A/N So as long as I don't get writers block, expect updates probably every day up until Wednesday. I'm on vacation with my grandparents and aunt and uncle which consist of staying in a cabin (with Wi-Fi! Yes!) or going fishing on Douglas Lake. (If you know where that is PM me and tell me some things to do.) So lots of updates coming. Thanks for all the reviews guys! They make my day . So in this chapter, I had a bit of fun with how Swanson and Beckett met, because it doesn't say – well I don't believe it does. So please let me know if you like it! I also used some stuff for this week's preview of the new episode when Swanson comes back .

She walked into her apartment after their date. She couldn't remember ever being half this happy, except with Swanson . Swanson, the man she dated for the last 2 years of her life, the man who left her for his job, she still loved him. She didn't really know why she loved him, there was just something about him, and he understood her, completely. Unlike what Castle had said, he was the ying to her yang. Sure they may have had the same personality, but there was something about him, something special.

She wanted him back, but she wanted Castle too. She knew Castle would never leave her for work, but she liked the chase with Swanson. A chase, that's where it all began. It started out as her case, a murder in the upper east side, but it soon became a federal matter when the New York Attorney General was found to be involved, and now he was fleeing police. Kate had almost made the arrest, when she let him get away. She turned away to tell Swanson, her new temporary federal partner to get backup, when he somehow got away. They hopped in her car and began to follow him, and what she didn't know, was the entire time Swanson couldn't stop starring at her and smiling, sure he'd only know this woman a matter of hours, but he was in love.

When they finally got back to the station, Swanson decided it was time to tell her how he felt. To his surprise, when he asked Kate on a date, she said yes. There was something about the two of them. He didn't know if he had felt it first, but he had always known it.

Their first date was like no other Kate had been on, it wasn't unique though. It was dinner and drinks, nothing abnormal about that. It was what happened after that. She never meant it get that far. She invited him in for coffee, even though they had just had drinks. While they were waiting for the coffee to get done, he mentioned that he loved to box, what a coincidence, she did too. Without thinking Swanson just took her hand and let her out to his SUV and was a complete gentleman the whole time, opening the door for her, the works. He drove her back to the station. By this point she was fairly sure as to what would happen, but there was still part of her that wanted to deny it.

"Maybe this is the best date I've ever been on." She thought smiling.

They didn't speak, but he must have been a mind reader, because he smiled back at her when he caught her smiling about how great their date was so far.

He looked up at the building, then looked at her with a smile, "so, where's the gym in this place?"

She looked at him and smiled, she was right about why they were there. "Right this way!" She said smiling at him.

She first took him to her locker, much to his surprise it contained her work out clothes and boxing gloves, and he didn't really think she was serious when she said she was serious about boxing. Either way, he knew this date would be amazing. She grabbed the clothes and boxing gloves and headed to the locker room off of the gym.

"You have something to wear? Because I really don't think you can box in that." She told him looking up at him seductively and grabbing at his tie.

"As a matter of fact I do." He said smiling down at her. He wanted to kiss her so bad, he had from the moment he met her. "I'll be right back." He told her before he gave her the deepest kiss she had ever received, and probably one of the best.

They remained smiling, but went their separate ways. By the time she was done changing her had already went down to his vehicle and changed his clothes. Did it really take her that long? No. He must have done all of that so fast to impress her.

"Alright, now I may be a girl, but DON'T go easy on me!" She told him with a smile.

"Wouldn't dream of it!" He replied though secretly he had planned on letting her win this entire time.

"Alright, let's go!" And with that it began.

As they were boxing she couldn't help but think of how much she liked Swanson, he boxed with her, he had the courage to be rough with her, and not many men would do that. She was too caught up in her thoughts to realize that he had pinned her down on the mat. Sure it hurt when he threw her down, but the pain receded when she saw him on top of her. He was straddling her at her hips and holding her wrists down. She couldn't help but giggle, she loved this.

"Well, what's it gonna take for you to let me go?" She said in a way jokingly, but still seductive.

He just laughed.

"Well?" She said smiling widely.

He bent down, let go of her wrist and put his gloves on the sides of her face, then he kissed her with enough passion to knock both of them breathless. But much a surprise to her, he didn't stop there. He let them both come up for air a few times between their incredibly passionate kisses, but he slid his hands down to either side of her ribs. She was worried their pre-make out session was over when he leaned up, but much to her surprise it was to take his gloves off, this wasn't about boxing anymore.

For some reason she had remained in the same position he had put her in before through all of his amazing kisses. He leaned forward, gave her another amazing kiss, and then slowly and gently took her gloves off. When her gloves were finally off, he began to kiss her again. She put her hands around his neck, in a way begging him to take this to the next level, he did. He began kissing her next and found the perfect place to begin sucking on her next, just behind her ear. He even took the liberty of sucking on her earlobe, and that drove her wild. Finally she whispered his name, he looked up at her, she took him by the neck and kissed him, something she had yet to do for most of the time that they spent kissing. When she decided the kiss of over he simply pulled his mouth away and she pulled their foreheads together, breathless he said what she was thinking, he wanted to go back to her apartment and take this to the next level. When he asked her if she wanted to go back, she just nodded breathlessly. He smiled, almost giggled at how breathless she was and slowly go up from on top of her, yet still holding her wrist down, and when he was finally up, he helped her up.

As she looked back on it now, she wondered why she did that. Was it the kiss? Was it the boxing? No, it was him, and the entire time she was having fun with Castle, she was dreaming of Swanson, but now she just had to break it to herself that Swanson wasn't going to come back to her.

There was something about Castle, something that Swanson didn't have that made her love him more, now she just had to do it.