Ch5 – Holding on

I don't own glee or the characters, I just play around with them

this was supposed to be a little part of Chapter 5 but it came out bigger than I expected, it's a bit short, so it could be considered a bit filler, I'm hoping to update tomorrow night with what comes next

again if you see any spelling or grammar errors let me know

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A small ray of sun lay on her face waking her up, her head felt like exploding, she started to rub her temples as the memories of the night before started filling her head, and that's when she realized the sound of her shower, she stood up wrapped her robe to her body and made her way to the kitchen started making some coffee and started to dial

"Hello?" a sleepish voice came out from the other end of the phone

"Cam, It's me Rachel"

"Why I'm not surprised, only YOU could call me this early"

"I don't know what to do" she simply said ignoring her friend's last statement

"about what?" se replied confused "what happened?"

"It's Kevin"

"What about him? What happened on your date? Don't tell me YOU ruined it?"

Rachel stood there for a few seconds silent trying to figure out her answer, of course she'd ruin it, it was her Rachel Berry, by now she was kind of an expert on ruining things with guys, specially the ones she liked

"Rach, are you still there?"

"Um... yes.. I just..."

"You are worrying me spit it out already"

"I had way too much wine last night and one thing lead to an other, I practically threw myself to him, I'm a slut, that's what I am, I always ruin everything, what was I thinking? Jumping in to things like that, this is going way to fast" she blurted out, she feelt herself losing her breath and started to panic now that she said everything out loud.

"Listen to me, you are not a slut, save the drama for your shows, where is he now?"

"taking a shower"

"OK, now breathe, just like I taught you and under any circumstance freak out like that on him, OK?"

She nooded lightly, and attempted to breath in and out slowly don't freak out, don't freak out she repeated whispering trying to gain some courage

"Rachel now listen, I know for a fact this guy really likes you, and I've never seen you so interested on someone before,... just try to be honest... but be nice"

"Ok"

Her breathing was now slowing and the panic was almost gone, she would not be in good shape if it wasn't for Cam, she poured herself a cup of coffee and started to chop some fruit for breakfast, she was halfway through when the footsteps she was fearing the most this whole time started to make their way to the kitchen

"Good morning" he simply said looking at her with a big smile in his lips, needless to say he did looked handsome, without a word she filled a cup for him and took it to him not wanting to look in to his eyes just yet, he took the cup from her hands and leaned to give her a small kiss, she made her way to the kitchen

"Do you want to eat something?" she asked "I have fruit, and I recently discovered the best Soy Yogurt around"

"Sounds great" he simply said, she could see the worried look on his face

"Listen..." she placed herself in front of him as he sat in the kitchen bar

"um... last night... was... well it was... great" she looked over trying to decipher the look on his eyes, hoping he'd say something, but he didn't

"... and I like you but..." she could see a frown forming on his lips.

"I really want to take things slow..." she said looking at the coffee table where the empty bottles of wine laid, He reached out for her hand...

"It's ok, I understand, I really like you Rachel, nothing is going to change that" he simply said smiling a little, she was pleasantly surprised about his reply, she felt herself smiling while they ate breakfast, maybe this wasn't going to end badly, the fact that she saw Finn constantly last night didn't mean that she didn't liked the guy in front of her, she liked him a lot, maybe this little Finn phase would go away, it always did.

"So, you think is a good idea?" she asked hopeful

He was in other world, ever since he saw her, well, in the flesh his mind kept going there, to her face, her smile, and how different but the same she looked, he spend last couple of days daydreaming and wondering if she'd been in all this places they'd been... and Lauren had been so into the New York experience she didn't even really noticed his constantly daydreaming, or at least not most of the time, they were now walking over the Brooklyn Bridge and he obviously wasn't paying attention, his mind were on tonight's plans

"um... er... what?" he looked over to see the annoyed face of the girl now standing in front of him

"Finn, what's wrong with you today?"

"Nothing, sorry Babe, I just... got distracted"

"Look if you are tired, we can go and rest a little bit, our show is tonight and I don't want you sleeping during the play"

"Oh no, I'm fine, I won't" he simply leaned to give her a peck on the lips knowing that'd be good enough to distract her

He'd been really nervous about this particular night, it was Rachel's territory and his mind was going on circles, one part of him wanted to keep away and avoid her at all costs but there was this other part that hoped he'd see her again, even for a second that's all he needed, then maybe he would be able to continue with his moving on process that that Rachel Berry had come to ruin without even knowing . She showed up out of nowhere and succeeded on troubling his mind...he didn't bring himself to think about the guy, the lucky bastard that got to have the most beautiful girl on the planet with him, he was probably a wealthy man, smart enough to keep up with the complicated girl that was Rachel Berry, he never admitted it out loud but he knew he'd never be good enough for her, her goals, her dreams had always been bigger than him, she said it herself. And it still made his heart turn a little with pain.

"Finn!" she called out "Are you ready?"

He stared at the reflection on the mirror, he wasn't sure he liked the person who was in front of him, he again felt like he was cheating on Lauren and he felt guilty, but took a deep breath and tried to make up a smile

"Let's go!" he said coming out the bathroom, he tried to avoid her gaze, but the moment he saw her, Finn knew he had to make it right, this night had to be perfect.

"You look beautiful" he simply said giving her a big smile

Rachel wasn't ruining his night, he couldn't let her do that, not after all this years...

thanks for reading like I said I'll do my best to post the other bit tomorrow

I already have a plan of when we'll find out what happened, at first it was going to be a little memory sequence, but the more I think it the more I believe the whole memory should be a hole chapter... thoughts?