5

"Aaralyn, what did your mother do to you and Willow, what happened? What about, Rayshawn? Who are all of these people? I need to know." Dr. Greene, asked me. I can see her green eyes in the dim shadows, burning with a passion to know.

Wanting to know so bad, that she is tortured inside.

"Why, do you want to know, Salley?" I ask in an accusing tone, and she sits up straighter in her chair, she looks uncomfortable, because I have never called her Salley before.

"Because, Aaralyn, I'm here to help you. And I can't help you, if you don't tell me who these people are. I need to know, and understand what part these people played in your life, that ended up with you and your condition. Aaralyn." Dr. Greene, says slowly and calmly, but something in her voice makes me snap.

"Why? Why? Why do you want to know?! Why?! Why do you want to help me?! Why?! Do you want to see a crazy mixed rich girl loose her mind? Why do you want to help me? Or do you not want to help me, you are just getting paid a lot of money, so that's why you come here, or is it that you feel pity for me, because if you do, don't cause I'm fine!" I screamed at her, still heated. For what? I didn't know.

She looked shocked after my outburst.

"Aaralyn that's not it, and actually I'm doing this for free, for a favor, for a friend of mine, I just want to help." She said, looking as if she was about to cry, which made my eyes water too, and made me choke on my tears.

"If you want to help me Salley Greene, help me become pregnant."

"Aaralyn, I can't help you with that, I just want to understand you." She said in a calm tone, which offended me, and at that moment I felt threatened, I leaned towards her and squinted my eyes as I whispered.

"Let me tell you something Salley Green, okay, and I'm going to tell you this one time, and one time only. You will never understand me, nobody will ever understand me. Don't you get it? You can't help me, nobody can help me, but myself. Salley Greene you don't know anything! I'm so messed up in my head, that drugs can't even help me. I'm lost! Hell, I don't even believe in god, god isn't real to me. If god was really real, and really loved me, I would have already had 3 or 4 kids.

"But, I'm just trying to help you, not hurt you."

"That's what god is for, but there is no such thing as god."

"But, I'm not god! Dammit Aaralyn, I'm just here to help you, do you know what it's like for me? I'm a single mom raising 5 kids. Okay! I'm just trying to help! Willow, loves you okay, that's why he sent me here to help you," she was going to say more but was cut off by my loud cackle.

"Love," I said, and narrowed my eyes at her, "What do you know about love? Love is just a word. And how do you know my husband? Are you sleeping with him, just like everybody else? And let me guess, all of your children are his? Am I right, or am I wrong?"

"I have one child by him, a girl, she is 2." She said, and looked down as if she were ashamed.

I smile to myself, and nod my head in confirmation.

"And, her name is what?" I asked in such a low whisper, that I was surprised that she heard me at all.

"At the moment, I don't think that is any of your concern," she said, and began to go through her briefcase.

I threw my head my head back and cackled loudly at her. "You're sleeping with my husband, I think I deserve to know the name of the child that should have been mine!"

"Vitalini," she said, and I almost lost my mind. "Vitalini……