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"Hey Kat it's time to get up," I heard a small voice beside me say. I cracked my eyes open to see Jessica already dresses for school.

I forgot it was Monday … the first day of School … the hell hole I thought that I escaped forever … apparently not.

"I don't wanna go." I said in a very whiny voice that actually surprised me as I rolled away from her with a groan.

All the sudden I felt a surprisingly heavy weight on my back causing me to give a squawk kind of sound.

"GET UP!!!!" she yelled as she jumped up and down on my bed.

"OKAY I'M UP!!!" I yelled but was also laughing at her. With that she was off my bed and out the door. I was starting to think she was like the freaking Energizer Bunny in human form.

I looked at the clock to see that it was 6:23 … I knew that if I went back to bed that Jess would kill me so I decided to get up anyways. I grabbed some clothes from one of the boxes. It was a white tank top, a red long sleeved, and a pair of light blue jeans. I quickly got a shower, got dressed and headed back to my room, on my way I heard my mom leave for her new job. I looked at the clock to see it was 6:49 and I had to get Jess to her class by 7:35 so I had time to get some breakfast. I passed the window and felt myself froze at the sight before.

It was pouring rain outside.

I felt myself shudder as I looked at the rain outside my bedroom window… I HATE rain… it always made me remember the two worst years of my li-

"Caitlynn, it's time for you medicine." I heard an all too familiar voice behind.

I whipped around in shocked to see the man, who made my life a living hell. He stood there in the doorway as if he owned the place. His face that wasn't good looking at all held a look of "I'm disappointed in you". He stood about 5'8 and was stout but he was stronger then he let on. His sleeked back black hair made him look even darker with that spray on tan of his. He looked at me with those pale brown eyes that held no sympathy for anyone but himself, Dr. Adams the bastard.

"You're not real!" I said as I backed away from him I felt myself hit the wall. It now wasn't MY room, it was…that damn room. It was small with plain white walls and a little cot for a bed in the corner. I looked at my clothes to see only the orange robes I hated so much.

"Now Caitlynn, let's not do this the hard way." He said as he pushed a strand of black hair, which fell into his eyes, out of the way. "All you have to do is take you medicine and you'll get all better."

I felt myself fall to the floor and back into an all too familiar corner to try to get away from him.

"No! You can't make me!!! YOU'ER NOT REAL!!!" I yelled at him.

And then he was gone. And all that was left was a very scared looking Jessica, with tears rolling down her face, holding on to a black cat that was bigger than her; he held a look of sadness and anger.

And there was a moment of silence, a single heartbeat passing between us all as tears began to fall from my eyes as I stared at them in shock. A gasp escaped my lips as Jess through herself at me in a hug. I hugged her back with all my might as she was my only line to this reality at the moment. There was pure look of fright in her eyes as she pulled back to look at me.

"I heard a bang and I went to check on you, thinking that you dropped something. And you were on the floor rocking back and forth by the window, just mumbling something over and over again and I was so scared! You won't respond and I didn't know what to do. I kept trying to talking to you but you just ignored me! Shadow told me that you would wake up but I didn't believe him. " She was crying harder now. "I thought I lost you!" as she buried her face in my now wet shirt.

I stared down at her in shock. It was strange to think someone was scared…. for me, that is. That someone might actually need me.

I held her tighter to me and we both cried. I felt something wrap around both of us. I looked to see it was Shadow. He curled around us both. He gave Jessica's face a little lick and did the same for me. I looked down at her and realized that her tears were for something she could never understand. My tears, on the other hand were for a past, I knew that I could never escape.

When are tears finally subsided I looked at the clock to see that the episode lasted for a little more than 20 minutes.

"Are you ok?" I asked her in a quiet voice.

"I should be asking you that. What happened … I mean … it … just I ... don't …" I shook my head at her.

"I'm sorry I worried you. I haven't had a panic attack like in a year." I answered before I thought about it.

'This has happened before? Why?" she demanded. I gave in little cringe.

"My life before this wasn't at all pretty, Jess." I answered as I wiped the access tears from her face. "I have a lot of skeletons in my closet and I'll tell you later I promise but now is not the time. Right now we have to get you all pretty for school." I gave her a watery smile as I got up from the floor and helped her get up too. I pulled her into the bathroom got a washcloth, ran it under cold water and had her press it against her eyes.

I looked for some make up to high light her cute little face. I found some skin tones and light pinks that would really bring out her eyes.

"Mom says that I'm too young for make-up," She said as lowered the towel form her eyes. She still looked a little scared as she looked at me. But I just smiled at her.

"Yeah well it's my make-up and I want you to look pretty on your first day so you have a lot of friends," I had her sit on the toilet. "Now sit and let me do my thing." And when I was done was my master peace.

"Why are you acting like nothing happened?" I felt myself froze. As she looked at me with genuine concern I felt myself tear up again but I quickly pushed the felling down.

"Because right now, acting like it didn't happen, is the only thing that going to help me get through the day, Jess. Right now you make me feel normal." I said as I pushed some of her hair behind her ear.

She got up and hugged me again. "I'll always be here to make you feel normal Kat."

"Thank you Jessica," I said as a hugged her back. "Now we really have to head for school." I gave her another smile and grabbed her hand and led her down stairs and got are things. Got in the car, booked for the Elementary, and made it just in time.

"Mom should be here to pick you pick after school," I said to her as she opened the door of the car. "are you sure you don't want me to go in with you?" I asked her.

"I'll be fine Kat and thank you for the offer," she was about to close the door when she looked at me. "Kat try to have a good day and try to make new friends. I love you!"

I felt my heart stop at thoughts words. "I…I love you too Jess."

She gave me a last smile before she walked towards her school.

As I made my way to my school, I felt a rough tongue against my cheek and looked to see Shadow laying a crossed my shoulders.

"Thank you, Shadow." I said to him with a little smile. "Sometimes I forget you're the only thing that kept me going when I was in the institution from Hell."

I only got silence as my reply. And before I knew it I was at my new school. Forks High School … home of the Spartans … what fun….

As I entered to building I got a lot of strange looks from just about everybody…but that's because I was kind of still feeling twitchy from this morning episode. And I could feel the gaze of Dr. Asshole on the back of my neck so I was acting really nervous.

I knew this was defiantly not going to be a good first day of school…

Sorry short chapter… the next one should be up by the end of the week… maybe if I'm feeling up to it… see how I'm on vacation right now…