After this theres ONEMORECHAPTERRRRR!!!!!!!! I'm excited how about
you? lol Well finally I can end this depressing angst of a story and continue on other stories until they're done but I don't know what to write on any of them. I'm like "blahhhh" maybe when summer comes I'll know what to do!
Dedications: Casey, ashley the twisted, southern-punk, and Kyon-neko
Thanks for reviewing and I continue you to this crap where you will bask in misery for this is the last of the chapters leading up to the conclusion
"Hiro... This is the 17th time you've listened to this song. Are you sure you wanna listen to it again?" Hatori asked as he stood at Hiro's doorway. He was laying faced down covering his face in his pillows. He hasn't moved in quite sometime. Only to click his stereo's remote so it would replay the song "Show me the meaning of being lonely" by Backstreet Boys.
"Yes." Hiro said monotonously and Hatori sighed and unplugged the stereo and Hiro looked up at him with miserable eyes. "What was that for?"
"You're being ridiculous Hiro." Hatori closed the door and grabbed Hiro's desk chair and sat it in front of Hiro's bed. "You've been here for a week and still haven't told me what went on and why you're so upset."
"Nothing! I'm fine..." Hiro grabbed a pillow and put it over his face.
"Hiro, you need to talk to me." Hatori said sternly and Hiro glared at him.
"Why? You'll just report me to Akito and what'll that do?" Hiro spat and turned away from Hatori who sighed.
"I won't go and tell him but if he asks me I'm going to have to tell him the truth." Hatori said simply and Hiro didn't answer, he shrank where he laid.
"Go away." He grumbled and Hatori picked him up roughly.
"I've given you a week to adapt but now you're going to tell me what the hell is bothering you. Understand?" Hatori said dangerously and Hiro pouted and looked away.
"I'm just stupid. It's my fault. I deserved it." Hiro shook his head and pulled out of Hatori's grasp.
"You're going to tell me now." Hatori said and Hiro looked at him for a few seconds then groaned and sat down on his bed Indian style and looked up at Hatori.
"Fine..." With that Hatori sat down on the chair and waited for Hiro to start his story. "I moved in with Shigure, I'm afraid of being alone at night so I asked Kyou if he could stay with me until I fell asleep and so he did. And we started playing video games together. Whatever whatever, so one day when you guys came over I slept in Kyou's room and he didn't care and I guess he walked in after taking a shower... And..." Hiro's face turned bright red.
"And?" Hatori asked with a perked eyebrow. Hiro wondered if he was pretending to be dense or if he really didn't know.
"We... Had sex..." Hiro's face glowed a red color and Hatori looked shocked.
"Only had sex once?" He asked and Hiro shrank a bit.
"No... Three times... And... Kyou said he loved me but then told me he lied..." Hiro shrugged and pretended not to care but his lower lip was shaking and his eyes were filling with tears. "I don't care... Whatever."
"Hiro..." Hatori was speechless. He didn't know how Hiro could assume it was his fault or he deserved that.
"Why do you think that you deserve that?" Hatori asked and Hiro wiped his eyes a bit.
"Well, maybe if I wasn't such a jerk all the time to everyone, karma wouldn't have to be so hard." Hiro said trying to shrug it off like nothing.
"Hiro. Nothing, no snarky comments you've ever made would give you karma like that." Hatori said and Hiro laid down and looked at the wall.
"I want to be alone please." Hiro whispered so softly and so childlike that Hatori couldn't help but obey his request and left the room.
*~~ + ~~*
"Kyou, PLEASE go see Hiro." Momiji pleaded.
"How the HELL did you even FIND ME!?" Kyou asked angrily, cat ears and tail popping out and Momiji smiled sheepishly.
"That doesn't matter, does it? Just come on." Momiji's face got serious. "You don't have to tell him anything you don't mean. Just let him see you at least. He misses you. Even though he shouldn't since you don't miss him." Kyou was taken back by that comment said so purely. No thought of it, just like a second thought. He blinked.
"I... Do miss Hiro." Kyou said mostly to himself but Momiji's face lit up.
"Really!? That will make him super happy! Let's go!" Momiji grabbed Kyou's arm but Kyou yanked it away and glared.
"I can't see him Momiji." Kyou said angrily and Momiji paused and looked confused as he looked at the cat.
"What do you mean?" He asked with a slight glare and Kyou sighed and shook his head.
"Of course you wouldn't understand. Momiji, I did something really horrible to Hiro. It doesn't matter if I go there or not. I won't be able to forgive myself and he wont be able to forgive me either. I'm not going to go, alright?" Kyou turned around and Momiji stood in front of him.
"Please. Just see him. If it goes wrong then you can leave. Just see him. Let him be happy for a little while." Momiji pleaded and Kyou looked down and sighed.
"I hate you..."
*~~ + ~~*
"Momiji, I need to attend to Akito right now. I'm going to be gone for a while. He's having another fit." Hatori explained to the boy who sat at the dining room table eating cereal.
"O...K." Hiro said quietly and Hatori left after slipping his shoes on.
For someone so scared of being alone he had to deal with it for the time in which he stayed with the Sohma's personal doctor, Hatori. Always alone. Always scared. He was even thankful when Ayame came for a brief visit. THAT was sad.
He got up after eating half of his cereal and walked over to the piano and started playing random keys. It didn't sound good but he just liked the comforting fact that something was making noise. The piano made him feel at ease.
He's been in his pajamas for a while. Hatori let him stay home from school because he was so depressed and he wanted Hiro to get out of the rut. The pajamas were red cotton with patterns of orange on them. He felt closer to Kyou somehow when he wore them.
"Gone too soon..." He mumbled as he hit the keys. He didn't want to sing that song but it was the only tune that came to mind at the time.
"HIRO~!!!!" Momiji yelled happily from the other side of the door and Hiro sighed and slammed his hands on the keys of the piano and it made a horrible noise as he got up and sluggishly dragged his feet to the door. Never out loud will he admit he was thankful for Momiji to come visit him when he was bored.
"What Momiji?" Hiro groaned without opening the door.
"I have a surprise for you. Open the door." Momiji said and Hiro rolled his eyes and unlocked the door and looked at Momiji and Kyou stood behind him. Arms crossed and his eyes scanned over Hiro. Making him feel uncomfortable like Kyou was reading everything about him.
"K-k-kyou?" Hiro started to tremble his eyes were filling with tears and burning like he was cutting onions and Kyou moved Momiji out of the way and grabbed the door before Hiro had a chance to slam it closed.
"Momiji. I told you this was a bad idea." Kyou glared at the rabbit who looked slightly embarrassed. "Go." Momiji quickly left and Kyou pushed the door open all the way and closed it behind him.
"Hiro, what the hell is wrong with you? You smell funny, your hair is all greasy and it's 4 in the afternoon and you're still in your pajamas. Go take a shower and get dressed. I'll wait for you and I need to take a walk with you. Hurry up I don't like being so close to Akito." Kyou said coolly and Hiro didn't even say anything. He rushed off to the bathroom not knowing whether to be thankful or not.
*~~ + ~~*
Hiro walked out, he had a dark green shirt on with overalls that ended in shorts. He tilted his head to the side and ran his fingers through his hair which was still only slightly damp. He looked at Kyou who sat on his bed looking around.
"Come on dumb cat." Hiro mumbled and Kyou turned to Hiro and nodded.
They snuck out of Hatori's house like Kyou had snuck in. The cat wasn't really allowed in the Sohma Reserve very often. But once they were passed the huge gates they could walk normally. Hiro couldn't help but look at the older teen with confusion. He had to look up slightly higher than normal. He was up to Kyou's shoulder.
"Where are we going Kyou?" Hiro asked and Kyou looked over at him and shrugged.
"I don't know. I guess we'll find out." Kyou said simply and Hiro nodded and they began walking more until they came across an empty park and sat on the swings sideways and faced each other and Hiro was the first one to talk.
"Why did you come to see me?" He asked quickly and Kyou shrugged.
"Because Momiji told me you were miserable because of me I guess. I'm trying to make amends to that." Kyou looked up at the sky and closed his eyes as the soft breeze blew his bangs a bit and he opened his eyes and looked at Hiro. "Plus, I don't have much time outside of the cage, I can't beat Yuki no matter how much I think I will. But whatever. I just wanted to have a peace with you before leaving."
"Kyou... You can still beat the damn rat! Kick his ass already! You can't be trapped away forever it isn't fair! Just fucking beat him you stupid cat!" This would be the time where Kyou would angrily reply back but he was much to at ease by the angry yelling from Hiro. He missed it.
"I've given up Hiro. I can't do it." Kyou shrugged.
"You can." Hiro went to yell but Kyou just looked at him with a slight smirk.
"One day I'll beat that damn rat at something. I don't know how but I'll beat him. Even in the damn cage I will. Today though, I don't wanna think of Prince Yuki." Kyou started to sway on the swing until he actually started swinging higher and higher then jumped off and landed on his feet perfectly.
"Come on at damn sheep. Let's walk." Hiro smiled.
"Yeah. Sounds good." Hiro agreed and sped up to Kyou's side.
*~~ + ~~*
"Kyou! I wanna get our picture taken!" Hiro grinned as they walked through the mall, Hiro pointed to a photo booth and Kyou sighed. How stupid.
"Come on..." He was dragged by Hiro and sat down.
"It's a dollar for a strip of 6 pictures." Hiro read and Kyou pulled out a dollar and slipped it in the slot and got ready for 6 dreadful pictures.
Picture by picture they were closer and by the last one, Kyou kissed Hiro's cheek who looked slightly shocked, but pleased, and blushed bright red.
Kyou put another dollar in and Hiro seemed confused.
"Well I want pictures too." Kyou smirked slightly and Hiro smiled softly and nodded and allowed the pictures to be snapped.
This time, the last picture was a tender kiss.
"Kyou?" Hiro asked as they got out of the booth, Hiro rubbing his thumb over the last picture.
"Yeah?" Kyou turned to Hiro who looked really... Lost.
"Do you like me or not?" Hiro questioned softly and Kyou looked at the younger boy and ruffled his hair.
"I like you a lot Hiro." Kyou admitted and Hiro looked away and muttered under his breath. Kyou ignored it and dragged Hiro to a diner in the mall and they sat in a booth.
"Wanna get lamb chops?" Kyou grinned sadistically and Hiro pouted and glared daggers at the red head and Kyou smirked and shook his head. "It's called a joke you can calm down."
"Or we can get Chinese food since apparently they cook cats." Hiro stuck out his tongue and Kyou rolled his eyes and chuckled slightly.
"Ya bastard." Kyou lightly punched Hiro in the arm and Hiro just giggled slightly. Kyou sat up straight quickly and looked around. "Hey Hiro. Ya feel that?"
Hiro looked around rather confused but somehow he knew what Kyou was talking about. A heavy feeling set in his stomach and suddenly he wasn't very hungry anymore.
"I don't like it." Hiro said lightly and Kyou grabbed Hiro and pulled him out of the restaurant quickly.
"We should probably leave before--"
"Kyou." Kyou looked up and saw the nonchalant face of Hatori. "Akito would like a word with you. And you too Hiro."
Hiro looked at Hatori with a look of pure shock, terror and betrayal.
"Hatori... You didn't..." Hiro's look was soft but Hatori's expression stayed hard as he looked at the two boys. Hiro's eyes watered. "You told Akito?"
"Come on boys, you wouldn't want to keep Akito waiting. He's quite impatient today." Hatori turned around and began walking. Kyou had a frightened expression but he wouldn't let that seep into his voice.
"Come on Hiro. It's probably nothing bad..." Kyou forced a slight smile. He didn't know if he was trying to convince Hiro or himself. But even so he found his hand slip perfectly into Hiro's as they followed Hatori, not caring about anything else other than one single thing. And that was Akito.
His messy pure black hair that seemed to dark to be true and his dark eyes that just saw through anyone with a heart and only had the intentions of the most evil and devious of things. If there was a punishment, Akito knew it, he probably used it too.
"Hey Hiro." Kyou whispered as they neared the car. Hiro looked up with his eyes brimming with tears.
"Yeah Kyou?" Hiro asked and Kyou kissed his forehead.
"I do love you Hiro. I just thought I should tell you that. And I'm sorry for being a jerk. Well... That isn't even the word to describe it... I'm just sorry, ok?" Kyou looked at the sheep who was trembling and holding Kyou's hand tighter.
"Kyou I love you too a-a-and I'm sorry for b-being a b-brat all those t-times and I.. I just love you so d-don't do anything stupid, got that dumb cat?!" Hiro yelled and looked at Kyou's eyes. They were red. Not just his iris. His whole eye.
"..." Kyou kissed Hiro and then pushed him to the car and Hiro climbed in and Kyou did after him. "Why did you rat us out Hatori?" Kyou asked quietly and Hatori just looked at them through the rear mirror, closed his eyes and looked back at the road.