Slinky Down the Stairs
Is it good?
To stand where I stand
To be Me
That likes to play Slinky
First waving over in silver bridges
Only to slam against a stair
Collapse and shrink, shrink, shrink
Then backbend over again
Rebirth
Leads into the crumple, the scramble
Find my feet
Tip over the edge
Hope that this time around
I'll fly
Instead of hit the floor
The Me that is whole
Perfectly licked, sealed, and stamped
Not a cloud in the sky
Not a chip in the polish
Appears full moon shine
Whenever and always
Cam says I'm his girl
Whenever his one green eye smiles
While the blue other winks
Whenever that last, winning goal
Kisses the net in honor
Of whole and happy
Me
The Me that is broken
Shattered glass
Cracked egg
Peeling away, layer by layer
Appears all too often
Ultra-violet power
Whenever and always
Candies trade sides
Whenever I'm the evil stepmother to his baby
Whenever he cozies up to replacement blondes
Smashes gifts
Dodges arrows
And makes me fall to sleep
In tears
Cam can be lovely
All smiles
Red roses
Sweetly-sent IMs
And because he is so lovely
That when he trips up
Or when I trip up
And things seem to explode
I can't help but to lose that grip
Massie insists I must never let go
But how I can help from crying
When the boy that belongs to my side
As if we were two magnetic halves
Of a whole
Tries to find someone better
Doesn't always chin me up
But crash me down
I know it isn't his fault
It's mine and ours both
We're just so...so
Confusing
But I still wish
I wasn't Me
Who needed the someone who hurt her most
Who forgave and forgot
The scars that really dug deep
I wish that Me, that I, that whatever
Would pick
Up or down
Would either stay soaring
Be with the Cam that captured her smiles
Or simply stick to the ground
Say enough is enough
Clean a slate and refuse to scratch him back
Impossible, of course.
Cam is now
A part of Me
I couldn't erase him if I tried
But even though things are
Today
Golden and Cloud Nine
Tomorrow I'm sure
Will send me puffy-eyed and stuffy-nosed
Running all the way home
From the big bad Cam I love
Like the last little pig.