Hi everyone! My muse if back and I've had a ton of ideas, including one for a new story which I've almost completely finished the first chapter.

Just as a note, a very special friend of mine and amazing writer, Goldengirl62, who recently ran into some trouble has decided to overcome the slander she was receiving and rose above it continuing her story for all of us to enjoy once more. If you have a chance read her stories, I highly recommend them, especially "Carpathian Wolf". That one had me on the edge of my seat.

Warning: there are lemons in this chapter and as always I own nothing =( sigh...

BPOV

"Jacob Black you put me down right this instant!" I tried to sound severe with my years of practice as a mother but huffed in frustration when all I got in return was a chuckle.

He brought me back to his and Billy's house, the red wooden cottage style house still felt like my home away from home. He walked up the porch and gently lowered me to the ground. I wobbled a little when my feet landed on the wooden porch after having hung upside down for those few minutes. Jake chuckled and steadied me.

"Jake, uh listen, you know I love you and I know you love me but I find it a little soon to be-"

"Don't worry Bells," he smiled my genuine Jacob smile and pulled me in for a hug.

"But all that talk about loosening up and that," god, you'd think I would be able to talk freely about sex being in my twenties and especially with Jacob who'd known me since I was small.

"They were teasing you my sweet gullible Bells," I snorted when he chuckled. "But they really do want you to be more comfortable. Don't alienate yourself from us. Let us in,"

I looked up at him, not believing how well he could read me as though I were an open book, but then I realized, imprint or not, this was Jake. Not only was he an excellent judge of character but he knew me inside out. I was never able to hide anything from him.

"Okay," I looked down, sad that I'd made the pack feel this way, "I really didn't mean to alienate everyone, it's just that it's been a such long time since I've seen all of you, and I wasn't sure if I'd be accepted by everyone. Plus it's been along time since I've allowed someone in and trusted them wholly," I looked up, expecting anything but the scheming sexy smile playing over his beautiful face.

"Well then, it looks to me like you just needed an inspiration and reminder that no matter what the circumstance, you are always welcome among us. Besides I think I've got just the plan," his eyes twinkled with secret mischief as he brought us around the back of the house to the garage.

"What are you talking about?" I laughed when he walked by me with a mischievous grin.

"Wait here I'll be right back," he walked into his house and came back with a set of keys. I knew those keys!

"Holy crap you still have the rabbit?" I couldn't believe the thing was still alive.

"Hell yeah," he lifted an eyebrow at me, his grin lifting one side of his mouth. "I worked like a dog to fix that car, she was my first," I laughed at his wistful look.

"Gees, you're starting to make me feel jealous of a car," that's when I thought of Jacob making love with a girl for the first time and I felt my heart wrench like someone were squeezing it in a vice grip. Then again who was I to judge, I had a child for crying out loud.

"Bells," I looked up and saw that his look was suddenly very serious, like he felt the change of my mood instantly. He really must have with his wolf senses. He came up to me and hugged me close to his chest. I felt his chin on my head and felt his chest expand as he took a deep breath.

"I know that look," he whispered. Sighing he continued, "I'm not going to lie to you and say I'm a virgin because I'm not," I wanted to pull back and tell that it was ridiculous that he felt the need to explain. His arms tightened around me like bands of steel. "But I wanted you to know that there's no way any of them meant anything to me compared to you, even before the imprint,"

"Them?" I my eyes widened a little and I know I must have looked more than shocked. I mean I wasn't virgin either but Kevin was my first and my last. We'd only had sex that one time and look where it got me.

"I… well… yeah, them," I could see the color drain from his cheeks when he could tell I was little more than shocked. I didn't know what to say.

"Well? Aren't you going to say anything?" his question caught me off guard but I really didn't want to spoil our night with bickering or gut wrenching confession.

"What about that plan you had?" I knew it was a lame excuse but I needed an out. Just the thought of Jacob with different women, not one, different women made me feel like heaving. I could feel the wetness of tears coming but I blinked them away rapidly hoping to god he hadn't noticed. He did.

"Oh Bells, I'm so-"

"Don't you dare do that," I put my hand in front of me, stopping him and his sentence short. "Don't you dare apologize for something like that. Jacob, I left for five years, it's only natural that you moved on in that time," I took a deep breath, talking made the tears coming closer. "I'm not saying it doesn't hurt but I have to be realistic," I took a deep breath and smiled.

"You can't just stand there and tell me that you're okay with me having been with other women, 'cause I can tell you right now, I wasn't okay at all when you told me about what's-his-face? Carl, Ken?"

"Kevin," I winced when he sneered at the name.

"Least of all that you let yourself be influenced by a prick like that and weren't careful," I knew I had no right to judge him when it came to his sexual prowess considering what I'd brought home with me, I kind of expected this talk, but it still took me by surprise, and it still shamed me to admit I'd been duped so easily.

"I know, trust me you aren't the first to tell me that nor are you the one that's given me the most grief," I sighed and sat down on the nearest object, an upside down milk crate and put my head in my hands. "Trust me, I've been my worst enemy when it comes to making sure I don't get screwed like that again,"

At my words and I guess my defeated body language, Jacob softened a little and sat on the floor in front of me and rested his head in my lap.

"I've got an idea,"

"Yeah?" I was up for anything to change the topic at point.

"Let's just start from scratch, Jacob and Bella," he leaned his head back into my lap and looked up at me with my smile. I smiled back knowing that from now on, I really could be comfortable with him, the pack without fear of being judge. Not that I was before, but there was always that black cloud looming over my head afraid of what was being said when I wasn't there.

"Sounds like a great plan, I really like it," I brushed my fingers through his hair, giggling when he literally purred. "You gonna start thumping your leg against the ground too?" He rolled his eyes at me and reached behind him. His hands closed around my waist and pulled me down so quick I never what happened. Next thing I knew I was sitting across his lap on the floor, his arms encasing me in their warmth.

"So since we're starting from scratch I thought you and I could get to know each other again,"

"But you already know me inside out," I leaned into his hand when he brushed my hair out of my eyes. The pull I felt to him was so strong, just a touch from his hand I could feel myself become putty in his hands.

"Actually I don't," he smiled sadly. "Since you've moved you've changed. You've grown up, you're stronger, determined and even more stubborn than I remember," he chuckled when I frowned at his comment.

"Oh yeah, well you haven't changed one bit," I folded my arms and leaned away from him. The minute his lips touched my temple I knew I was lost. They were so warm, so inviting, so tempting.

"Oh I have changed," he whispered against my skin. "You'll just have to find those things out for yourself," he smiled against my temple when I huffed in frustration. He was so maddening!

"Jacob, since when did you become such a tease?" I practically screeched. I could feel a blush coming on from his closeness but I didn't care. This was Jacob, my soul mate, literally speaking.

"Recently," he shrugged like it was a normal thing.

"Oh lord,"

We spent the rest of the night talking. He about things that happened here in La Push and Forks; important things, sad things, good things. I told him about London and where I traveled in my last year once I'd graduated, what I'd seen. Mostly he wanted to know how I fared being a single mom; the good times, the bad times, the hard times and when I just needed to someone to talk to.

We talked until the sun came up and we were both falling asleep, still on the floor of the garage.

"Don't you have patrol?" I yawned and stretched out next to Jake on the floor.

"Nah, Sam gave me the night and today off so I could spend it with you," I smiled happy they had Sam as a leader; someone giving, understanding and generous.

"Ummm," I snuggled into his chest and smiled when he rumbled his approval when I molded my body to his and let sleep wrap its blanket of comfort and warmth around me.

Later that morning

I woke up to the most amazing sensations. Warm soft lips were making a path up and down my neck, to my shoulders and back up to my ear. Large hands rubbed in long languorous strokes along my waist, hips and thighs.

My body, oh lord. My body was so warm, pressed up intimately against Jacob's wide hard chest, his body heat burning an imprint against my back. I stretched, my body pulling against Jacob's and I gasped in surprise when my backside came into contact with his long hard steely flesh.

Jake moaned against my neck and pulled my hips closer to him, the pressure of my backside against that hard sensitive part of him making him growl in arousal. I bit my lip, loving the effect I had on this intimidating yet beautiful specimen of a man.

"Tease," he rumbled against my neck and kissed my neck one more time before gently turning me over so he could kiss my lips. I gasped at the shock once our lips connected and instantly wanted more. I pulled him down with a hand behind his head and deepened the kiss. Our tongues battled for dominance, his hands roamed my soft curves while mine explored the hard plains of his. I draped a leg over his hips and brought him in closer with my leg. I could feel something pulling us closer and closer, urging us to continue on until what we knew was inevitable but Jake, the strongest of us two, managed to pull away and take a deep ragged breath.

At the moment all I knew, smelled, tasted, felt was him. I wanted him closer, deeper, cover myself with his scent. The mark on my hip throbbed, a delicious feeling that had stomach tied in knots, begging my body for release.

"Baby, easy," Jake smiled that beautiful sexy smile and kissed my temple. "Remember, we're going slow," he tried to pull away but I wouldn't let him.

"Fuck slow," I arched myself against him and grinned when he moaned, our bodies rubbing intimately.

"Bella, fight it for and remember you wanted to go slow," he pulled further away making my body cold instantly. I shivered at the sudden loss of body heat and then it all came back.

"Holy shit, Rafe!" I shot up off the bed and made for the door. A big warm hand wrapped around my waist and pulled me right off my feet and onto a hard warm chest.

"You may want to put some clothes on before you run out," I looked back at him and frowned not understanding when suddenly reality finally set in. I was in my bra and panties, he in his boxers and we weren't in the garage. We were in his room.

"When did all this happen?" my body went limp, as I tried to remember how in the world we went from snuggling on the floor to sleeping in his bed in our skivvies. I felt and heard his chuckles and shivered in arousal as his soft lips kissed my neck.

"You were out for the count baby, so I brought you in and undressed you in a very gentlemanly fashion, I didn't grope or fondle anything. I blushed, my body wishing he had, but my mind fell in love with him that much more for respecting me in my sleep.

"Thanks," I turned and gave him a quick peck before squirming to get down. "Down Belvedere," he growled and playfully bit my neck. I squealed and laughed, his teeth and lips tickling my sensitive flesh.

I managed to get down and quickly threw on a pair of boxers and t-shirt I found on the floor. I didn't care if that they'd been lying there, they smelled like him and were amazingly soft to the touch.

"You know, with my t-shirt on I don't think you need the boxers," leaning up against his dressed, Jake smirked and ran his heated gaze up my legs and thighs, taking in my disheveled look. "I must say, Miss Swan, you look devastatingly delicious in my clothes,"

"I try," I sighed, feigning boredom and looked at my nails, brushing them over the t-shirt. I looked up when I heard him growl and couldn't help my hunger sounds at the sight before me. I finally took him in and… wow, was all I could come up with.

He leaned lazily against his dresser, his abs flexing deliciously showing off their curves. His arms were crossed over his massive chest, the biceps bulging through the dark russet skin. His hair which was a little longer than he kept it since he'd begun phasing stuck out in every direction giving him a bedraggled 'I just had mind-blowing sex' look that made me want to jump right back on him and ride him like the animal he was.

"You keep lookin' at me like that and we won't be leaving this room for another day or two," I looked at his handsome face and literally almost came in my underwear at the look he was giving me, like I was his favorite desert he'd take his time devouring.

"I'm going to go see what's going on," I backed out of the room, keeping a close eye on him, not wanting to turn my back knowing that by doing so the anticipation for his move would kill me. He raised an eyebrow at me in question and gestured to the door with his chin.

"Don't be gone too long," I swear leaving that room was one of the hardest things I've had to do in a long time.

Once the door was closed behind me I put my back against it and breathed a sigh of relief, then I heard his slow steps as he approached the door, knowing I was on the other side. I shivered knowing he could probably smell me.

With a lot of effort I peeled myself off the door, faster when I heard him breath in long and deep and growl in satisfaction. "I'm gonna be in the shower if you need me. A cold cold shower,"

I couldn't help the giggle that escaped my lips at the almost tortured sound of his voice and finally made it to the kitchen unscathed. Billy was nowhere to be found but there was a note left for us on the table in his very clean hand writing.

"Huh, guess Jake didn't take after his father in his writing skills,"

"I heard that,"

"Sure, sure," I smiled, realizing he was rubbing off on me in more ways than one.

Hey kids,
I'm off to Sue's to meet Charlie and the little sprite.

I smiled at his nick name for Rafe.

Bella, Charlie wanted me to make sure that you used today and tonight to relax. Besides, he wants some one on one time with his grandson and my son wants some time with you.
Enjoy and let yourself be taken care of for a change girl, give my boy the benefit of the doubt. He loves more than life itself.

Lots of love, Billy xox

By the end of the letter I had a big goofy grin on my face and a light heart. I had the day with Jake! I felt like a teenager again.

I looked at their kitchen and I smiled as an idea came to me. I wanted to thank the pack for being there for me and for taking me back so readily into their big family. I looked in the fridge and saw that the food was scant. Even better, I smiled and went back to Jake's bedroom, got dressed quickly and knocked on Jake's door.

"Yeah,"

"You up for some grocery shopping?"

"You're talking to a walking stomach, what do you think?" I laughed and went out to sit on the porch and breathe in the sweet country air, the scent of the forest, the beach and the moss covered earth relaxing me. For the first time since I'd left, I felt at peace. This is what I was meant to find. This was my personal piece of heaven. And heaven he was.

Thank you to all of you who have stuck by me with my two stories. Path to Realization is coming to an end, as to whether or not there will be a spin off is to be determined. I'm not sure.

And thank you for all reviews, they're really really appreciated =) xox