i woke the next morning and put on the outfit alice had picked out for me it was a dress with a note that said
Dear Bella When you get up put this outfit on and come to this adress 4789 forton rd p.s take the jimmy ;) ALICE
i walked out to the garage and noticed a black shiny car that read jimmy on the side ''wow'' i muttered i wondered what alice had planned
i got to the address and walked into a MALL ! this mall was not average it was huge bigger than carlsiles house and his house is big
''HOLY CROW'' i muttered as i walked into this mall that could fit 5.0000 people possibly more i looked around until i noticed a spikey haired girl sitting at the food court
with jasper holding 5 bags ''hi guy's'' i muttered as i sat next to alice ''where's emmett edward and rosalie ?'' i said wondering if they were here at all
''rose is at the makeup counter emmett and edward are playing games'' alice said looking exited to shop i knew what was on her mind even a mind reader didn't have to guess that
jasper looked bored like he could fall asleep right here right now ''so alice why am i wearing this dress ?'' i asked honestly confused
''esme's having a cookout you needed to look nice'' alice said
after 40 long minutes of shopping we left the mall and went home esme's cookout only lasted an hour and that was probly because rosalie ran over the hot dog buns with her motorcycle
an ant landed on alice and a wasp was flying around emmett so it ended earlier than it should have once we went home i went to my room and changed into pajamas alice and rosalie were watching a movie about vampires
so they would scream everytine id showed blood i went in the bathroom to brush my teeth and i couldn't get the door open the creepy thing was no one was in there
i got an expected call from aunt libby for the first time ''how are you and emmett ?'' aunt libby asked never just asking about me for a change
''good'' i answered '' are you sure you seem a little jumpy'' libby asked
''what do you mean ?'' i asked playing dumb
''well i mean i asked you a question a few seconds ago and you screamed is something wrong bella ?'' libby asked
''No'' i said simply
''are you sure ?'' she asked
''i'm fine'' i said
''how about you ?'' i asked not really intrested in her questions anymore
''i'm stronger now'' she said i was confused
''i don't mean strong like muscles i mean like i moved on'' she said
''moved on ?'' i asked
''from your mothers death'' she said
''oh yeah that'' i said acting as if i forgot but what am i saying i could never forget i killed my own mother death written all over my hands guilt written all over my face
''well bye'' i said simply
''yeah bye'' libby said
i spent all night thinking about libbys words i moved on.......i'm stronger now........your mothers death
those words will haunt me forever........i had a dream that night i was standing in a dark forest bleeding wounded almost dead............
''AHHHHHH !!!'' i woke up screaming only to realize i was on the couch and the boys were here edward rushed over beside me and held my face in his hands
''i'm a killer'' i muttered
''no it was just a dream bella'' edward said trying to make me less scared
''i KILLED my mother !'' i yelled at edward edward looke at me disbelief written all over his face i was crying now
''i didn't mean to'' i said crying and trying to breath
i felt like i was drowning drowning in my mother drowning in my guilt...
NEXT CHAPTER. i'm sorry for this..