Wow, why is angst the most read thing on fan fiction? Lol, I just noticed that lol. Oh well I aint complaining you people rock thanks

I'm not too sure if she is just depressed, probably though. Hopefully this will turn out well.

Okay you know the drill What team? WILDCATS! What team? WILDCATS! Wildcats, get your head in the game.

That is so much fun to say. Enjoy will start slowly bringing in wildcats. Oh and I never looked up the lyrics, I'm curious if I got it down by memory.

Troy's POV:

I can't believe I just promised to keep this to myself.

How am I supposed to keep this a secret? Gabi has turned to the window and I sneak glances at her.

She looks calm but I can't help but wish I knew what she was thinking.

She probably misses her mom. *mentally smacks himself* Of course she does Bolton. How could I not see this?

This is really the first time I've seen her since the funeral. I just thought she was safe and happy as always.

Why am I always so stupid? It took her leaving summer year eleventh grade to realize I had been a huge egotistic jerk to everyone including her.

I think I still am which is scary. I'm so busy always trying to be dad's shining star to be a great boyfriend.

I see her glance at her arm as I sneak a peek at her.

She looks sad. I think we both seen the last of whatever that Gabi was in her room. I have to make her happy.

"Living in my own world didn't understand that anything can happen when you take a chance" I sing softly.

"I never believed in what I couldn't see, I never opened my heart to all the possibilities" Gabi joined in.

She looked at me as she sang with her beautiful angelic voice. Still the same beautiful girl I met new years eve three years ago.

I smiled. "I know that something has changed"

"Never felt this way" she smiled back. I opened all the windows and she grinned

"And right here tonight….this could be the start of something new it feels so right to be here with you ooh" we sang loudly.

"And now looking in your eyes I feel in my heart ooh the start of something new"

Gabi giggled as we died down after the chorus. "There's that pretty smile" I said.

"Yeah…too bad it has to disappear" she said and sure enough the smiled faded.

"Gabs…"

"Troy please…we're not children anymore…we can't….we can't be so childish" she said.

Well that just sucked all the fun out of our no music karaoke.

I pouted and she rolled her eyes. "Troy…"

"No" I said stubbornly. "No I won't just stop doing stuff I love because you say it's childish" I said quite firm and stubbornly.

She shook her head and sighed.

"Troy…" she said my name again and I scoffed.

She sighed again. "You're right and I'm sorry I didn't mean that…I…I think I'm becoming my old self again" she whispered.

"You…you mean…" I stuttered. I couldn't bring up what I saw again. I couldn't call her Emo she was perky Gabby.

She shook her head. "Not…not whatever that was…" she said and then sighed and became quiet.

"Then what? Gabs please talk to me" I begged. We were getting close to our destination and I was afraid when I parked she'd clam up.

"The lonely quiet girl who's best friends were her books" she said with a shrug.

"That's…" I began but I couldn't finish it. I couldn't say it wasn't true because to be honest I think it was.

"It is" she insisted as though she read my thoughts.

"When we met I had kind of been forced to attend the party…my mom thought it'd be good for me…I guess it was" she said and smiled a genuine smile.

"If it weren't for you…" she said and trailed off and her eyes fell on her arm.

I shuddered not even wanting her to finish that thought. Was she really that lonely?

I realized now she probably was. We both were only children but unlike her I had a brother sort of. Since I was four I knew Chad and we've been like brothers since.

Gabi though…I guess she had no one.

"Gabi" I began and she chuckled.

"It still feels so weird having you all as friends…the only time a jock would say hello to me was when he needed a tutor because he couldn't fail and be on the team" she kept going as though I hadn't spoken.

I went quiet and let her talk.

She looked at me with a sad expression. "Only my mom ever knew my problems…she was the only person I could trust…until now" she said and I never felt more touched.

"I feel the same way Gabi…you're the first girl I feel I can be anything with and won't be judged" I said relieved we were talking.

She smiled again. I loved when she smiled.

"This feels nice…like my first year at East High…I knew you were a good person to talk with….I felt at first that'd you'd always understand" she said and I nodded.

Then I frowned. "Wait…at first?"

She shrugged. "You know we had our issues" she said and put parentheses around issues with her fingers.

"Oh" I murmured.

"Yeah oh" she said with another roll of her eyes.

She said that as I pulled into my driveway. She took off her belt and looked at me with a very serious expression.

"The way you saw me tonight…I'm not too sure I can stop that" she said.

"Gabi…" I said her name sharply. Why was she still bringing it up?

She ignored me. "I never had to before because I had my mom to kill the pain…now I don't…Troy I cut myself because you left me for a week….when I need you the most you cut me out" she went on speaking sharply.

I didn't know how to respond to that. So I tried the truth.

"I….I thought you wanted to be with Taylor…she's your best friend" I stuttered and she nodded.

"Sure…for a few days…I wanted to be with you more…I always want to be with you the most don't you get that yet?" she asked still in the sharp tone.

I felt like I was a four year old again and Chad and I were being scolded.

Gabriella definitely has a way with words but I got it.

It was my fault she hurt herself and she never wanted me to leave her again.

I won't then. Ever.