Chapter 4: I've ruined everything

Haley awoke the next morning laying in the king size bed alone. She never felt more embarrassed than she did this morning. Haley couldn't believe she threw herself at Nathan like that last night. 'so much for giving Nathan space'

She was hot and cold when it came to her decisions. One minute she wanted to give Nathan space and the next she just simply wanted him. This vacation was going to be harder than she thought.

Nathan was still sleeping, she could hear his light snores. Some people found snoring annoying but to Haley his snoring was music to her ears. Haley remembered when she was on tour Chris used to make fun of her because she would explain how she couldn't sleep without hearing the sound. Haley of course missed many other things about Nathan as well.

He meant the world to her, didn't he understand that? The tour was a moment in her life she needed to explore, to see if she was good enough to make it. The tour had nothing to do with Chris or him.

Haley could hear footsteps coming up the stairs. At first she didn't think nothing about it, until she realized nobody needed to come up to the three floor unless they wanted her or Nathan.

'What if it's Royal or Grandma Mel?' Haley freaked. Sure Nathan did not want to share a bed with her but she never anticipated they would come up to the room. 'Great our cover is blown'. Unless she got Nathan to wake up, they were screwed. It wasn't the easiest thing to wake Nathan Scott up.

"Nathan…" Haley whispered from across the room, "Nathan!" she voiced louder. She didn't want the person outside to hear her. She threw her pillow at him but it did nothing.

Haley got out of bed and walked over to him, "Nathan!" she began to shake him but nothing. 'Gosh, I could've been walking around our apartment naked and he would've missed out every time'.

Naked.

Haley began to remember that the only time she could wake Nathan was with a sexually gesture. Sure, she couldn't do that anymore but she could figure something out.

She sat on the couch and began to stoke his buzz cut hair with her fingers, he always loved that. She loved it too. Haley pushed her upper body onto him hoping her movements could cause him some friction. "Hey you, wake up," she wispered in a soft tone.

Haley was so close to him, she wasn't sure if she could handle it. He smelled incredible.

"Hmm… haley…"

It seemed to work, "yes, its Haley, wake up!"

His body shifted to the other side of her, "hmm… Haley, that feels so good. Don't stop."

Haley looked at him odd, this wasn't Nathan. 'Is he still sleeping?'

"Nathan, c'mon wake up, please. Somebody's outside and they're going to come in here any minute."

"Hmm, yeah… ill get up for my shower… just five more minutes baby."

Now Haley knew he must've still been sleeping. That was usually their morning routine, it took teeth and nails to wake him and he would always ask for five more minutes.

"Nathan, you can have five more minutes. Hell, you can have one more hour but somebody is outside!"

"What?" Nathan jumped right up, "Hmm, what's going on? Why are you over here?"

The look Nathan was giving her now compared to two seconds ago him calling her 'baby' hurt her, "I didn't mean to wake you but somebody is coming upstairs and unless you want our cover to be blown, can you please come join me in my bed. I know you don't want to be near me but-"

"Yeah, that's fine Haley."

He walked over to the bed and joined her. He went to turn his back to her but remembered it was suppose to be believable, "come here." Haley gave him a confused look, "Haley, just come. Married couples cuddle, right?"

She slide over to his side, took a deep breath and went into his arms. At first he was stiffed, she could sense he was uncomfortable but then he began to relax and placed his arm over her stomach. She soon relaxed after he did.

Haley forgot how good it felt to be in his arms again. She couldn't control her body, it snuck further into his embrace and was surprised when his hold on her tighten.

"Are you okay?" Nathan whispered. He couldn't tell if she was nerves or not.

"Yeah," she paused and then looked over her shoulder at him, 'God, he's so beautiful. This is unfair. "Are you?" Nathan nodded.

Haley couldn't hear the footsteps anymore but she wasn't about to tell Nathan that and lose this feeling, she began to drift off to sleep.

"Nathan? Sweetie?" Knock. Knock. "Are you and Haley up?" Grandma Mel opened the door to their bedroom, assuming if it was unlock they were decent.

"Mel, you can't just walk into two young teenagers bedroom like this. What if they're having sex?"

Nathan let out a small chuckle, his grandpa was crazy. He could sense Haley went back to sleep awhile ago and if she didn't have to deal with his grandparents, he wouldn't either. He pretended he was asleep.

"Oh Royal, they would've locked the door if they were having sex. We would've heard them when we reached the door."

Nathan had to bite his lips from laughing, 'They're right though, Haley is loud… Nathan, don't go there. It'll only kill you.'

"Oh for christ sakes Mel!"

"Awe, look Royal. They're still sleeping." Royal rolled his eyes, "If only our son knew how to appreciate Deb the way Nathan does for Haley."

Royal rolled his eyes again, "They're sleeping Mel, nothing to go crazy about."

"I know but," Mel paused to collect her thoughts. "It's the way he's holding her, their love will last a lifetime."

"Oh Mel, stop it. You cannot sense that from him holding her, geez! Lets go, they're sleeping, we'll come back in an hour."

After they closed the door Nathan was going to wake Haley and tell her they were home free. He noticed she was in a deep sleep though and didn't want to disturb her.

'God Haley you smell amazing, you feel amazing, you look amazing…'

Her looks changed when she returned from the tour. Her hair was more blonde, her outfits were more reveling. She was just… incredibly sexy.

She came back different. At first Nathan hated it. He thought Chris changed her, Chris took his incredible, amazing wife from him and sent her back a changed person… she wasn't the girl he fell in love with.

But it wasn't that.

He began to notice Haley was just more confident, more sexy, more comfortable in her own skin. She was just… a woman. Nathan knew Haley was always more advance for their age, way more mature than any girl in tree hill, he never thought of her as a child or anything but when she returned to Tree Hill there was just this new glow about her that screamed woman.

In a way Nathan almost fell more in love with her…

'almost…'

Nathan held her tighter, if that was possible and fell asleep nuzzling his nose in her neck.

Haley awoke a while later, not because she wanted to but because the sun was glaring right in her face, "ugh" she shifted her body to hide her face but crashed into a rock. 'what the hell' she looked up and realized it was Nathan's body.

She couldn't believe it. This had to be a dream she thought. Nathan was holding her while he slept. It was what she wanted for months, to be in his arms again.

Haley laid their for a few minutes watching him, enjoying the bliss of the moment. He was laying on his side, his legs tangled in hers. He was sleeping in his plaid boxers, the blanket was hanging off his body, leaving a sneak peak for Haley. 'How does his body get better looking each year? stupid work out!'

She was about to touch him, when the door flew open.

"Oh my god, you guys are put in a room for one night and you're already having sex. I hope you don't think this mean he loves you Haley, if anything, he's just horny."

Haley moved her hand from touching him, and pulled herself out of his embrace, "Dan you ever hear of knocking?"

"No, I thought the whore house was down the street."

Nathan's eyes flicker opened, "Hmm, Haley," He opened his eyes to see her sitting up. 'God that tattoo…' Nathan heard another voice in the room and turned around, "God, Dad, get out!"

Nathan yanked the blankets to cover him and Haley up, although they weren't naked, he was topless and she was in a tank top. He didn't want this image for his father to see, "don't you know what privacy is?"

"Privacy? Your marriage was broadcast to the world when rock star here cheated on you."

Haley looked down, 'God, how am I suppose to get Nathan to trust me again, when he has somebody throwing Chris in his face every two seconds?' Nathan looked over and saw Haley's disappointment, "Dad, go!"

"Your mother told me to come wake 'the lovebirds' up. Get up!" Dan went to walk away, "And shower. Nobody wants to smell the skank."

Nathan jumped out of bed to shut the door in his father's face. He could hear Dan laughing down the hallway, "Haley, I'm so sorry. Please don't listen to him."

"He's right."

"Haley, no, he's not." Nathan returned to the bed, sitting at the end of it. "You're not a skank," He placed his hand on her leg, not sure how he should comfort her anymore. "He has no clue what he's talking about. We fell asleep, it's no big deal."

"No, about our marriage. I've ruined everything."

Nathan wasn't sure what to tell her. Sure it would've been easy to say, 'No, you didn't. Let's work on our marriage.' But he didn't want to lie to her because truthfully he was more confused now than he ever was about what he wanted.

A/B: I'm back. I'm so sorry about leaving you guys high and dry. Life gets crazy, I lose inspiration and then I'm not so sure where I want to take things. But 42 reviews for only three chapters? That's a lot! The reviews made me want to return. I really hope I finish this story. I don't want to promise anything, I know this chapter is short but I'm trying to get back into things. I've been writing other stories, one has 6 chapters that I'm really proud of and into. I won't post it until I have more chapters, so I won't leave you guys high and dry again. Plus, I hope the story helps me with writing this one. Thank you to my loyal readers, you're the best.

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