Disclaimer: I still own nothing, except Garrett.

Chapter 2: And What We Can't Have

Oliver's POV

It's bad enough that I love my best friend, but it's even worse that I love my best friend that doesn't love me, AND has a boyfriend. Lily had fallen in love with some boy in her English class. Garrett, I think was what she said his name was. I never paid much attention when she was talking about him, or when he was around. I kind of just zoned out, because it was so much easier to be blissfully unaware of all of it.

And I don't know
how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
how to make a feeling stop

From what little I actually do know, I can tell that this guy is all wrong for Lily. For one thing, Lily should be mine. I mean, Loliver sounds so much better than...Larrett? Garily? It all just sounds wrong, but Loliver has a certain ring to it, doesn't it? Secondly, the guy doesn't know the first thing about Lily. He doesn't know her favourite colour, he doesn't know how to make her smile, he never laughs at any of her jokes and let me tell you, Lily LOVES it when people thinks she's hilarious, which is why I laugh every time. That and because she really is funny.

But this Garrett fellow just thought she was another pretty face, which she is. But there's so much more to Lily than that. I would know after all. The point was, this guy doesn't love Lily for anything other than her looks and that was just wrong. But how to tell Lily this? She wouldn't believe a word I said. She'd just label me as the jealous guy. Unless...

Just so you know
this feeling's taken control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now.

Maybe being the jealous guy would work in the end. If I told her I loved her, and not just for her looks, it would change things. Maybe, if she loved me too, she would ditch that loser. Or maybe it's just wishful thinking, but it was the only plan I had. So it would have to work.

The halls were starting to fill now. I watched people pass by, not even noticing me. But that was nothing new. No one ever noticed me. Except for Miley and Lily.

"Hey Ollie." Miley said in her southern drawl.
"Hi, Miley." I sighed, getting to my feet.
"Something wrong?" she asked, digging through her locker.
I gave her a look.
"Oh. That something." She said, shutting her locker. She was the only one who knew about my crush, well no not a crush, but for lack of a better word, crush on Lily.
"Ollie, you have to tell her. Because it's not doing you any good standing here talking to me about it." She said, crossing her arms.
"I know and I'm going to. Today." I said firmly.

Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go of you
but I don't want to
I've just got to say it all before I go
Just so you know

Just then, Lily and Garrett walked up hand in hand. I looked away quickly not wanting to cause myself anymore pain than necessary.
"Hey!! 'Sup guys?"
"Oh, nothing." Miley said, and I could feel her eyes glaring at me.
Lily noticed, and raised an eyebrow, but Miley shook her head.
"Look, Lils' I gotta go meet my Math teacher. She's gonna help me with some homework. I'll talk to you later?" Garrett said, turning to Lily.
Lily nodded, kissing Garrett on the cheek.
I felt like puking.
Turning back to us, Lily became even more confused watching Miley make faces at me. I knew what she was trying to say, but Lily was in the dark.

"What ARE you guys doing? You're acting insane this morning." Lily exclaimed.
"Nothing. I'll just be leaving now, " Miley said, "You guys talk."
As she left, Lily and I just stood there, staring at each other.
"So...uh, how's it going?" Lily asked uncomfortably.
"It's...going?" I said and immediately felt like an idiot for my pathetic response.
"Mmm. That's good."
"Hey, uh Lil' can we talk?"
"Isn't that what we're doing right now?" she asked, with a very confused look on her beautiful face.
"No, I mean like seriously."
"Sure, what's on your mind?"

It's getting hard to
be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me
to have the feelings
and look the other way?