A/N As stated in Chapter One...I am so not cool enough to own these characters or lyrics.
Okay so I really didn't expect to write another chapter, but i've been wearing out my Halestorm CD at work this week and, well, this second chapter just sort of wrote itself and I think i've got a couple more songs that i'm going to weave in. So I guess I'll just let the greatness of Lzzy Hale and Ashley Davies lead me....hope you enjoy the journey. Please R/R.
CHAPTER TWO
Spencer didn't make the concert, she didn't intend too. Waiting through a live performance would have been the ultimate in cruel and unusual punishment. No, she needed to speak to the rock star the first time she saw her, no time to think, just react, be natural, speak from the heart. Spencer knew that immediately following the show the band would sign autographs do a meet and greet and eventually head to their dressing rooms. But the crew would tear down and start dragging equipment out to the buses; she was counting on still having some connections with the guys doing the grunt work.
As she approached the high fence that blocked off the parking lot behind the arena a small almost imperceptible smile crept across her lips. It wasn't the kind of smile that spoke of happier times it was a wistful expression of times long ago….
………..Flashback….5 years prior….
"Spencer! Hurry up!"
Nineteen was too young to go to jail, what would her parents think, would she lose her scholarship? These thoughts ping ponged around in her mind as she stood frozen, both hands gripping the chain link fence, one foot poised ready to push her up that first bit of distance.
"Seriously Spencer, live a little, what's the worst that could happen?" The challenge was issued by her friend Carmen, the girl on the other side of the fence, the one who up until tonight she thought was a good influence.
"I can't do it." It was whispered low, tinged with regret and embarrassment.
"Fine, stay here, but I'm going, if I get in maybe I'll call you." With that Carmen was gone confidently making her way towards the back of the arena, closer to the large buses that marked the inevitable presence of up and coming rock stars.
………..End flashback….
Spencer shook her head and focused back on the present. With all her courage summoned she gripped the fence and started to climb. She was not going to repeat past mistakes, wasn't that the whole point of tonight, no tonight she was taking fate into her own hands. Several long uncoordinated moments later she dropped not so gracefully to her feet on the opposite side of the fence.
Staring at it now from this side, she almost wished she'd given this process a little more forethought, possibly made a phone call or two to arrange her entrance, as opposed to this James Bond method that just may get her arrested. She bit her lip and looked up at the fence, she'd have to be a complete idiot to climb back over now, might as well carry on with plan A.
Lower lip tucked between her teeth she turned to stare down the long dark parking lot and for a second she was lost once more. She remembered the sexy swagger of a rock princess emerging from the shadows and she forgot how to breathe again.
Five years ago today, a different town, another state, but a venue just like this she met the Ashley Davies for the first time. Unbeknownst to Spencer that night, Ashley had come looking for her.
The young blonde had been waiting outside the fence for almost two hours when her patience finally failed her and she began texting Carmen. At first the messages were separated by a respectable amount of time and contained a mixture of concern and frustration, but eventually her irritation surpassed her concern and she was firing off texts every minute. Amongst the last few were pictures she took of herself, first helpless, then sad, then angry, and most recently pissed.
But the messages never reached the intended recipient, the phone had been lost by its owner, only to be found by a curious brunette. Ashley had spent the last thirty minutes reading the messages and searching for the cute blonde who was sending them. She wanted to meet the girl who was too scared to climb the fence.
The school girl was completely star struck when she realized who was walking towards her across the parking lot. She had no idea what to say and let the rock princess do most of the talking, giving the appropriate head nod or simple one word answer as appropriate.
Ashley didn't engage in polite conversation for very long. She wasn't used to making conversation period, she was accustomed to obsessed fans throwing themselves at her, she didn't usually waste her time with anyone who wasn't interested in her own satisfaction.
Ashley's advances became more and more obvious and at first the blue eyed beauty shied away from them, averting her eyes and smiling at the ground. But when seconds ticked into minutes Spencer lost her fight with whatever was pulling her towards the rock star. She barely realized she was climbing the fence until she was over it, didn't register the lips against her own until her back hit the fence and dug painfully into her shoulders.
Spencer had wanted that kiss, led like a moth to a flame, dark flirtatious eyes and full smiling lips had beckoned to her. She had expected it to be hungry and forceful and the school girl was prepared to feel uncomfortable and uncertain, she was ready to push the petite brunette away if necessary. Spencer was not prepared to pull her closer, she was shocked by the first skittering sensation that swept across her skin and light headed from her racing heart. She did eventually pull away, but only to turn the tables, with a firm grip on a calloused guitar hand she pulled Ashley towards the buses.
The sexy rocker followed her but just before the blonde reached the bus door, Ashley pulled her to a stop. Searing brown eyes grabbed hold of cobalt blue, Spencer was given an option to walk away at that point. Ashley took a step back and pointed towards the arena door, her words said go after your friend but her body dared Spencer to follow when she climbed into the bus. Spencer couldn't look away; those rich mocha eyes held her captive, she followed the lion into her lair and risked everything.
Spencer wanted to worship her but didn't know how; she was all over the place. Kisses on her neck, shoulders, abs, and arms the school girl was completely erratic in her actions. None of it made any sense she was just doing something, anything, everything to express what she was feeling. Her actions tapped out against the rock stars skin like Morris Code, she just hoped her message of desire, want and need were being spelled out correctly.
Ashley let her explore until the blonde was completely frustrated and unsure of what action to take next. Then the rocker took control, she slowly peeled Spencer's clothing from flushed skin, agonizing Spencer with anticipation. She was unrelenting in her exploration of Spencer's body, using lips, teeth and finger tips she loved and caressed Spencer into submission. The school girl felt alive and complete and she couldn't help but think that this was it for her; these were the arms of the person she was meant to be with. She was beyond grateful that the rock goddess had been patient and gentle with her, she could see the self control written in Ashley's sculpted features. She had no hesitation and no regrets as she gave herself fully and completely to Ashley that night.
She basked in the warmth and safety of being wrapped up with the rock princess. Staring up into warm mocha eyes as her heart slowed and her body calmed Spencer did the unthinkable in the eyes of the rocker. Smiling eyes turned hard as coal and what was the most memorable night of Spencer's life, up to that point, quickly became the most painful experience of her life.
Spencer could hear the words in her head, both as they happened and set later to the music that made it a top ten hit. She blamed herself for being innocent to the ways of rock stars and groupies. If only she hadn't asked if she could have her number, her email, anything so she could see her again…
You see it from the outside
You're running toward the wall
Swinging from your blind side
But you don't know me at all
Ashley disentangled herself from Spencer and rolled onto her side, her back facing the stunned blonde. The school girl wrapped the tangled sheets tighter around her, suddenly feeling very exposed and cold as the cruel chill of reality seeped into her bones.
I've been here too many times before
And your tears don't mean a thing
I only come when you scream, I told you
Blue eyes watched as Ashley got out of bed and started getting dressed. Spencer flinched when her own clothes were thrown at her.
Child, don't follow me home
You're just too perfect for my hands to hold
If you choose to stay, you'll throw it all away
And I just want to take your innocence
Spencer felt sick as she dressed with shaking hands. How did she let this happen? She wanted to get out of there, get away from the seething woman who only moments ago had loved and embraced her with affection. But her feet wouldn't carry her out of that room, she collapsed under the anguish of everything she was feeling and let tears pour from broken eyes.
Is this what you wanted?
Did I make your dreams come true?
You're sitting in a corner
Wondering what you got into
And you ache for things you don't understand
That your tears don't mean a thing
And I only come when you scream, and I told you
Spencer shook her head, hands clamped over her ears, she couldn't hear it again, Ashley didn't need to say it again. The words struck home the first time, hearing it repeated wasn't necessary, it was just plain cruel.
Child, don't follow me home
You're just too perfect for my hands to hold
If you choose to stay, you'll throw it all away
And I just want to take your innocence
Silence, a mere hesitation from the barrage of words that ripped and tore at her. Spencer's hands dropped from where she had gripped her head and wrapped tight around her midsection. The naive blonde literally felt as though she needed to hold herself together. She dared a glance up and received the final blow.
There's no such thing as fate
Only yourself to blame you never walked away
Spencer shuddered at the memories and scrubbed her hands over her face. That was all in the past. The tables had turned six months later, against all odds her and the rock princess had found their way back together. Spencer gave Ashley a second chance and tonight she was after her own shot at redemption.