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Edward's POV

There wasn't anything I could say. I couldn't ask her to forgive me but at the same time there wasn't much I could do.

"Bella, when I left I promised that I would come back and marry you and as much as I wanted to honor that promise I couldn't. I also told you that my parents were in trouble and that I needed to be there and help them. I didn't know what was going to happen." Seeing Bella wrecked and lifeless made it seem pointless for me to keep explaining but she had to hear it.

"I wanted to call you but when I knew I had to marry Jane I couldn't bare it. I didn't know how I was going to be able to say to you that I wasn't coming home. I couldn't dial you because every time your picture lit up my screen my world crashed down. I loved you and I couldn't hurt you. I thought that if I didn't call, you would believe I died and move on. I preferred for you to be happy, even if it was with another man. I knew that if that was the case, he would never love you like I did but at least you wouldn't be alone."

"You didn't think I deserved to know?" Her eyes were dull. Her chocolate brown eyes were foggy with tears. Seeing her this way ripped me to pieces inside but I guess I deserved that. "It is my life! Don't you think I should have a say? Don't make decisions for me. I could do that on my own."

She glared at me and turned around covering her tears.

"You deserved more than a phone call. You didn't deserve for me to call and tell you that the life we had dreamed of together wouldn't come true. I was a coward, I just couldn't face it."

"You didn't call because you couldn't face it? You thought about yourself because if you knew me like you said you did, you would know that I prefer to confront the truth than to hide it." She retorted.

"I preferred for you to forget me and move on! It killed me to think of you in the arms of another man but I preferred that than for you to know I had turned my back on us."

"Then why did you come back? If to you I was happy you should have left me alone! You should have never of come back!"

"I couldn't stay away anymore!" I answered. "Even if all I got was a glance- that would have been enough for me. If you were married and happy right now I would have kept my distance but the way things happened I couldn't, it was too much for me."

I took out the pendant I had found in my bag the day of the wedding. The pendant Bella had always carried on her neck and had given to me. I saw her eyes gazing at it bluntly with no significance towards it.

"If I asked…" Bella sniffled and looked up to face me. "If I asked you to leave Jane with no guarantees I'd accept you, would you?" she asked.

I didn't know if I could. My family was safe but I didn't know what would happen if we were to separate. I didn't know if a separation had consequences.

"Your silence says it all." Rose answered glaring at me.

"No! I don't love her. I never have." I shouted.

"But you care." Bella's crackled voice finished me. The way she answered, I knew she hadn't stopped loving me but she was to hurt to even think of forgiving me.

"This pendant and the memory of our last night together was what kept me going. Remembering your kisses and-"

"Stop! Just stop!" Bella stood up and covered her ears to shut me out.

"I think it's time to give this a rest." Alice interrupted. "Kimberly is almost out of school and she will get scared if someone isn't there to pick her up."

It was almost time for her pre school to get out. Emmett and Rose helped Bella up. Weakly she managed to get to the door.

"Bella?" I stood up and took a step forward. I wanted to pick Kimberly up with her. I wanted to be her father and make up for the lost time.

"I can't keep hearing you out. I need… I need to think and sort my thoughts out. Now that your back and know about Kimberly I don't know where I stand. My world is crashing and I don't know if I could rebuild it again. I did it once for my baby but a second time is too much. I'm worn out and I don't have the strength to. I'm tired of being angry and strong. I just want to escape all this."

"I'm not rushing you, but I'd like to be part of Kimberly's life." I stated.

Bella's POV

Emmett had gone to pick Kimberly up from school while Rose took me home to shower and eat something. Showering and adding makeup didn't help cover the irritation in my eyes. Kimberly would soon be home and she couldn't find me distraught.

I had Kenzo in my lap, licking my fingers. "Rose can I ask you a favor?" She was the only one I could trust with this.

"Yea, what is it." She switched the television off and came to sit next to me.

"I want to apologize for being envious of what you and my brother had, it wasn't right"

"Don't worry about it." She rubbed my knee and smiled.

"It's not alright. I was jealous that he was happy and that I wasn't. I never meant any harm by it."

"I know." She leaned in and gave me a hug. It felt nice to have somebody hugging me, I felt secured.

"I have to ask you though." She leaned back and listened.

"I need to get away from this. I can't stay here knowing that Edward knows. I won't be able to handle it if he comes and asks to see Kimberly. I'm not prepared for him to walk in and pretend nothing happened."

"I understand. What do you want to do?" She asked.

"Hand me the phone." I wanted to go with the one person who made all the night mares go away. The one person who made the monsters disappear. I didn't want to be in the dark, I wanted to be safe.

"Hello?"

"Dad, I need to come home."

(A/N) I don't know what you think of this chapter it is shorter than the last one but bare with me.

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