerve wracking Alice had to ask me five times if I'd go shopping with her before I actually acknowledged what she was asking me. When I finally realized she was talking to me, I almost screamed no until a great idea popped into my head shopping was my escape from him at lest for today.

Alice could spend hours dressing anyone up like a doll.

"Sure I'd love to go shopping"

At first she gave me a weary look but shopping is to much of an excitement for her so two seconds later she was bouncing up and down telling me how we were going to have so much fun.

Shopping was a bore I couldn't concentrate on anything that would have looked great on me, my mind kept drifting back to Emmett. Alice soon got the drift though and asked me if I wanted to leave.

So in a quick glitch of fear I plastered on a fake smile and tried my hardest to pay attention to what I was trying on.

Amazingly for periods of about five minutes I'd get into it.

I was no Alice at shopping but I did love buying myself cute outfits. It only lasted a short period, I'd be loving an outfit and running to show Alice when I'd remember why I was here in the first place.

Then I'd just stand there stunned until Alice found me and told me she was tired of shopping and that we practically looked through the whole mall, so we better be heading home. I knew she was just saying this for my sake but I was tired of pretending to have a good time.

I just had to hope I wouldn't run in to him at home.

The ride home was tense even Alice must have been concerned because she keep trying to comfort me.

"You really shouldn't worry yourself he really likes you a lot and he hasn't even officially meet you yet" she said this really quietly like she was trying not to scare me.

"Why do you two keep saying that" I pretty much screamed at her.

She gave me a look of pure sorrow.

I quickly apologized " I'm sorry Alice, it's just how can he be so forgiving " my sentence fluttered to a quiet whisper as the pain of thinking of him took over.

" You'll face him soon enough you know he's pretty bent out on finding you and well ….thanking you" she spoke so fast,

if I wasn't a vampire I wouldn't have understood what she said all came out as Youllfacehimsoonenoughyou knowhesprettybentoutonfindingyouandwell ….thanking you"

Confusion must have shown plain on my face because in a gentle voice she said "he doesn't blame you for anything Rose, I don't know why Edward and I have to keep telling you this,…. it doesn't matter anyways he'll tell you himself soon enough".

This sent me into a frenzy as we pulled into our driveway "what do you mean by soon enough Alice!! Did you see my future?? With him!!"

All she gave me for an answer was a small smile of guilt and a quick " I better get these bags inside".

Before I could grab her, I heard a small tap on my window that made my blood stop cold, I slowly turned towards my window to see Emmett smiling at me.

I couldn't speak I just gawked at him while he asked " Hey need some help with your bags??".

All I could do was nod and squeeze out a squeaky "thanks that would be great".

I didn't get it he was a perfect gentlemen he wouldn't let me carry one thing.

He quickly assured me when I asked that he owed me one.

This made me even more confused so confused that I spoke calmly

" Owe you one?? How could you owe me anything."

This confused him it showed clearly on his face as he replied "you saved my life ….thank you by the way... for saving my life".

This was to much we were by my door now so I grabbed my bags and quickly before shutting the door on his astonished face replied "well thanks again"

I sat on my bed with a sigh of relief, he was to much to handle, not only did he not hate me he seemed nervous when he did talk to me.

What game was he playing??

The creak at the door interrupted my thoughts as Emmett's voice drifted into the room.

"Rose can we talk?"

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