Don't Leave Me
They say love keeps on growing
It's the one thing that I've felt I've always known
Cause it wouldn't matter where you're going
Cause where you are is where I wanna go
"Come on Jessica, be a strong idiot like you normally are, and keep breathing," I said as my grip on her tightened. I was in the backseat with Jessica sprawled on her back, her head on my lap and my left arm holding her close to me.
Jessica hardly moved at all, not even a flutter of her eyes. Nothing, her body simply moved with the motions of the car. Panda was driving like a nut, down the streets that led to Perdido Beach. I didn't blame him; I was just as crazy to reach the healer girl. First, make her heal Jessica, and then me. Although, it really should be me first, Jessica second.
I looked down at the deathly pale girl in my arms; the blood was down to a trickle, but her life might be as well. I closed my eyes and shook my head.
No, she's going to live; she has to.
After all, I still have a lesson to teach her about listening to me. A very long lesson that might take a whole night in my room with the door locked.
A ghost of a smile flitted past my lips as I thought of it. I pulled her in closer to me. "Jessica, you're not leaving me. Not now, not ever. Got it? I'm still the one in control, and you're gonna live because I said so. You have to."
I know why the heart gets lonely
Every time you give your love away
And if you think that you are only
A shadow in the wind
Rolling round but when you go and let somebody in
They might fade away
For a little while, I lost all hope. How couldn't I?
I lost my right arm thanks to that bastard and now I'm going to lose the only girl I could stand. Moreover, she's the only girl who stood up to me, letting me play with her a little. Without her, who's going let me prove my dominance over them?
However, all doubt flew right out of my mind when Panda said, "I see her!"
He was about to pull over, but I hissed at him, "No, not here. People will see and get suspicious. Pull around to the back alleys, we'll enter the house through there and grab her."
We drove past the confused looking girl with a mutt by her side. For a moment, I had the urge to jump out of the SUV right then and there, and make her heal Jessica right away even if people would come around to see what was going on. I could take them on, but then, I wouldn't be able to take her away to heal me. I'd just have to wait.
"Just a little longer," I muttered under my breath. "Just a little longer, Jessica, just a little longer."
Panda pulled into the back alley; once he parked the car and cut the engine, he helped me carry Jessica into the house we knew that healer girl lived in; thankfully, Panda was smart enough to count the houses, letting us know which one was hers.
We were able to get in easily because the back door wasn't locked. Immediately, I headed towards the living room, moving her around so much wasn't a good idea. Then again, a better idea would've been to have left her in the car and then lead the healer to her. Well, it was too late now.
"Slowly set her down on the couch," I whispered. "Be careful!"
Setting her down, I motioned for Panda to get out and stay by the car. Once he was gone, I knelt down by Jessica's side. The lights were off, but the moonlight spilled onto her, letting me see her. I could see her chest still moving up and down, slowly, but still moving. I leaned in closer to her mouth just to make sure she was still breathing, I just had to hear the sound.
However, before I could hear the sound, I heard the door open causing me to freeze in place momentarily. There were a few short barks followed by a voice, which I assumed was the healer's. She was in the hallway, possibly heading towards the kitchen. To reach the kitchen, she would have to pass by the living room, hopefully. At least, that's how the layout for many of these suburban houses was like.
Quickly, I moved from the couch to the doorway and waited quietly for her to pass by. Once I was sure of her position, I kicked the door open and aimed the gun right at her head. I grimaced at her, "You better pray you can heal bullet wounds."
Tell me why the road keeps turning
When everything you want is straight ahead
And everything I thought worth learning
Is forgotten when I see your face instead
"We have to take out the bullet first," Lana said hurriedly.
"Why?" I kept a steady aim right at her dog's head.
"I can't heal over a bullet," she snapped, but kept her head down as if that would keep me from killing her. Of course, I would kill her, but I needed her right now. If Caine has taught me anything, it's never kill what you have use for. That's why he was still keeping Jessica around, he still had use of her but she was mine. Even if he didn't use her, she'll always be mine; I'll always have some use for her.
However, all those thoughts vanished when I heard Jessica whimper in pain once again. I looked over and saw Lana using knife and the end of a spoon to dig out the bullet; Jessica was beginning to thrash around keeping Lana from taking the bullet out.
"What are you doing? You're hurting her even more!" I yelled tensely.
"If you want the job done, just keep your mouth shut and get over here to hold her down," she growled keeping at her work, blood spilling all over her hands. I walked over, keeping my gun at my side, and held down Jessica's lower body with my one good arm and my own body. However, within a minute, the bullet was out and she was healing the wound.
Lana pulled away, her face ghostly white as she looked at her hands covered in Jessica's blood. However, I focused on the pale weakling on the couch; her breathing became steady, but her eyes were wide-open, meaning she hadn't passed out from the pain or the massive blood loss. It was a wonder she was even alive.
"Jessica, close your eyes and get some sleep," I sighed, slightly angry with her for putting me through this trouble. She turned her large red-rimmed eyes to me and I can see that she will be losing consciousness soon enough; the brightness in them were dimming from pure exhaustion, who knows how she was even able to keep her eyes open, much less murmur.
I knelt at her side, trying to understand what she was saying.
"Stay with me," her weak voice said. "Don't leave, no sleep. He comes in dream."
I frowned. "What are you talking about?"
"No, no…" her eyes fluttered closed, but she gripped onto my left hand, my only hand, very tightly. It was almost as if she was afraid to go to sleep, but why would she be afraid of sleep? I stood up completely confused. However, I didn't think about her long when I saw Lana inch away slowly out of the corner of my eye.
I grimaced as I turned around and raised my gun at her. "Where do you think you're going?"
I know why the heart gets lonely
Every time you give your love away
And if you think that you are only
A shadow in the wind
Rolling round but when you go and let somebody in
They might fade away
We were heading back to Coates so that that healer girl can get me back my arm. I needed my arm back, I wanted my arm back; how can I possibly take control with just one arm? Well, I could still control people just fine with one but I wanted both so that I could strangle Sam.
Lana was sitting rigidly beside Panda, as I sat in back seat with Jessica in my lap, dead asleep, but every now and then, she would let out a little whimper as if in pain. I frowned at her, wondering if it was her dreams causing this; however, what kind of dreams?
Was she having nightmares? Were they about me?
I clenched my jaw as I thought about her having nightmares with me as the villain. However, didn't I always want to be the villain who wins in the end, the person with the most power with everyone under his ruling? Yes, no doubt about it, I wanted the ultimate power.
However, did I want Jessica to think of me that way? Of course, she'll always be under my control.
'What if she doesn't want that?' a voice said; I could've sworn I've gotten rid of it years ago.
I ignored it, since that's how I made it leave me alone before. After all, it already knew my answer. Jessica would never let me have control over her, but she's separate from everyone else in this hellhole. She's under my control, but in a different category from everyone else.
Still, was I her worst nightmare?
This thought didn't make me as happy as I thought it would, not with her at least.
Jessica's grip on my shirt tightened, she began to twitch, her eyelids quivering, her whimpers becoming cries.
What am I doing to her? I frowned as I looked down at her.
I tried to calm her by pushing back her hair from her face as I've seen other people do a few times before. However, that didn't work; yet, I didn't know what else I could do. What do I do in this situation? I'm not the 'comforting, make everything better' type. I'm the 'kill what's hurting me' type.
However, I shook those thoughts away when I heard Jessica cry out, "No! I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"
"What are you doing to her?" Lana asked accusingly, turning around in her seat to look at me. I shot her a glare.
"Nothing," I snapped, but I returned my attention to Jessica. "She's having a bad dream."
'Where you're hurting her' that voice said from the back of my head.
"No, I'm not!" I shouted, causing Panda and Lana to jump. However, neither said anything because they were too scared of being shot down by me. Although, I wouldn't have cared if they did say anything, Jessica's constant moving was making it difficult for me to keep her from falling onto the car floor.
Maybe I should just wake her up, but she really needed the sleep. Yet, I only have one hand to keep her in place, which is very difficult to do…but she's had a long day since yesterday.
The dark bags under her eyes were still there, her cheeks still hallowed and gaunt. Yet, as fragile as she looked, I knew better. She was a strong girl, but something was breaking her strength; that something that was most likely me.
Well, that's what she gets for staying with me.
All you say is so overrated
Holding on to yesterday
Along the way, it can get too complicated to say
"Jessica." I shook her shoulder with my only hand. "Jessica, wake up. You're having a nightmare."
Nothing happened, Jessica kept whimpering as if she were a dog begging for food. What was going on?
"Jessica! Wake up!" I said louder this time. I looked up at Lana, who was watching with a look of confusion and fear. With my lips pulled back, I snarled, "Stop staring and help me wake her up!"
I could see she was unsure of what to do when she looked at the dashboard, but finally, she jumped into the middle seats with something in her hands. With just the light of the moon, I could make out the shape of a bottle. Without warning, she poured the contents of the bottle all over Jessica's face and my pants.
"What the fuck!" I yelled jumping a little at the feeling of cold water all over my privates and running down my leg. However, Jessica sat up coughing and sputtering.
Just as I was about to give her a piece of my mind for all the trouble she's still causing me, I smirked when she turned to Lana and growled, "What the fuck is your problem!"
Lana sat back shocked. Her mouth gaped open and close, she was trying to say something, but it wasn't coming to her. In the end, she spluttered, "I just saved you from a…nightmare."
"Oh…" Jessica lowered her eyes to the ground. I frowned, expecting a little more yelling from her, but she simply whispered, "Thank you."
I know why the heart gets lonely
Every time you give your love away
And if you think that you are only
A shadow in the wind
You better think again
Jessica kept her eyes casted downward, intentionally avoiding my intense gaze. When I realized that she wasn't going to be looking at me anytime soon, I said, "We're driving to Coates right now, but once we get there, you're going to go my room and stay there until the healer bitch fixes up my arm."
She kept her head down. I looked at her for a moment longer before turning away to look out at the dark emptiness. However, my snapped back to her when I heard her say, "I want to go home."
I know why the heart gets lonely
Every time you give your love away
And if you think that you are only
Flowers in the wind
Blowin' round the wind
You let somebody in they might fade away
I rolled my eyes. "We're going 'home'-
"No." She wouldn't look at me. "I want to go home, Drake, my home…"
Fade away...
Is Jessica leaving Drake? What will Drake do? Will he make her stay or just let her go?
Thank you ThexHushxSound, Armygirl0604, boston15, and Caris for the reviews on the last chapter~! You're all amazing and wonderful people ^_^
Special thank you to Caris for pointing out the mistakes to make this chapter perfect for all of you~ =)
Also thank you those who gave me some song ideas, really helped out for future chapters. Although, if anyone of you guys have any more suggestions, it would be wonderful
Oh, don't own Gone or the song I Know Why by Sheryl Crow~
Okay, Armygirl0604 pointed out that part of this chapter was kind of similar to a chapter in another story called The Sharpest Lives by Hyperactive Lioness and T-T I would like to say this was completely accidental! I'm incredibly sorry, so did not mean to do that, it just happened.