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Edward's POV

"Oof stop!" Jane was treating the wounds I had received from Emmett's tackle. I didn't have a second to react to his sudden actions and was hit by every punch thrown at me.

When I saw Bella my world had brightened up but for her it seemed as if her worst nightmare had occurred. She backed away from me and looked at me with rancor and misery. I knew my leave had caused her pain but she didn't show any hurt.

"So those are your friends?" Jane asked mockingly.

Emmett had beaten me, Bella feared me and everybody else kicked me out of the store. They weren't the friends I had.

"I don't know what happened." I was puzzled and I couldn't figure it out.

"Bella seems nice and she's really beautiful too but she seemed tortured. When she helped me to a fitting room she was calm and radiant."

"She really changed." I added absentmindedly.

"Sure her appearance is different than the photo but she's still as beautiful." I looked at Jane who held the picture of Bella.

"Her features and her expressions withheld anger and fear."

"What were you expecting- a welcoming home party? She was angry to know that you are alive and that you had no excuse to call her. And she's probably afraid that you are back in NY and that there isn't room for you in her life." Jane snapped.

"I expected her to be surprised maybe even excited but she wasn't surprised just… shocked." I sighed. "As if she knew about me and was scared to have me back in her life." Her reaction to Jane wasn't what I had expected either. She wasn't surprised to find that out either

"Edward you were her first love, if she's married she probably won't care as much as she would have then."

"She can't be married!" I disputed. "She can't be."

"You're married too Edward and she had the right to do the same." Jane pointed out.

"That's different."

"How?" She questioned.

"We aren't the typical married couple that's how." Jane and I lived together but we slept in separate rooms. We had learned to get along as friends but that was all. She had even wanted to meet Bella and become friends. Now I saw that that would be impossible.

"That's true but Bella wasn't in the same situation as we were. Just because we didn't get what we wanted to be happy in life doesn't mean Bella had to go through the same." She handed me a glass of water and sat on the recliner.

"Putting that discussion aside, what did you think about seeing her again?" She asked curiously.

"She's beautiful. She's more beautiful than I imagined she would be. She's a mature woman and I could tell she has more character than she did. She's a grown woman that doesn't just have a captivating appearance but her attitude seems different. She isn't my old Bella anymore." I explained.

"She hardly spoke. How could you tell?" Jane asked half laughing.

"I could read it in her eyes, her expression held other expressions and other meanings that they didn't before. There was also a tenderness and a glow in her."

"Only you know." she added before getting up.

I sighed and stared out the window. I wanted to see her again. I needed to explain everything to her. I never meant to leave her. I only went along with this for my family. I would never have done this to her and she needed to know that.

Jane and I had become friends but nothing more. At first we avoided each other but with time I got to see she wasn't a bad person. She listened to me talk about Bella and she often insisted on me to call her.

We were still married but left England so that Aro couldn't control our actions. Her dad was sick but Jane wanted to get away anyhow.

I hated myself for what I did. I only felt my hurt and my anger but I never realized the pain Bella must have gone through.

I had to explain and I had to make her understand. But how would I if she didn't want to see me.

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I drove to Bella's apartment with hope that I would find her and be able to talk to her.

I asked the door man from her apartment and was told that she had moved out. She hadn't left any information about her new place. I drove to my old apartment for another chance I might find her there.

I never sold it or did anything about it but apparently Bella did. She put my apartment up and instructed for my belongings to be sent to storage.

If I drove back to the store I would only get kicked out. I had no way of getting to her.

I drove around town remembering the times Bella and I spent together. All the activities we did and all the fun moments we shared. I never stopped thinking about her and I never stopped loving her.

Almost five years had passed and if that meant Bella was with somebody else I would have to endure.

She disserved to be happy and live her life. I didn't expect her to live alone and waiting for me but on the inside I prayed that she did.

On the drive back to the house Jane and I had purchased, I passed the park where Bella and I used to go. I would push her on the swings and we would slide down together on the slides.

I had to see her. I loved her and if I could I would fight for her.

(A/N) I finally had time to post!! Aghh! School is so time consuming. I would write down the chapters during English class while my teacher talked! Oops!

**Okay so Kimberly is four years old but Edward has been gone for almost five years. Remember that pregnancy is 9 months long so kimberly isn't as old as his absense.

I am so sorry for not updating sooner. I enjoyed the daily updates I used to do.

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