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Bella's POV

It seemed like just yesterday Alice and I were playing on the school swing set. We had always been inseparable from day one. I had been living with her since we started college together and she had been a huge help since Kimberly was born.

Kimberly Rose was my sunshine. My beautiful adoration who loved Alice like a mother. Kimberly was now three years old and gorgeous. She had beautiful hazel eyes and a gold toned hair that cascaded in ringlets.

She was wearing a purple organza dress that was a similar imitation of Alice's wedding dress.

Yes, Alice was getting married to Jasper. It was about time. They had been dating since their sophomore year in college.

Rose and I wore long violet dresses that were styled differently by Alice herself. Mine was strapless and Rose's was halter.

We were trying to relax Alice who was a mess of nerves. When the piano started playing, Kimberly was the first to lead, followed by Rose and me. At the end was Alice, accompanied by her father.

We made it to the end of the isle where Alice met Jasper. Throughout the ceremony, Alice and Jasper held hands. They recited their own vows and promised eternal love to each other. Everything was beautiful and magical.

'You may kiss your bride'

Everyone cheered and clapped as the two newly weds kissed and started their way out towards the gardens.

"Congratulations!" I gave them both a hug and wished them the best.

"Auntie Alice." Kimberly tugged on her dress.

"Hey sweetie!" She and Jasper bent down and gave her a hug and a kiss each. "I'm going to miss you." Alice was not going to be living with us any longer. It would be odd not living with her anymore and I knew it would take Kimberly some getting used too.

"Hey little champ." Jasper scooped Bryant, Rose's and Emmett's 7 month baby boy, and gave him a kiss.

He was wearing a small tuxedo like his dad and his uncle Jasper. He had Rose's deep ocean blue eyes but Emmett's curly hair.

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Everyone made their way to the gardens and took their seats. Being part of the bridal party, we were all able to sit together.

"It's time for the maid of honor to make her speech." I was handed the microphone but I could not speak. Alice had tears in her eyes and was causing me to choke. I looked at Kimberly who was being held by my dad and was able to deliver my speech.

"When Alice asked me to be her maid of honor I was delighted. We had talked and planned this very night since we were twelve. I remember how we would sneak into her mother's closet and try on the wedding gown. She would practice throwing the bouquet and I would be the one to catch it. And just how we imagined it, it happened. Alice is standing right beside me, next to the man she knew would sweep her off her feet. When she first told me that he could be the one, I was terrified that I might lose my sister. I learned to love Jasper as the person whom Alice loved and the person who would make her blissful." Kimberly came running towards us and crashed into Jasper's arms.

"And now a toast." I held my champagne flute and wanted for everyone else. "Best wishes to the happy couple on their wedding day. May your love for each other grow with each passing year and blossom into your own family. Congratulations!"

Alice embraced me and chuckled. "One day it is going to be you up here and me delivering a speech of how you would practice your 'I do's.' "Thank you so much. I love you Bella and you are always going to be my sister no matter what."

We broke apart and I guided her to the center of the floor where she would dance her first song with Jasper as husband and wife.

The rest of the night went smoothly. As the maid of honor, I was instructed to dance with the best man- Emmett.

"You will find your special person that completes you Bella. Don't hold back on happiness, let yourself open up and explore. Just because you have Kimberly to look after doesn't mean your life has to be on hold. Get back out there and enjoy yourself. Rose and I will always be here for you both. Don't let the rancor you feel for Edward crush you. You are young and beautiful. You have a gorgeous daughter that melts everyone's heart. She might not complain about a father yet but she will need a father figure. And as much as I would love to be that father figure as her uncle, she needs someone to call a father."

"Emmett." his words had gotten to me. He was right but it hurt so much. I was trying to smile and not let anything bother me but the events of the wedding and his speech thru me over the edge. What if I never did get married, what if Edward haunted me forever. I could just take so much. I was strong for my daughter but as each day passed I resented Edward more and more with a passion.

It was finally time to bid farewell to the bride and groom, they would be taking an extended vacation to start out their life together.

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I carried Kimberly asleep in my arms into her nursery, and carefully changed her into her nightgown. She wasn't potty trained yet so I still had to put her in diapers.

I gave her a night kiss and walked to the kitchen. I poured myself a glass of wine and gulped it down.

After taking a long shower I got ready for bed. I opened a drawer where I kept the last picture of Edward and me. We were sitting in a canopy together. How different things would be right now if he hadn't gone.

I took the picture and ripped it up. I imagined myself in Alice's place tonight. It hurt so much thinking. There were days were I just wanted to live peacefully with my daughter and not have to think about anything else. I wanted to be happy and enjoy life in a different way.

I wanted to have what Rose had and what Alice soon would enjoy.

(A/N) School starts tomorrow! Noooooo! *Tear *tear..

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