-1DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN DEGRASSI OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS
CHAPTER 3
Emma took the blanket out of her book bag and spread it over the ground as the afternoon sun continued to shine. The snow had melted a couple of weeks ago but the ground was fairly solid as there had been a cold snap the last couple of days. She knew a winter picnic sounded like an odd idea but had really wanted to talk to Sean alone in a place where hopefully no one would interrupt them.
Sean helped Emma spread out the blanket and sat down in the middle of it and watched as she unpacked the rest of the contents of her book bag. She pulled out two empty paper cups and a thermos. She then pulled out a baggie full of trail mix and playfully threw it at Sean who almost missed catching it. "Hey you wouldn't happen to have any double bacon cheeseburgers in that book bag would you?" he asked.
"Not likely." Emma replied. He respected the fact that Emma chose to not eat meat. He just knew that was one thing that would never change about him. He loved cheeseburgers and steak and wasn't planning on giving them up anytime soon. He would however settle for the trail mix this afternoon. After all he should start thinking about eating healthier. He needed to have energy and be in shape for the military.
Emma poured the glasses of hot chocolate, passed one to Sean and sat down across from him. She hoped that she would have the courage to say everything she wanted to say to him. She looked at him before she spoke. He seemed a bit nervous today. She knew he had been through a lot in his life and was tougher on the outside than anyone else she knew. But she knew him on the inside as well. On the inside she knew he was nervous and scared of what today's conversation may bring.
She set down her cup of hot chocolate and moved closer to him so she was sitting directly in front of him. She placed her hands on his and looked him straight in the eye. His eyes were amazing. She decided she better speak before she lost the nerve to say what she was about to say.
"Sean, you know why we're here today. To talk about our future. Basically to decide if we're going to stay together or if we're going to go our separate ways." Sean looked down for a moment. It saddened him to even think of the possibility of breaking up. He looked back up at her and tried to be strong as she continued to speak. "I've had a few days to think about this. I'm going to be honest and say that when I first heard about your decision to join the military a few weeks ago I wasn't the least bit impressed. I was scared because I thought I was pregnant and the thought of you leaving was too much. Then I when found out I wasn't pregnant I just got selfish. I didn't want you to leave and if you decided to leave I didn't want to be with you. I thought how could I be with you if you were going to leave me again." Emma paused for a moment.
"Em, does this mean you want to break…." Emma interrupted Sean before he could say the final word. She saw a tear in his eyes. This was really getting to him.
"Sean, I have more to say. Right now I need you to listen and let me say everything on my mind." Sean nodded his head and Emma continued speaking. "After we left the dance Friday night I started thinking about how selfish I was being. You have always supported me with everything I have done. When I wanted to save the environment you spent your lunch hour out here at the Ravine picking up garbage even though it wasn't the coolest way you could be spending your lunch hour. When I give you a hard time about throwing things in the garbage that could have been recycled you never complain. I know the names they call me around school "Cause girl" and Jay's little nickname for me "Greenpeace" For a girl with those nicknames you would think I could be a little more supportive towards my boyfriend who decided to be patriotic and serve his country. All you've ever wanted is for me to be happy. Now it's your turn to be happy Sean and I'm not going to stand in the way of that. I don't want you to have to think back in a couple of months and wonder if you made the right decision by joining the military and leaving me behind. Does it suck that you are going to be going to boot camp in a couple of weeks and then after that have to do six months of training to become a mechanic with the army? Of course it does. It sucks knowing that you'll be miles away and I won't be able to hug or kiss you anytime I want. Will I continue to love you and support you while you start this journey, of course I will. Will I be here waiting for you when you come back? Of course I will. I love you Sean Cameron and I'm not about to let 9 months and a few hundred miles get in the middle of that."
A smile came across Sean's face as he took in everything Emma had just said to him. "Really Em, your in this for the long term?"
"Sure am hun!" Emma replied. Sean couldn't believe it! He was so happy with her decision to be apart of this new chapter in his life. He laid down on the blanket and pulled Emma down so she was lying next to him. He ran his fingers through her hair and kissed her on the forehead . Sean hoped they didn't have any interruptions while making out in the ravine this time.