So, yeah, finally updated this. Sorry i'm kind of writing a new story on the side and trying to update twin thing too. I worte 3 pages I think? Well whatever. I'll probably get it out sometime... lol.

I'm sick. Like, it's bad. So i'm home and bored and this is why this was updated. And I'm sad. And I'm happy too. Sunday was mine and my boyfriends one month. :3 I freaking love that kid he's amazing. And if in Twin Thing someone says "its cuz ur fat" it's thanks to Sean :) He says that about everything. Especially to me. It doesn't even make sense half the time. "Sean! My love! I missed you!" "Its cuz ur fat" and i'm like ":D" lol. So prepare for some of that. All I have to do is figure out who says it. :3 probably one of the twins would say it... idk.

Enjoy the angst my pretties *heart*

lemon?

Hiro sat in school. His legs were swinging innocently on his chair and his chin rest in the palm of his hands. He gazed around the white bricked rooms with a sigh. He was uncomfortable with the way he was sitting. Kyou went a bit to rough on him but he didn't seem to mind.

At least he likes me...

Hiro blushed at the thought and looked around the room. His eyes landed on Kisa who was calmly looking ahead at the teacher. Hiro forgot the teacher was even talking. He was in-between being happy and being in pain.

"Hiro?" The teacher called and Hiro lazily looked over at her.

"Hm?" He answered and a few kids giggled.

"I asked you the answer to this problem." She said and crossed her arms and Hiro glared. How DARE she interrupt his Kyou thoughts.

"Well CLEARLY I wasn't paying attention. Call on someone else, sheesh." Hiro spat and a few more kids laughed at the teacher's angry face and Kisa looked over at Hiro with a soft look and he could see she was disappointed in him. But he really didn't care at this point. Nothing mattered to him really.

Nothing but Kyou.

~+ * +~

Kyou sat at his desk, feeling a source of guilt. Maybe that was wrong of him to do to Hiro. Simply use him like that. He couldn't help that he felt sexually attracted to the younger guy.

Still trying to figure out how I went from liking Torhu, sweet beautiful kind Torhu, to Hiro. Annoying, mouthy adorable Hiro.

Kyou pouted to himself and felt someone tap his shoulder.

"You ok carrot top?" Arisa asked boredly, not honestly caring if Kyou was slitting his wrists, just for the sake of having a conversation with someone.

"I'm fine yankee." Kyou snapped.

"Kyou-kun, you haven't eaten anything and lunch is almost over." Torhu said sadly and Kyou glanced over at her and forced a smile. He had to. That stupid rat was next to her.

"Just ain't hungry Torhu. Sorry." He stood up and walked out of the classroom and tried to find Hiro.

What a strange urge. Why do I want to find Hiro?

Kyou stopped and scowled at himself and ran to the door.

GOD DAMN IT I DON'T LIKE HIRO!!

~+ * +~

"So Hiro. We see that you're beloved cousin isn't here today." They cackled as they crowded around Hiro who looked rather bored.

"Hiro! There you are." Hatsuharu called as he walked up and looked at the kids. "What's up with these guys? They bothering you or something?" He asked and Hiro looked at them and smirked widely.

"Actually Haru, they are." Hiro said slyly and the group of kids looked at Hiro with a glare.

"Really now? They won't anymore right?" Haru asked innocently... Well more like lazily but it looked pretty innocent.

"Nah. I don't think so." Hiro smirked smugly at them.

"Hey! What makes you think we won't kick your ass!?" They yelled to Hiro and Hiro looked at Haru who began to clean his ear with his pinky. "Yeah! You AND your stupidly haired colored cousin!!"

"What one?" Hiro asked.

"Both." One said and Haru looked over at Hiro confused.

"So you mean, Haru AND Kyou?" Hiro egged on and Haru closed his eyes. When they opened he looked a LOT more mature.

"WHAT!? WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING BY PICKING ON ALL OF US FOR!? YA KNOW WHAT!? I THINK I'M GONNA--" Hiro couldn't understand what else Haru said, he already started hitting violently. It seemed that Haru hit them harder than Kyou did. You'd think they would learn really...

Hiro stood there as Black Haru slowly faded back to White Haru seeing as his energy was significantly less due to the outburst. The kids lay on the floor, obviously beaten and Haru sighed and crossed his arms.

"So anyway, come on Hiro, I need to talk to you." Haru said, making perfect eye contact with the sheep who nodded unsurely. Haru never wanted to talk to him. He wondered what happened.

~+ * +~

They sat under a tree, isolated from everyone and Haru looked over at him.

"You and Kyou eh?" He asked quietly and Hiro blushed bright red.

"W-w-what do you mean?" He stuttered and turned away.

"Hiro..." Haru sighed and let his head hit the tree behind him. "I don't know but this sounds to weird for me--"

"Weird? You like him too!" Hiro snapped and Haru looked at the angry teen.

"Not like that. It sounds... Fishy. He just, maybe didn't, get over Torhu and now he takes you. I don't understand it. It just... Sounds weird to me. But I want you to be careful. If Kyou hurts you then I'll have to kick his ass. Or try to." Haru smiled at Hiro who pouted and turned his head to the side and Haru's smile faded. "Listen Hiro. I know you're probably mad at me for saying this but please, for your sake just keep an eye on his behavior."

"Yeah yeah. Can I go home now?" Hiro growled and Haru stood up and nodded.

"Of course... How do I get home from here?" He asked and Hiro smacked his forehead and pointed left. "Ok. Thanks." Haru waved and walked up to the big Sohma doors.

~+ * +~

Hiro got home and took off his shoes. The first person on his case was Shigure.

"What are you doing home so late? Oh! Do you have a girlfriend?" Shigure asked with a giggle from behind his fan and Hiro looked at him like he was an idiot... Which wasn't to different from how he looks at him all the time.

"Shut up." Hiro snapped. "I don't have a girlfriend I was TALKING to HARU." He stomped off to the living room which he currently had dibs on and pulled out his homework, finding it hard to complete being how he wasn't paying any attention in class today.

"Damn it..." He sighed and placed it on the table.

"Hiro?" Kyou asked from the doorway. Hiro looked up and eyed Kyou as he leaned against the doorframe. He looked so built without a shirt on. His hair was messy but it looked alright on him and his tanned skin contrasted with the paper wall.

"Yes Kyou?" Hiro replied and crossed his arms, sitting back on the couch.

"How about you come in my room." Kyou offered and Hiro blushed and nodded.

Damn it! Why am I doing this!! Come on Kyou! You're better than this! Don't stoop so low! Kyou inwardly growled but turned on his heels and walked upstairs with Hiro following him shortly behind.

The second they walked in the room and the door was shut, Kyou roughly kissed Hiro who's eyes widened. The door locked and Kyou moved Hiro to the bed.

"for your sake keep an eye on his behavior"

Hiro noticed that Haru was right. This was weird of Kyou. When did he act out so savagely. His lips seemed desperate to kiss Hiro's. Soft delicate lips pressed against each other felt so good but they were slammed together so hard that both were probably red and swollen from to much affection.

Hiro couldn't help himself but give into Kyou's needs. Yuki and Torhu weren't home. Yuki took Torhu to her job. Shigure was in and out of the house but the chances of him actually paying attention to Hiro and Kyou were slim to none since he was avoiding his editor.

"Take off your pants Hiro." Kyou breathed huskily laced with need into Hiro's ear as Hiro shivered.

"Y-yes." He agreed, not knowing what else to do and helped Kyou in taking off his clothes and blushed as the crimson eyes stared at his body. Kyou then leaned in and pressed his tongue to Hiro's throat and licked down, everywhere. His wet tongue was forcing Hiro to become incredibly turned on. He even noticed that Kyou didn't seem like himself but he didn't care.

Kyou! You're REALLY going to let this happen again!? You don't even like the kid that much!

Kyou winced at his thoughts realizing they were true but wouldn't give into them. He hit every pleasure spot on Hiro, making the younger boy practically beg to be taken but he didn't. He continued to tease and play with Hiro's emotions more and more. Until he finally went over the line with toying with him.

"I love you Hiro." He crooned into Hiro's ear.

What? No I don't.

"I-I love you too Kyou." Hiro blushed bright red, there was a smile on his face though. He looked so happy. Kyou inwardly scowled and pressed his lips to Hiro's, not wanting to see how happy the lie made him.

Kyou then flipped over Hiro after the kiss ended, even before Hiro had a chance to open his eyes. Kyou found the spot he needed and pushed himself inside with a deep growl. Hiro clutched into the pillow and closed his eyes tightly. Still without lubrication, still without preparation. It hurt, badly.

"K-Kyou." Hiro whimpered and Kyou's hand rest on Hiro's back and he softly rubbed his back, calming Hiro a bit.

"I love you." Kyou said again, but if you paid attention you could hear the lie, the sadism in his voice.

Stop fucking lying to him Kyou! You can't get his hopes up high for nothing just because you want him in bed you sick fuck!

Kyou kept yelling at himself but it didn't matter. He needed more and more of it. It didn't matter to him if he used Hiro to his selfish desires because Hiro seemed to not care. So neither did Kyou.

Kyou closed his eyes, saw Torhu's smile and smiled himself. She was what he wanted, not Hiro. He was afraid to open his eyes to see his dreams were just a fantasy and this is what was reality. Him and Hiro. Not him and Torhu.

This is what caused his body to react and go faster than before. Take Hiro's innocents again. The innocent Hiro, yeah right. The innocent Ky-- You can't even finish his name it's such a laugh. Kyou? Innocent?

No. Never.

Suddenly it was over. Just like that. Kyou was still looming over the backside of Hiro, panting. Hiro was trembling a bit and Kyou pulled himself out and Hiro stayed like that. Kyou lied for umpteenth time that day.

"Don't shake Hiro. I love you." He whispered and Hiro slowly turned to Kyou. His eyes were red and his cheeks were damp with tears but he still had a smile on his face.

"I love you too." Hiro replied. Only he meant his with all of his heart. He DID love Kyou.

*~~ + ~~*

Hiro was kneeling at his mother's grave with a slight smile on his face as he let the flowers he bought her drop next to the glazed tombstone.

"Hi mom, I just wanted to know how you were doing. I miss you. I'm sorry, I should've came to visit you at the hospital but I guess I was so sure that you'd be ok that I didn't have to. I'm sorry for assuming that. Well mom, I'm doing fine I guess. School is ok, it could be better honestly but I'm just learning how to cope with everything. Everyone is treating me ok I guess. I still miss you though. But that isn't why I came here today mom. I really wanted you to be the first person I told. I'm in love mom... I'm sorry I couldn't be the perfect son and fall in love with a gorgeous girl and give you grandchildren, but mom... I'm in love with Kyou, and I hope you can accept me for that." Hiro remained quiet for a few minutes and a few tears streamed down his face.

"Well mom, that's all I can say to you." He whispered and stood up. "I love you. Bye." He bowed and walked away from the grave feeling a load off of his shoulders.

*~~ + ~~*

"Hiro! Where were you!?" Kyou asked angrily as Hiro came in, noticing that it was well past dark and they were cleaning up dinner.

"I was having a visit with my mother." He said simply and Kyou stayed quiet after that. After all, there isn't much you can say to that.

"Well, maybe if you told us we could have gone with you!" Torhu said with a smile and Hiro shook his head.

"No thank you. I like going alone." He said simply and left the room and laid on the couch. True he was in a lot of pain but he sucked it up. At least Kyou loved him, right?

So Hiro sat in the living room. TV on and he yawned and changed his clothes. He laid down on the couch and looked at the clock. It was a little past 9:30 and he smiled softly. Kyou should be coming down soon.

He entertained himself with stupid thoughts. Like, why did Kisa look at him funny? Why were the kids so mean to him at school when he didn't do anything? And most importantly.

Why did Haru tell him all that stuff?

What possessed Haru to seek out Hiro and give him his two cents about the whole ordeal? Was it noticeable that it was happening? Was Haru jealous of him so decided to say that or was it actually good intentions?

Hiro didn't realize how far his thoughts went. In fact they went past 10:30 and lulled Hiro to sleep.

And the weird thing is...

He didn't even notice that Kyou never came down.

Not even once.

So yeah, since like no one said if I should write YYH or YGO as my next fanfic I think I'll just like kill myself.

jk

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