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Edward's POV

The image of Bella's daughter was edged in my mind. She seemed so familiar. She was a charming little girl but there was something about her. Everything about the little girl amazed me. Her eyes were hazel and she had Bella's long curly eyelashes. Her hair though, that's what drove a wedge through me. It was the same color tone as mine. I was sure other people had a similar tone of hair but this was outstanding to me.

I was determined to tell Bella about what happened. She had to know that I never meant to leave her and that this marriage was a farce. She had a daughter and most likely a husband as well. That didn't matter as much as it mattered for her to understand the truth. She had to know that my promises weren't false. I did plan on fulfilling them but life had a different plan.

If she still didn't want me in her life then I would understand. As much as I would love to have her by my side and be the father of her child I would never take them away from the one they loved. Kimberly didn't deserve to be taken away from her family. She should be with her parents whom adored her.

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I needed to talk to somebody but not just any body. Jasper had set up his own office for his patients. I made an appointment earlier so that he wouldn't reject hearing me out.

I was waiting in Jasper's office looking at the pictures he had on his desk. They were pictures of everybody from the past couple of years. The one where all the girls were in was my favorite. Bella looked absolutely gorgeous. She was pregnant and her baby bump showed. Another picture had three small children. I recognized Kimberly, Bella's daughter and from the curly hair and blue eyes I would say that was Emmett's child. A small baby boy was in the center of the other two children. I was assuming he was Jasper's and Alice's baby, he was wearing baby designer clothing.

I had placed the pictures down and walked to the arm chair in the center of the room and found another picture. It was of everyone with the children. What was odd about the picture was that Bella wasn't standing with anyone. She only held Kimberly.

Why wouldn't her husband, Kimberly's dad be in the picture? Who was he?

"Edward." Jasper entered.

"Jasper I need to talk to someone and I always had you, I don't know if that has changed."

He stayed quiet and sat on the arm chair beside me.

"I'm here to listen to anyone." He replied.

"I need to explain why it was that I broke my promise to Bella." I started.

"We know why you didn't come back, you got married." His tone was reproachful.

"That's not what I wanted; I didn't know what would happen on that trip. I love Bella, I never stopped loving her. All I knew was that I couldn't tell her that I was going to marry someone else after I promised to marry her."

"In my opinion I think all Bella wanted was a phone call. Days passed and she grew wary about you. She spent countless hours sitting by the phone crying. She didn't know where you were or if something had happened. She was shattered when she hadn't heard from you. We all thought that something had occurred to you, that maybe you had died."

"Is that why she was with someone else; to forget me." Bella's daughter seemed like she might be four or almost turning four. She must have gotten pregnant right away after my leave. "Her daughter is too old for her to have waited to be with somebody else."

"You've meet her daughter?" Jasper asked shocked.

"Yea, she and Bella were at the park. She's quite adorable." I paused, remembering how she and Bella played in the sun. "Did she forget me so fast that she … slept with another man?" I asked incredulously.

"That is not of my territory to inform you, and if I'm even talking about Bella it's because I like to hear both sides before coming to a conclusion." He wouldn't tell me much but maybe he'd tell me enough.

"I noticed how in your picture nobody is standing next to Bella and her daughter. Where was her husband?" I asked.

Jasper shifted in his seat and looked at his papers. "He travels allot."

"Doesn't he care about his family? Why would he leave them alone? He should be great full to be with Bella and to have a child of hers. Kimberly should be with both of her parents." I was angry at whoever was Kimberly's father. He should be appreciative and be with them- loving and protecting them. "Is she at least happy?" I asked.

"For the most part yes."

It was my fault Bella was with some on else. My absence had pushed her into the arms of another man.

"Jasper, I never intended to leave Bella, I wanted to come back more than anything and propose to her and start the family we had always dreamed about."

I sighed and recalled the early days of my trip. "When I got to England my family was in danger and to protect them I had to marry Jane. I tried to find a way out but there wasn't." I smashed my fist against the arm rest and sighed. "I would have called her but I was afraid to tell her goodbye. I wouldn't of been strong enough to tell her that I wouldn't be coming back to keep the promise I had made. She deserved better than that." I looked away, ashamed. "I spent the honey moon at different bars getting drunk to drown the sorrow I was in."

"Do you know what's wrong with everything you have been telling me Edward?" Jasper asked. I shook my head and waited for his answer.

"You couldn't call because it would hurt you. You didn't want to feel the pain and agony that Bella was going through because you wouldn't withstand the honey moon you drank to drown your pain. Did you ever actually stop to think what Bella was going through? Being together for so many years and one day you decide to leave and never come back. You might have gone through a lot Edward but the pain that I saw Bella go through day by day was the biggest pain any woman could possibly go through. She needed you and you let her down. You deceived her." His words stung deep. I felt like the most damned man on earth.

"She loved you Edward and everyone was a witness to that. You left her shattered and when she found out that-." He stopped himself, guilt in his eyes.

"Found out what?"I asked intrigued.

He sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Edward, Bella knew about your engagement long before you came back."

"What?" I breathed. I was paralyzed. Bella had known that I was engaged. All the hatred and anger was because she had known. I had broken my promises and she knew that.

"How did she find out?" I asked afraid to hear the answer.

"She called you Edward." His voice had a razor sharp connotation. "She called and your fiancé answered her call. She felt betrayed and lied to. Can you try to imagine the pain she was in- The anger and stupidity that she felt when she concluded that you had betrayed her. Everything that you both had gone through meant nothing to her. "

"I… I didn't-"

"Betrayal and lies is what Bella despises the most. She became a complete different person than the sweet tranquil Bella we all loved. Her world came crashing down and in order to make it through she became bitter towards the world yet stronger. She learned to fight and become independent."

"I didn't know. You have to believe me, I did not betray her. I've always loved her!" My eyes burned and my throat swelled with distress.

"It doesn't matter any more." I looked up; his face was expressionless. "Bella hasn't forgotten what she went through and I doubt she ever will."

We stayed silent as the remorse cursed through my body. Tears were falling freely and my hands trembled.

"But she's got a child and she's with someone else. She over came it." My throat burned with furry at how she had slept with another man and given him a child. She went against the love she said she had for me.

"No, I don't think she ever did. A love like the one you both shared isn't forgotten very easily. She was broken and with time and the furry that burned through her, she surged on. I had never seen Bella filled with bitterness or revulsion until you left her."

"How has my return impacted her life?"

"Your return has reopened the wounds that she fought so hard to close. Her actions and her attitude are stronger than ever because she overcame so much through life. She grew up and learned to live life for someone else rather than herself. You weren't in the picture to protect her. She might still have feelings for you, love even but she is filled with so much rancor that she has forgotten how great love could be."

"What about her husband, hasn't he filled that void in her life? She should be ecstatic to have the family she always wanted."

"I could only say so much and yet there is allot you don't know. If what you said is true and you love her, try to amend things but it won't be easy. The amendment to your relationship with Bella will benefit someone greater whose also been impacted just as much as the two of you. "

I let Jasper's words sink in and left. How could she ever forgive me if I had caused her so much pain.

Bella's POV

"Jasper how could you!" I reproached. "Why in the world would you talk to Edward?"

"He needed someone to talk to and I wasn't going to deny him as a patient."

"I'm not mad because you had a consultation with him but because you spoke about me! He has no right to know what I went through. If he didn't care then why would he care now!"

"What if what he said is true though!" Jasper debated. "If his family was in danger he wouldn't let them down."

"Does he think I'm stupid enough to believe that! He left and didn't care if I was hurting or if something had happened to me. He lied to me! If he thinks I'm going to run back to him like some lost little puppy he is sadly mistaken."

"He's Kimberly's father Bella. You can't deny that!"

"She's the reason why I'm doing this! She grew up without a father and now he wants to comeback and rekindle. Do you know how many nights I sat alone in Kimberly's room when she got sick. Each time she got a fever and I couldn't do anything to help her feel better. I was scared Jasper! He wasn't there for me like you where there for Alice. Don't you feel comforted and appreciative when Alice is with Chris? I don't have that!" I was beyond furious and upset, nobody understood what I had gone through.

"He left me pregnant and got married gosh damn it! The only reason why I hate him is because my daughter had to grow up with out a father! I have wonderful memories with both of my parents and so should Kimberly but she doesn't! ."

"Are you over it Bella? Are you over the love you had for Edward?"

"He showed me what love felt like but he taught me how to feel hate. I've never felt hate for someone like I do for him. I could never forgive him if that's what he wants!" once more tears slid down my face for Edward. Once again I was shedding tears because of him.

"He should have never of come back." All the pain I felt before was resurfacing. If he was unhappy he deserved the pain. I wanted him to suffer what I had suffered. I was naive to believe in him then, I'd be stupid to do it again.

"Where are you going?" Jasper called after me.

I slammed his office door and headed for my car. "Bella don't do anything stupid! Where are you going?" Jasper was only footsteps behind.

"Now I'm stupid Jasper! Whose side are you on any ways?" I asked turning around.

"I don't take sides." He answered sternly.

"Than back off!"

I got into my car and steered down the street. I had no idea where I was going but I had to get away before I damaged my friendship with Jasper.

I drove in circles finally stopping at the store.

"Mommy!" Kimberly skipped towards me and hugged me.

"Hey sweetie." I hugged her back and handed her a lollipop I had in my purse.

"Ooh! Look at my nails. They spa'kly!" She battered her eyelashes and blew a kiss. Her innocence and her spunky attitude softened me.

"They're beautiful." I complemented.

"Auntie Rosie did 'em." She hopped back to the register and stood on a stool.

"And where is Auntie Rose?" I asked. There didn't seem to be anybody in the store.

"Here." Rose answered with a pile of clothes in her arms. "People just can't take back what they don't like can they." She sighed, dropping the load that she had on the desk. "So what's up?" She asked.

I sighed and walked toward the register.

"Jasper talked to Edward."

"What! What did he say?"She asked.

"Does it matter. What's done is done." I said indifferently.

I watched Kimberly eat her lollipop and scribble on a piece of paper. She looked so much like her father. Every time I looked at her I thought of him. What he did was always present.

"He told him that he never meant to leave and break his promise. That he got married to protect his family and that he never stopped loving me."

"You cannot believe what he says! He lied to you and abandoned you when you needed him most. He shouldn't have the right to dance back into your life and enjoy the daughter that you raised! It's not fair!" She yelled.

"Don't you think I know that!" I said exasperated.

"He doesn't deserve to have you nor his daughter. Not after all the pain that you went through."

I was in pain still, I never got over what he did. I honestly believed that he betrayed me and that he never did love me.

(A/N) I want to apologize for the last chapter. It wasn't the best encounter with his daughter and it was too short I agree. I hope this chapter sort of made up for it, its 2491 words long not including the AN.

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