Dear journal,
You know the whole thing about being pregnant at school? People stare. It doesn't help that you have six little ones in you that make it look like your 5 months instead of two.
Everything is going goods. The morning sickness started and Ricky has been with me 100%. I only go to school for another month until I graduate but the doctor doesn't know if I will make it.
I'm trying hard not to just give up. I try so hard. The little ones are already wearing me out. But although I have trouble sleeping and morning sickness I'm going ok.
Home life isn't doing well. Mom and dad's relationship is going in the tank it's been for a while now. I just made it worse. Ashley isn't helping either. She is acting this way, I think, because nothing is all about her. I wish it was I hate attention. As I write in you I notice Ricky is writing in his also.
I know what you're thinking, "my how are doing a guy that write in a diary" well for your information we were told to write in it these for many reasons. The first person that told me to write in this was the therapist she said that it will help us with our feelings that we can't share with others. The doctor wanted me to write in this for any questions, pain and anything else I thought she needed to know. Then my parents wanted me to right in this so we would remember this time in our life when we are old.
Well therapist… I am in a great tired mood yaya…
Doctor… morning sickness but fine…
And old me... even though this is tough and going to be hard... I love every minute of it.
Well school is almost over so I'm going to go home and sleep :).
Night and much love,
Amy
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Dear man book,
Yes that is what I'm going to call you is my man book. I'm not going to call you some stupid chicks name (no offence) whoever is reading this you are problem trying to figure out why I'm writing this. But to tell you I'm doing this for Amy and my babies. They deserve to know what's going on in my head. But I still think it stupid.
So far everything is going good for me. I'm kind of enjoying it I mean the helping caring part I finally realize I'm actually needed and going to be needed in this world. And I'm not just wasted space. But enough with all this soft guy stuff and all my "emotions".
Just a random thought I wonder how these people in my class are seniors. I mean there's this Jim guy and he is picking his nose. Note to self: raise kids not to pick nose. Then there's this cheerleader replying her makeup. Did I mention it was the end of the day? Ya I know! Then I look over at my little family: yes I'm calling then that deal with it!
Well doctors. Therapist and old me here is what is happing now:
Yo docs. I'm fine. Amy is not as fine. She is tossing and turning at night. And she has these wired cravings. Last night it was liver onions and ketchup. Gross. And she is having morning sickness, and night sickness. Is that even normal?
Mr. Therapist dude for you information my emotions are all I'm tack. Amy on the other hand…. I really hope that A. she is writing the same thing or B. she doesn't read this… is driving me nuts with the roller costar of emotions.
And future me… remember as much as you can and go easy on the kids they're the best thing that has ever happened... oh no the mushy guy is back got to go before he takes over…
Peace out,
Ricky
P.s: Amy if you are reading this I love you even if I right some crazy things about you... Love you baby!
Finally a new chapter! Sorry for the wait has been supper busy and too lazy to type it up. I give you the right to get mad at me whenever you want : ) Also I have the names that I picked! Here they are… 5 boys 1 girl (that had the most requests) and the names and the person I got then from…
Issac Michael: Chipotle
Liam James: Chipotle
Ethan Marcus: First: Mrs. Marshal Matters Middle: -Fallen-Angle-girl-27-
Owen Lucas: First: Lily Middle:-o0o-Naley-o0o-
Blake Justin: Kashorses
Gracelynne Mae: secretlifeaddicted4444
Thank you for everyone that submitted name I love them all! Also the last name is Underwood. Sorry for the long note: ) next time please send me emails harassing me to hurry up with an update it will make them come faster! Happy Thanksgiving all!
Much Much Love 3,
*Babygirl717